6th June. Hey, we’re finally near the end. I was banned from GaiaOnline under accusation of botting (illegally getting gold). Continued with a different account, that I still use until now. When I was banned, I explained to her (using that new account) that I wanted to swap to email because my PM boxes was getting full from her messages that I, in my heart, felt were blessings.
I tried calling her for using my new personal mobile. I made fake voices because she warned me of the other people in her house that could pick up. Nico Robin was amazed at the voices I pulled, and I managed to call her on the 8th. I finished all of my £10.00 credit for those meaningful 15 minutes. 55p/m! Guess that’s the cost of love.
On the 15th, I bought a phonecard and asked to be ready to pick up the phone the following day. Nico Robin said “What should I do about what my sister told me? [Not to talk to me]”. I asked her to tell me her true, hearfelt feelings. Whether she truly loved me, or wanted it to be over. She replied that she does love me, and I never called her though.
18th June. This is probably the day I would mourn every year. I was at school, and using the computers. I checked my email, and a email titled “FINAL” from Nico Robin came. My fingers shivered as I moved the mouse to click it.
She put a similar message as the first challenge, but included that she was sinning talking to me. She forced me to not reply to that email, and my eyes watered, and wanted to cry at that moment. My studies and behaviour today was critically affected by that. That’s why, we’re gathered here today.
I don’t think I should be in love ever again, I knew I was never built for it. I want to die single now. The story isn’t everything that happened, but just the important parts. I didn’t mention everything because I typed this when I was offline, and pasted it into 4-ch later. Being offline meant I couldn’t get the real messages. When I came back home today, I was only injured in my heart but my feelings weren’t intense as when I read the final email. I’m not trying to be Densha Otoko, but only want to know what you guys think of what I’ve done. There’s nothing I look forward to anymore, and now I’m back in the state of not wanting to live, because of the pains of the world, but not wanting to die either because of the punishment in hell.
Love is a strange thing. People brag about it in my home country as if it’s a horse race.
Do you think I did well for a first love?
It’s not like I could meet her in person, actually.
All that’s left of her is her image…phone number in my phone…email address in my email… emails…Private Messages, locked in my banned GaiaOnline account and the one I’m using now…and my ravaged heart she tore.