If it helps OP, get a pet or a plant. I grow roses and talk to them when I feel alone. I treat them as my friends. I can't say I have an answer to your problem since I suffer from it too. I just disagree with >>2 because if you take that attitude you will only end up pushing people away when they are trying to befriend you or become arrogant and bitter. Try to find joy in the small things in life and the stuff you actually have power over.