You know? Fuck it. I don't need her to be there for me. The times when I needed her to be there for me were from her emotionally fucking wrecking me. The times I feel like I need her now are always because of her. If we start hanging out again by some means, it will be a mess. She'll probably still have feelings for me, she'll get jealous and shit if she sees me talking to a girl I like or she'll get a boyfriend and I'll get jealous that he gets more of her attention than I do or she'll try to cheat on him with me (hell, it was her second time cheating) or some bullshit like that. It's not worth it. It's nice having someone there for you, but not when they're the reason you need someone there for you. Thanks for the encouragement. Seriously.