Im twenty years old and I cant get over the rotten things I did when I was a fourteen and younger, When I was a little kid my dad and uncle exposed me and my cousin to porn and used to drink around us my uncle also used to teach us how to have dirty sex again we were just little kids, I experimented with my stepmoms kid the first time when I was seven smelling his feet and licking thm, I did that more than once, when I was nine me a nd my cousins gave eachther oral cause we wnted to know what it felt like,when I was thirteen I did stuff with animals and When I was fourteen me and my cousin used to have anal many times( again couriousity) and one time my other cousin joined in and we experimented with anal and oral in the woods, and I also molested my little cousin and half brother at tht same age....My mom and a couple of my closest friends know all this stuff and they tell all the time that suicide aint the answere and that Im a really good person now but ever since I lost my gram and found out my aunt has two years to live all my skeletons broke out of the closet to haunt me... I need help and this is the only place I could turn too so no insults plz oh and Im 20 years old and havent done anything real bad since I was fourteen