I feel like I don't belong here. Like I was born in the wrong era. People around me are on a different wavelength. I feel like I was supposed to be somewhere else doing something else living a different life.
>>28 I'm 15 and feel the exact same! I belong somewhere in the 20th century, preferably early to mid. I thought the same but since I was a toddler I had memories from that time.
I feel deprived of the future.
When I was a kid, I would see movies and stuff with dial-up modems and outdated mobile phones, people using Windows 95 computers and older kids playing with game-boys. To me, that's what I would have when I grew up. I was going to be a teenager one day, and I would have a pentium laptop or an iBook with a cable to get online, a Game Boy Color, etc.
Even now from time to time, I'll go through some 90s computing stuff and it still feels fundamentally like the future that was being promised to me, like it's still going to arrive one day. I habitually buy random 90s game consoles and some old computers because of this, but they never achieve that important feeling of it actually being real because that's not the time I'm living in, and modern websites don't work on old hardware most of the time.
Even more rationally, when I look at political history there are so many instances where I get the most horrible feeling that we went wrong, we took the wrong route and it doomed us. These are all very boring though. In summary, it feels governments have surrendered their primary economic powers to improve the well-being of the majority of people, trivializing politics and leaving us heading down a very scary path. Throw in the growing spectre of surveillance and things start to look very nasty.
I sometimes get the same feeling looking at old internet cultural artefacts from <2010, that too is a future that is being promised to me but not coming. UMPCs and the like gave way to smartphones, but I still fell like since I live in the future I should have a UMPC. I'll never get what I want, But I'm stuck with it: The future isn't coming.
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There is a short story by William Gibson you might like, "The Gernsback Continuum." It is about the last time a gulf between the promised future and what was ultimately realized developed. It is named for Hugo Gernsback, the editor of early science fiction pulp magazines, most notably Amazing Stories. http://lib.ru/GIBSON/r_contin.txt