You need to stop being so ambiguous and just say what the problem is instead of reposting your story and expecting us to figure out what the problem is. It seems that you are completely aware of what is making you angry, but you refuse to share that problem with us. It's like you're basically going to a doctor fully aware of what part of your body is in pain, but not telling the doctor where it hurts, forcing him to examine every part of your body, wasting his time and yours. Where is the logic behind this?