Hey everyone,
today I was I visited my dad at the hospital he's currently staying in, and he had a tumour in his lungs. The lab results showing wheter it's malign or not will probably be out on monday.
I also watched the final After Story episode.
I cried during that show, but was just angry and felt down when I heard that about my father. I'm worried more about my mother living alone than anything else. She's pretty stupid and was just taken advantage of before she met my father. Can't imagine her living alone, and I don't want to waste my remaining youth being her nurse.
I know those are bad, selfish thoughts, but I just can't help it. Am I a bad person?
I have some half-siblings on my father's side of the family, but they live rather far away and I don't have good contact with them. I don't really see them as family, although they're for the most part good people.
The only other relatives of mine live 400 km away in another city.
Pretty much the only person I can rely on that's close to me is my only and best friend, we do pretty much everything for each other.
Oh well, life goes on. I don't hope for the best, I just try to deal with things as they come.
I love this board, it's the only place I know where you can talk about your problems without any prejudices.