> I am NOT at a desperation point. If I was, I would've done something stupid by now and blown it.

Like I said, you need see this from an outsider's perspective.
When you're that infatuated with a person, its easy to lose your rationality.

I applaud your persistence, I really do, but I think you're in denial about her obvious lack of interest.

For what it's worth, I think there's more mature girls out there who better deserve your affections.