Hi there, anons.
Have you ever felt like this?
I mean, ive made it to get to the college with a schoolarship, i dont have any problem with my parents and a decent romance history. But i cant help thinking like i dont deserve anything of that because, i dont know, "A lazy idiot like me is not worth of a schoolarship, or parents love, you should learn how tough the life is".
How to deal with this? Have you ever felt like that?
Nobody deserves anything. In the long term, shit just happens because of processes too complex for any lone human to understand.
This goes both ways. You don't deserve to have an easy life or a tough one. You don't deserve to be happy or to suffer. If it happens, it happens.
The only thing any of us can do is make choices that we think will lead to a positive outcome. But when something happens, good or bad, blind luck is just as responsible for that outcome as our actions are. And so there's no point in feeling guilty that blind luck made your life a good one, for now.
Anyone who believes they built their own good life through their actions alone, and not an ounce of chance, is deluded. Anyone who feels guilty that their good life fell into their lap is just the flip side of their same coin.
Sounds like impostor syndrome. People who fall on a certain range on the Dunning-Kruger chart tend to get it. I'll leave you to figure out which part.
I have achieved nothing and I deserve everything.