loki you sound like a complete wimp. you are crying, sobbing, pulling your teeth out over a girl you meet online. i have had friends depressed when their girlfriend in real life broke up with them, but they weren't even in this bad of shape. i mean they were hurting but they understood that they cannot obsess over a girl that does not want anything to do with them. and consider yourself lucky, you can easily block her screenname and never have to deal with her again. and you were with her for 4 months, 4 freaking months. that is nothing, imagine being dating a girl for 3 years and they break up with you, 4 months is not that bad when you think about it.

shit happens to all of us, and the ones that are sucessful are those who can get back up and keep going. so rather than wasting your energy crying like a woman (which probably one of the reasons why she broke up with you) man up and get going with your life.