>>52 As bleak as it looks, i remember writing this at a time of distress. I miss her and loved her because she accepted me for who i was.. and actually kept me.(A rare feat for someone) and i did enjoy her personality.. so carefree and yet caring... something i was always finding. She was also very possesive which i liked... But i guess time away from her (when they moved my schedule to the morning shift my time.) kinda made us drift apart.. As for visiting her.. i guess it most likely is along the way if she does talk to me soon and we do get a stonger relationship...

>>53 More than battletoads.

>>54 As much as i am a wimp (Which i do accept) I do have to point out that not all humans are made the same. some will linger longer than others. i guess that's me. some will be more numb than others.. not me. So i guess i'll always be myself. not some machismo stereotype that you are used to. I will get back up in my feet. But i'm perfectly fine aside from the fact i miss her. I work. I play. I sleep. I eat (not much though). But i just miss her. I still want her with me. So thank you for your input.

And thank you all again for listening...

Loki