Losing my grip on reality (3)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2016-11-04 17:31 ID:vmOXhJK3

I haven't lived in reality in a long time. I spend my idle hours just fantasizing, building a perfect world in my head to live in. I have even started doing some improvised rituals and such in the belief that doing so would allow me to go to my fantasy world for real. I kinda know that I should start taking steps to fix this, but the thing is I really don't want to. My fantasy world is much more comfortable and easier than reality, so really why should I stop? Can anyone here empathize?

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3 Name: Anonymous : 2016-11-06 08:01 ID:+CMXxUaL

I definitely can. I spend most of my time lying in bed daydreaming. I'm a NEET, so I have a lot of time to do so.

This world is so wrong. Nothing feels natural, nothing feels comprehensible. Not just society or humanity, but the physical world as well. The sky is the wrong color and is too high up. Distance, mass, and size aren't displayed correctly. Air is too thick, walls are too thin. Sound is inherently broken. Light bleeds and bends improperly in disturbing ways. It's all off, like some alien tried to recreate the universe based solely on the subconscious memories of humans who had forgotten most of their experienes here.

But all of that goes away in my mind. Things make sense there. The world works like it should, as do people. I'm not scared, I'm not alone. I know that I should stop hiding and try to acclimate to the real world, but why bother? What does the real world have to offer that could make enduring it worthwhile? Everything out there is pain and struggle and disappointment. The outside is so difficult and confusing, and if you mess up you can destroy your life and the lives of those you care about. What could possibly be worth that risk? I never found anything out there that was half as enjoyable as I imagined it would be. Nothing outside is good. Everything inside is good. There's no real contest, is there?

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