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Actually I did excercise 'till my knee went bad. That was about 10 years ago. I got diagnosed with depression when I was ten, so that's about 20 years ago. I do realize what people are trying to say when they talk about working out. I also do hope that you realize what I've been trying to say. Feeling blue isn't the same as being depressed. Everyone feels down every now and then, but depression goes far beyond that. My serotonin levels are low and that's where the pills come in. They balance those levels to the point that I don't constantly think about killing myself - only few times a day.
Another strange thing is that, at times, people recommend me to find a woman for myself. First of all, I don't like humans, and secondly, I really don't think it would be fair for me to start messing with somebody else's life when I can barely control mine. I'm not that codependent. There are enough double homicides as it is already. Besides, I don't feel the need to have people around me. Sure I'd like to find a soulmate, but that takes two. No matter how many women I would have liked to start seeing, it's no good if they don't feel likevice. And, in case you missed it, I can't jog. It's a good day if I don't feel pain here and there for few hours.
I have no reason in my life. I have no goals to aim for. All of my dreams have died long ago and I've accepted that. I'm not going to be a tall, handsome fellow who enjoys the finer things in life. The only way I could get something to live for, except for the previously mentioned reason, is that I would win big time in the lottery. It's pretty hard to enjoy life when you live hand-to-mouth each day, never knowing if you'll be able to pay the rent on time. And no, it isn't an option just to get a work. Each week hundreds of people get fired in here, and there's an official total of ~ 300 000 unemployed, highly educated people. There just simply aren't ANY jobs that would get you anything beyond 5 days of work for 8 € per day. The whole country's gone to hell since -95 and things are looking grimmer each year. No wonder we rank in the top three in the suicide statistics. I mean, people who have graduaded from a university work at the local gas stasion as a part time employee. If that isn't something, then I don't know what is.