I didn't mean I'm not sure if I was in love with him, I just have reservations with the word 'love', it's tossed around a lot.
I guess this isn't the 'I'll burn orphanages just to be with you' kind of love- it's more of a 'I'm really attracted to you and wouldn't mind being with/spending time with you' kind of love. So however you define love, I think I'm in it.
But if I were to say that to him, he might just think of it as 'I'll burn orphanages kind' and it'd just drive us apart
But that doesn't really matter because he's leaving, right?