Was reading a book about masturbation addiction. Read about limbic system hijacking your thoughts with statements like “I could really do with X right about now,” “I sure do miss doing X,”, and switching to "you" once you notice that. Fast forward a single minute, and a sudden "I want to fucking die" out of nowhere. Suddenly realized that something inside of me really wants me dead.

Often have "I want to nut in my niece" thoughts at random, even though I don't have a niece. And "work work work".

Go read it here if you want to. https://easypeasymethod.org/ It's probably an even more useful if you haven't started yet. His proposals are a bit horrifying though, I read it as "don't horde porn, goy, we are the only one you can ask it from, goy, give us absolute control over information, goy".