Yes it was an exaggeration, I'm not really going to murder my mother but I want to because she annoys me. I'd rather look at prevention than cure right now.

What Allison said is right, she is my mother no matter what and I guess I owe it to her to chill out and deal with her bs because deep down I know she is so hurt that I moved out (which I said I would when I turned 16).

Although I'm not proud of it, her unhappiness brings me pleasure, but only because she then sees how she makes me feel. Unfortunately we are both stubborn assholes so it won't go anywhere any time soon.

It's such a relief to know I'm not the only one going through this right now, thanks Allison, it did help.