Long ago I came to these boards looking for help in my love life. For those interested in a 6 year old thread here's the link: http://4-ch.net/love/kareha.pl/1226981241/l50
Even though that chapter of love didn't work out as well as I had hoped, all the lessons I learned those days eventually did help me find the love of my life.
My question is where is all the posts of people that need help or encouragement? Let's help everyone that comes here! :)
Well after having a few letdowns I kinda feel extremely devoid of emotions and I no longer want to find love. I just want to be bad to people like they've been bad to me.
I found out, after deciding on changing my behavior, that soon all my 'friends' cut ties with me. It was that easy: each and every one of them neglected me on the first 'bad' thing I did to them. They didn't bother talking to me about it; they didn't want to know why I did what I did. It did not surprise them at all that all these years I've been 100% there for them and suddenly I changed my behavior. They used me for as long as they had to; as soon as I turned my back on them, they turned their back on me.
I won't have any more shit by anyone, no more. Anyone who is coming my way is going to get their ass handed to them properly.
Unfortunately, this sort of reasoning leaves no place for love. I don't need it in the first place. I hope you read this post. I really want your opinion on this. I know this is Love and Romance and that my post is borderline off-topic, but that's just the sort of post yours provoked.
You're absolutely right. You have no room for love for others if you started hating parts of yourself enough to do such a drastic change. In all honesty I was at the same point myself where: "if nobody really cared about me why should I care about them?" The only problem was that it cut out anybody who really who did or would care about you/me.
Believe me when I say that trusting takes time. From the sounds of it you were also one of those nice people that may have been taken advantage of. Rather than getting back at the world for its wrongs may I suggest focusing inwards and improving yourself? Take up a hobby, work out, read books, anything to discover the true you. Eventually you'll find some true friends and/or the love of your life hopefully.
Personally, it takes too much time and energy being angry... Just try to move onto better times. I hope that helps. I'll be lurking around :)
i dont care who says theyre hot or they arent id still put it in all their holes