>>15 So you're telling me that you have suicidal tendencies, but don't get professional help because the insurance doesn't pay and you might lose your job? Don't you have your priorities crossed?

This is something which is ruining your life, and may end up killing you. Don't you think you can devote some money to it? Also, I'm sure you can take precautions to avoid letting your boss know about it.

Anyways, your justifications are bizarre... If you had cancer, wouldn't you get treatment, even if that means spending money, or even risking losing your job?