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Whyyy are you seeing yourself as some sort of outsider, and that everyone else is playing on an entirely different level from you? Are you suffering from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_post-traumatic_stress_disorder
or what?

"Changes in self-perception, such as a sense of helplessness, shame, guilt, stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings" etc. Read the entire page.