Well, basically I was just an emotional tampon/ gay best friend but I was too blinded to believe it. So when I finally realized that I couldn't get any where with, I had moved on or damage any further relationships I may have had (painfully) and when I did she missed all the attention I gave her, so she started to pursue me, probably for the attention I gave her. I decided to move on mid November and was completely over her in early Janurary. In late Feburary early March I fell in love with another girl and she being my friend, I told her about the other girl. And a week later, I was going to the beach and was in town for a day, my friend insisted that I would teach her how to play the guitar, I said sure because she was my friend and I was bored plus I like to show off, but I forgot and she got mad (rightfully so, I mean I did stood her up). Since then we hardly talked. In fact, tonight I found out that she was moving out of our home town (we went to high school together and go to the local college) and I just found out. So I guess the only reasons we were friends is because I thought I could get somewhere with it. However, this doesn't make me bitter about the 'best friends before dating,' two of my good friends are together after being like best friends for 3 years so it can work, its all depends on the people and luck, but don't keep yor hopes up. I know you may say that if I waited I could have gone somewhere, but I wasted 4 years, but you know I am quite glad that I moved on when I did.