>>23
Thank you for your post.
It's because I'm bored with everything...I didn't waste my time, I just put out a little manifesto there...just wearing the testes on the outside thank you very much. I live in the real world, and it is what it is.
I can honestly get most any woman that I want, but the woman that I want does not exist. I'm sick of smelling women who reek of mall perfume, who want me to go out to restaurants and to social gatherings. I'm tired of meeting the parents of paying some woman's way only for shallow, shrill dependance and the only thing beyond that is sex. No. I'm better than that. I say this without Ego. I'm probably the most eligible male walking the planet now. The only thing that eludes me is vast wealth, but too much wealth is not good. A wandering, lamentable soul. I am trying, kind sir, trying with all my effort for the week to figure out a way out of my boredom. There are only so many fucking social gatherings I can go to. There's only so much I can tolerate.
Perhaps I'm not looking so much for a person...but an object. What I am is an abstraction looking for a constant. Perhaps the only person I'm truly capable of loving is myself.
The last woman I had was a flirty little blonde. She caught my attention because that week I was into blondes. I've always loved Hotaru....but, I'm a slave to my whims at times.
Three weeks I spent with this woman and I realized. I didn't like her. It was just a momentary lark. She thought I might be her new boyfriend boyfriend. The fool. When I told her that she bored me and that I can do better. She started having a tantrum and said that she knows all the same people as me. I told her, you can have all those people. They are beneath me too.
Everything is beneath me. Like I say, you'd almost think I were Swiss.
I'm looking for something that interests me. Something to keep. The grail. Something that I won't get tired of.
The real world? What is the real world to you? Going to work, chasing the dollars, having friends and associates? Doing what the world wants you to do, like a sheep?
The real world. Feh, that's no fun. I rather like my own reality, at least I don't bore myself. It seems like sometimes the best sex I ever have is with myself.
....I know I am a narcissist. People more qualified than you have called me that. I just wish I could find someone just as good as me.
That person probably will never exist.