I you want to beat social anxiety there's no escaping social exposure. Your brain is wired to understand verbal and non-verbal communication with other beings so it's just a matter of re-practicing your skills. You are so afraid of failing when you are already at your lowest, trying to change would be nothing more than a lesson, eliminating the possibilities of erring at a social level. You've become complacent with your lifestyle, you've replaced your social experiences with those of your liking, selectively choosing your interests without noticing that you are digging a deeper hole. Irrational thoughts take rational measures to be overcome, this means putting up with your fears while still doing something about it and reading any further on your disorder isn't going to help anymore. Computers are tools and will never be able to replace the physical factor involved in bonding with others. If you are actively trying to change you need to accept the fact that you are the one controlling every aspect of your existence, the force that commands you to feed yourself, to not commit suicide, to stay at home all day, to convince yourself that you are happy because your fear has overpowered you, it's always been you. Who are you trying to save face for when you have little to no dignity left? Those who try are seen as fighters and they are respected by those who have fought their own battles.

You look outside your window, you take a step outside and you think, the world is so vast that it is overwhelming, you don't know what to do with your life. You know you are capable of getting out of your situation but how often do you sit down and write down solutions or develop plans? You are afraid of your future, the unknown, the thing is everyone is in a way afraid of the unknown to some extent but the fear tends to go away when we set goals, goals keep us busy and when we achieve them they bring a sense of victory and pride. How much longer will you keep avoiding? Are you waiting for your parents to die?

Be yourself: voice your opinion, always, do what you want, always, and be respectful to those who deserve respect. This is what being yourself means, being in total control of your actions. Can you say you are in total control right now? I would say that you are but you are depriving yourself of the 75% of your capacity to enjoy your personal freedom because you want to meet someone else's expectations, perhaps your parents' or your unreal ideals. Even if your ideals are unreal, they still are achievable but are you working on those? I bet things didn't go as expected for you. You expected to have a stable family and you possible didn't get one, you expected not to get bullied and you got bullied, you expected to get into college, and you didn't. And what did you do to deal with all this? You probably tried a little bit but at the lightest form of exertion you decided you couldn't do it, maybe because you didn't have it in you as opposed to your sibling or your classmates, maybe because your parents didn't motivate you enough, or maybe because you are a spoiled brat who's been used to have everything their way. Regardless of the excuses it's never too late to develop that personal strength. You go outside and think there's nothing for you when the next door kid goes outside for a walk, sees an ad that interests him and takes the job.