>>10
>>11
He is.
I just like him and care about him.
I can't like him beyond a certain way.
Like I said before, we hug over skype. And although we do, I can't picture it well in reality.
I don't feel like having any physical contact a step above a hug, like kisses and loving caresses and such-
It feels awkward even just picturing them in my head
What use is it to like him back if I don't feel like having physical contact of that kind? It just won't work.

>>12
All I feel is fear, nervousness and a lump in my throat.
I feel like a loaded gun. When I think of him, his kindness, I feel pangs in my chest.