OP, I have the same problem. The only time i've gotten laid was when my dad paid for it on my 21st birthday. I'm not going to beat around the bush: i'm a loser and i'm pretty aware of it. At one point in my life I hated people. Like, really, truly, and honestly HATED people. I thought all women were worthless whores who are only attracted to white jackasses, hot asian boys, and the black rapper that had his jeans hanging off of his butt. I fucking hated women everywhere. All the women I was around talked about such worthless things, and wanted worthless things. But I find that it's not that they are the problem, it's the fact that I can't get over that I can't be their ideal. That I wasn't born to be superman. That i'm not the beautiful guy in magazines, that I'm not ultra-talented, or incredibly intelligent. I can't be that person, because I am who I am. And surely, there is someone out there who can accept that and accept me as I am.

Op, the one thing that honest-to-god bothers me these days is that there is an ideal of perfection forced down the throats of people so badly that life becomes one big delusion. Know who you are, and accept it. Accept your life. If others can't accept you for what you are, then you find new people. If you can't find a girlfriend, search more. Don't be AFRAID, op. And don't harbor grudges or don't feel like everything is unfair. Be who you are. If you don't like it, change it. If it is something you cannot change, then do not fear it.

I have yet to have any girlfriend, and any sort of relationship. But, day by day, I'm going to try and open myself up so that one day, I might, just might be able to find someone worthwhile and be ready for them. I'll read more. I'll watch more movies. I'll learn more, and work harder. And you should too.