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haha I'm in the hikikomori boat for a very long time, I've successfully pushed everyone that I cared about or felt they cared about me in manipulative ways; anybody I did that to won't ever want to contact me again. I've made "friends" with some manipulative people and I'm egging them on to ruin my entire existence as I pretend to be ignorant about everything that they're doing to my life and everything that's going on around me.
I enjoy destroying myself in ways that others would find repulsive.

don't care if this is off-t0pic; my existance is going to be over soon-ish anyways.haha