I'm so sorry to read about your situation, but it's good that you are taking on the problem with such a constructive attitude. But there is a limit to what you can do, and others are better left to God.
I would like to listen to you more, so if you decide to talk, you can find me in irc.freenode.net by the nick Renderer. Click my name to go to IRC and /msg Renderer <your message here>