Why have you guys chosen the path of a loner?
What is wrong with human interaction?
Granted there are a bunch of stupid retarded fuckface idiots in the world, but there are still cool people out there. People you can count on for support and to have a good time with. You just have to get to know people. Do not try to justify your loneliness by saying that no one is worth talking to or every one is full of shit because that's simply not true. There are a lot of shady people in the world, but they are also a lot of good ones.
It's the best feeling in the world to know you have some friends that have you back when the going gets rough.
I use to be a loner. I use to make myself believe that I enjoyed spending all the time for myself. This song "My December" explains exactly how I felt.
/This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need/
/And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to/
I made myself believe I enjoyed the loneliness. I had so negativity and hate in my thoughts it was ridiculous. But I hid it well and people actually believed I was happy by myself. But then one day I just got sick of it. I got sick of walking through malls and seeing people hanging with their friends and turning my head to it pretending that I didn't envy it. That I was better than them because I was by myself, it was the only way I could deal with it. By downsizing other people.
But that one day, I decided it was enough. I said screw it. I stopped letting my mind hold me back. I didn't care about my insecurities, I didn't care what people thought of me, I just went out there are starting talking to people. I made some friends who were into the same thing I was. Who I could connect and have fun with. I didn't have to be alone any more. There were actually people out there that was just like me. And it was the best feeling I ever felt.
I'm not trying to preach to you guys, but take a second and think. Do you REALLY enjoy your loneliness or are you just making yourself BELIEVE you enjoy it for whatever reason? The world is not as cruel as I thought it was and now I'm more happy than ever, but sometimes I do enjoy to be by myself and that's fine, but I haven't completely withdrawn myself from society.
Take a chance and let yourself be happy, geez. There's nothing wrong with feeling good. Not everyone wants to stab you in the back and talk shit about you. Like I said before there are some good people out there, and what held me back was my negative mind and how I was judgmental towards everything. My whole train of thought changed and I became different better person. That's all I'm trying to say. You don't have to be alone. You can do the things you like to do but with other people and be happier. Really. No bullshit. And I'm sorry for this long ass post but I just wanted to fucking say it.