Is OP were a female trying to be a male, what would you say to him (er her?) BE FEMININE?
This is fucking ridiculous; OP should be who he is, ot what someone else thinks he should be.
You should go into therapy and after a few sessions ask your therapist if your mentally prepared to become transgendered. MAKE SURE YOU GO TO A THERAPIST THAT SPECIALIZES IN THIS SORT OF THING. Any other would probably screw you over.
Until then weigh the pros and cons of being male and female before you making your decisions.