Hello. I was introduced to japanese porn a few years ago and I can honestly say I am glad I did. In japanese porn, I found people who expressed all the fetishes I like.
One of my absolute favorites though is bukkake.
In porno-movies, my main interest is the last seconds of an act ( the male orgasm ) and something turns me on seeing a woman completely drenched in intriguing liquids.
Me myself, I was teased all through elementary school because of my looks. I got acne real early, so I was very "unique" and i stood ouf of the crowd ( mainly due to other interests, like videogames etc. )
Now, I can honestly say I have never had a real girlfriend.
From my own point of view, my personality is very vulnerable, and I easily cry if offended. I have a big interest in computers, and usually spend most of my time doing nothing except watching porn at this stupid machine.
Now, my self-asteem is not that great, and while I do like people, I usually enjoy being by myself. It's secure and I don't have to handle interactions with people who might not like my existence.
My question is: Do you think my personality and my history can be the reason to why I like love bukkake so much? Am I a weak person who needs control, just because I feel insecure in public? Could this be a reason why I have had no luck with girls?
Also, am I sick for loving bukkake?
Please give good and encouraging answers.
Hello. I am the first poster. Actually I do have a social life. Though since the teasing started really early, I have always despiced the mainstream.
So, while I do have a social life, my ways might not be completely that of a "popular" crowd.
The thing I find the most hard is attracting females to such activities ( not bukkake :) ) but anime, computers etc.
Also in reply to #3
Yes, the quote from wikipedia actually makes sence.
What really turns me on is a female who seduces me.
Therefore I have grown a fetish for teacher/authority kind of. Meaning I feel I have lost the control so much I need someone to take care of me.
Which makes me wonder, is it normal or should I see it as I have totally lost it?
I am a male, 18 years old, but I might not be "male" material if you guys understand. Thanks anyway!
Sorry, one more thing:
Actually, in school I have a lot of homework, just piling up, and it's not getting smaller.
So much homework that I have totally lost it when it comes to actually making the homework.
As I feel lost in school, I find myself doing nothing ( watching porn ) when I should make the homework.