Just do what you want. Stop worring about things that other people want. If you don't want anything, don't do anything. Look at things at a day-by-day basis. Relying on people won't get you anywhere. Which I mean in a way of telling you what to do. If you don't want to return to society, then don't. (Aren't you already in a society if you're posting on the internets?(hurrdurr)). Don't worry about your meds, what others think and trust and whatever shit. This is your life. It is time to be the most selfish person you know. Everybody is selfish when it comes to themselves and this is completely normal.

Just do what you do and be what you want to be, or be what you are if you don't want to be anything. Stop caring about shit like that and live your life.