Personal Issues @4-ch

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1: My story (4) 2: my life (4) 3: Indian Apts (4) 4: A friend Died Today (4) 5: my life (1) 6: Schizoid Jobs (6) 7: DOMINANT ASIAN WOMEN/submissive white men (13) 8: Tell me about your NEET life (2) 9: Ways to Increase My Will? (5) 10: Please stop my deed which I would do that about revenge porn (7) 11: Endless despair (7) 12: Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (155) 13: Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (103) 14: lonely (5) 15: Hikikomoris/Hikikomori wannabes: How do you make money for a living? (209) 16: how to fail as a neurotypical individual (6) 17: Genuine Loners - Coping with Society (149) 18: My family expects too much from me (8) 19: (How to get over) Guilt from losing my Virginity? (9) 20: I think I have an eating disorder... how do I stop myself? (4) 21: Hikikomori: Can you be hiki and still gainfully employed? (15) 22: Quant (3) 23: I'm gay and I'm scared. (32) 24: I just want somone to fucking hug me. (59) 25: Advice for how to get over my molestor/stepdad?? (3) 26: PTSD, family says I'm overreacting (4) 27: When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (15) 28: I'm an adult and can't look after myself (19) 29: What do you think of Indians? (68) 30: Give away lives (6) 31: Getting over depression :3! (7) 32: My cousin is obsessed with me in a bad way. (5) 33: Men who raped women and got away with it (3) 34: I'm 21 but look 17!! How to look older? (52) 35: Roommate issue (2) 36: How are you doing this fall? (7) 37: [Jealous]Am i not worth anyone's attention?[Self Esteem] (27) 38: Did you ever have a problem that you couldn't tell anyone? (5) 39: I can't do houseshares anymore! (3) 40: dread (5)

My story (4)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-10 10:36 ID:GhLfXuYH

I'm 22, I study mathematics. I used to skateboard and drink lots of alcohol in my 13-18s. My parents would always give me money and I would leave the house for 8-10 hours, skateboarding and drinking. I do not remember much from that age. I do remember myself being an exceptional kid earlier than that. Others would always tell me how smart and kind I am. I was also a brat sometimes, bragging about the expensive stuff that I would get from my parents (but I do remember that I did this without malice). I also remember myself having philosophical thoughts. A particular one was that I was wondering about infinite universes hiding inside the atoms. I remember having problems in school (being called hyperactive).

Later, in high school, things would get much worse, and most teachers would consider me the worst of the worst. I would often be a human shield for other students. When something in class went wrong and some student was blamed, if I judged that the teacher was incorrectly blaming him/her, I would do something even more stupid, so that the attention would drift to my case. This naturally caused me to have many enemies in the teachers' circle. My life would be wasted if I hadn't gotten a computer. I started learning programming on my own and I pretty much mastered it. I did this because I wanted to be a hacker. I had deep political convictions back then, and I wanted to push my own agenda by hacking important servers and putting up messages. I did not succeed, but I later lost interest in that. This interest in programming, however, saved me: I learned to study on my own, and when the time came, I managed to get into university and study maths. I was always very good at maths.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 11:57 ID:24Z1LfGC

I am glad that you did not become a hacker. Prison is not really a nice place for smart guys. Find a job and make some friends.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-12 23:38 ID:RMaAMEoP

I'm also lonely. youare so young.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-13 20:03 ID:GhLfXuYH

>>2
thank you

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my life (4)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:42 ID:P7RBvgkT

(I fucked the first thread, someone please delete that.)
I've had no real memories of happiness, as far as I can recall. My first memory was of my mother dragging me in pyjamas, barefoot, across the city to show me the place where my father was having sex with his lover. I recall my mother telling e and my little sister to call dad to her new lover of the week after they divorced. I remember my mother teaching me to distrust everyone else but herself. I remember learning too well; I learned to distrust everybody, including my mother and my little sister.
I was bullied until I was 14. I would end crying mos of the time. My mother would ask me why I was crying, then she would hit me for not telling her why, and then again for not stop crying.
My father tried to choke us out of her by sending her a little money as possible. We had to move over twenty times because we were not able to pay the rent.
I eventually stopped crying for a while.
Still, my sister would try to find everything she could about me, so she could tell my mother, and gain a little recognition on her eyes. She was starving for affection, and if that included sacrificing her brother for it, so be it.
Eventually my mother married the first man stupid enough to fall for her. They had a child, ad he grew to become a psycho. He has tried to poison me twice.
I think I was almost happy when I had my first girlfriend. We were fourteen, and to her was the only one who would listen. To me, she was the only one who I could trust, and love. When I ound out she was bulimic, it became a hell for me, since I was afraid to lose her everyday.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:43 ID:P7RBvgkT

In college, only five of us actually wanted to be teachers. the rest of the class got into it thinking it would be easy, that they would get and easy job, or any other stupid reason. I bit my tongue and tried to do my best, still.
I got a bad grade at my thesis due to the evaluators not bothering to even reading it (It was painfully obvious, they would ask puzzled and unconvinced about stuff that was carefully explained in the first ten pages). Still, since I got my teahing license, I thought I had somehow made it.
I got employed at a country school. Second grade had a rate of over 50% of students with mental retardations, as all their mother worked handling toxic pesticides, hence physical disablings were common too. Cleft palates, missing limbs, you name it.
Still, I felt empty. No matter how hard I worked, nothing coud be improved. Besides me and another teacher, nobody cared, as long as they got paid by the end of the month. I had tried my best during the second half of my life, I gave it all, and I still felt empty, and being unable to improve anything. I tried to commit suicide almost before the graduation time. I was 32.
Most of the interns at the metal hospital lasted one week, two weeks at most. I was hel dthere over two months. My first pshychologist gave up, since my logical reasoning behing my uicide attemp was pretty sound. The second one just waited for the medications to kick in.
It was not a bad thing, I sill felt lke dying, but I was able to endure it a little more. That was two years ago.
Today, medications seem to haveno effect. I'm taking venlafaxine, quetiapine, conazepam, and zipiclone. Every day gets lnger than the one before it. I've lost all my drive to teach, my drive to live, and I'm passively waiting to die of a cardiac insufficiency. Every day it gets harder to breath. My liver does not work as it should, neither . All the medicatons broke it.

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3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-02 05:11 ID:dw8vgw6z

i read everything

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-05 14:42 ID:F+ZdQ69+

I did as well.

I wonder how many people have had a painful life like yours, because so many people have existed in the past already. I think that most of their personal worries and pain is no longer remembered by anyone. Even something like WWII is already mostly remembered through entertainment: movies, books and games, rather than through the memories of those who suffered and are still able to tell us about it. Eventually the universe will end and everything will be forgotten, like it never even happened.

I hope you are able to forget now and still have some happy moments.

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Indian Apts (4)

1 Name: leo : 2012-08-24 01:00 ID:vLYVYG70

I work as a maintenanace in NJ.
Most of are tenants are Indian highly educated.
They apt are filthy smelly.I just don't understand it .
Most of them live like animals.
Grease all over the kitchen .
Toilets and tubs are filthy dirty.
Most of the women don't work they stay at home and cook .
Never seen a vacuum in their apts.
They are highly intelligent people but they live like Pigs and on the top of that many times they are just arrogant.
Yes I met a few nice kind Indian poeple.
Thank you Rafael

2 Name: Anonymous : 2012-08-30 18:08 ID:Heaven

every thread must be replied to, no exceptions

3 Name: Anonymous : 2013-08-31 08:57 ID:J21GeIMB

if you don't like the filth so much why don't you clean it?
simple solution

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-04-05 00:29 ID:FOCtFxZX

Wow

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A friend Died Today (4)

1 Name: Mark : 2013-11-30 05:23 ID:Vmur2eMj

Today I'm very sad. I was going to sleep when my mother told me this. My friend, who taught me many things. She was a very intelligent and cultured woman, studied at Tokyo University, spoke many languages, travelled around the world, researched regional music and artistical expressions in Brazil. I'm very, very sad about this. It's like, you know, she was OK last week, and today I am informed that she was ina a car accident and was in a coma for two days before dying today. I really want to cry.
Sanae Shibata, You will be missed.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2013-12-19 00:08 ID:Heaven

RIP.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-27 05:02 ID:CnBSRXds

I know I'm a little late, but that's crazy man. A guy I met on this program in Costa Rica just died. It's so weird having someone your age die, and especially someone that was a friend. I feel like people my age (18) shouldn't be dying.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-27 15:57 ID:qYmyvZ2I

Komm, süßer Tod

RIP

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my life (1)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:39 ID:4klWRXvY


In college, only five of us actually wanted to be teachers. the rest of the class got into it thinking it would be easy, that they would get and easy job, or any other stupid reason. I bit my tongue and tried to do my best, still.
I got a bad grade at my thesis due to the evaluators not bothering to even reading it (It was painfully obvious, they would ask puzzled and unconvinced about stuff that was carefully explained in the first ten pages). Still, since I got my teahing license, I thought I had somehow made it.
I got employed at a country school. Second grade had a rate of over 50% of students with mental retardations, as all their mother worked handling toxic pesticides, hence physical disablings were common too. Cleft palates, missing limbs, you name it.
Still, I felt empty. No matter how hard I worked, nothing coud be improved. Besides me and another teacher, nobody cared, as long as they got paid by the end of the month. I had tried my best during the second half of my life, I gave it all, and I still felt empty, and being unable to improve anything. I tried to commit suicide almost before the graduation time. I was 32.
Most of the interns at the metal hospital lasted one week, two weeks at most. I was hel dthere over two months. My first pshychologist gave up, since my logical reasoning behing my uicide attemp was pretty sound. The second one just waited for the medications to kick in.
It was not a bad thing, I sill felt lke dying, but I was able to endure it a little more. That was two years ago.
Today, medications seem to haveno effect. I'm taking venlafaxine, quetiapine, conazepam, and zipiclone. Every day gets lnger than the one before it. I've lost all my drive to teach, my drive to live, and I'm passively waiting to die of a cardiac insufficiency. Every day it gets harder to breath. My liver does not work as it should, neither . All the medicatons broke it.
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Schizoid Jobs (6)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 17:21 ID:eRb1AEyY

Anyone know any good jobs or careers for a person with schizoid personality disorder to go into?

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 17:36 ID:wALYcSk8

Maybe you are just another bisexual?
Its hard to be bisexual. I know this cuz I am bisexual.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 18:03 ID:eRb1AEyY

>>2
I'm not bisexual

4 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 18:09 ID:wALYcSk8

>>3
Seek professional help before it is too late.
This disorder can kill your personality.

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 18:12 ID:eRb1AEyY

>>4
I'm happy being schizoid, I just need a good job to do.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 21:36 ID:xtUG7J8+

Programming, design, any job where you don't have to personally deal with retards, etc. Engineering fields might interest you.

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DOMINANT ASIAN WOMEN/submissive white men (13)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-18 07:03 ID:gxY7ee2R

Any Asian women out there who like to dominate white men?
What would you do to me my Goddess?

4 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-19 15:24 ID:G5WE3jnb

Beat u long time

5 Name: Mistress Meiling : 2008-09-20 00:14 ID:Heaven

Hello worm, I am Mistress Meiling.
As your Asian Mistress I order you to forget your perversions, get off the internet, excel at your classes/job, exercise three times a week, join a community organization, take a lonely and possibly less than attractive woman as your lawful wife, love her deeply, use birth control, adopt two disadvantaged children from Africa, and die happy after a long and fulfilled life.
Do not disappoint me.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-21 01:45 ID:Heaven

How old are you? And are you good looking?

7 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-21 02:36 ID:gxY7ee2R

24 yrs. old
I exercise on a regular basis and eat healthy foods. I have no problems meeting girls. They often comment favourably on my appearance.
Does that make me good looking? Dunno.

8 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-24 00:54 ID:Heaven

Have you ever met an Asian girl that was sexually dominant? Usually White guys like asian girls because they are supposedly submissive..

9 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-24 10:13 ID:gxY7ee2R

Yes, I have. Many times.

Key word in your sentence is 'supposedly'.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-25 16:58 ID:wIprg59g

That's why a dominant Asian woman would be so exciting, because it's unexpected!

Like kinky schoolgirls, niggers in elegant dresses, pretty boys, what-have-you~~~

11 Name: Anonymous : 2008-09-26 07:48 ID:gxY7ee2R

"That's why a dominant Asian woman would be so exciting, because it's unexpected!"

Yes, I agree. The unexpected certainly plays into the sort of 'sexual theatre' which I enjoy.

"niggers in elegant dresses"....LOL. Indeed.

12 Name: iadoreherfeet : 2014-02-23 13:25 ID:naR0iIXN

Hello. I'm a caucasion athletic male...mi am seeking to be dominate by an older Asian female...i love to clean. Chores. Ed cures. I love giving oral sex...min here to please you.......

13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 20:03 ID:3Ym8kgGi

If I have ever wanted to do it, I would book a flight to Bangkok.
As easy as it.
I suggest you to do the same.

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Tell me about your NEET life (2)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-04 11:13 ID:bK7JockM

let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.

surveymonkey.com/s/FHZ7FMY

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-18 14:05 ID:UdrJShEN

Working is for losers

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Ways to Increase My Will? (5)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-21 08:57 ID:OwptmxsU

Hey. I have a problem lately of not wanting to do anything. I've been diagnosed as bipolar, not sure if it'll help with what I'm about to say.

Anyway, I don't know if it's related or not but, lately I've seen myself as being extremely lazy and not wanting to do anything. I can't do things I love doing for more than 10 minutes before I quit and do something else that involves staring into space.

What are some ways I can increase my will of wanting to do things? Cause it's kind of annoying that I can't do things I want to do or love to do without getting a bored or "meh" feeling after 5-15 minutes.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-27 20:54 ID:4mOUtpyU

You sound just like me. Actually, I'm going to a therapist in a few days to be diagnosed to see if I'm bipolar.

How are things?

3 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-29 17:12 ID:OwptmxsU

>>2

I wish you the best of luck! Actually things aren't too bad right now, I'm still in the same situation as described above but I can't complain. I've literally spent this whole time sitting in my room staring at my TV, hah.

4 Name: BM-NBJmBTVCZn65R5btJR7iZyJVqsEnqV43 : 2014-02-11 02:46 ID:uFZiQbGX

>>3

Since I rarely come here there's a delay in me replying. Sorry. It'll probably be days until you see this -- seriously why do we come here?! It's like some graveyard of the internet.

Anyway, if you want a quicker form of communication, I made a BitMessage address: BM-NBJmBTVCZn65R5btJR7iZyJVqsEnqV43 -- The software is simple enough to use. I got round to making a doctor's appointment to be diagnosed.

What do you do when you feel depressed? Do you have any meds?

5 Name: BM-NBJmBTVCZn65R5btJR7iZyJVqsEnqV43 : 2014-02-11 02:47 ID:uFZiQbGX

Shit I just realized the ID has changed :/

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Please stop my deed which I would do that about revenge porn (7)

1 Name: Futon : 2013-11-23 16:20 ID:x9njg5PY

A 17 year old girl. I have some naked pics of her. It's because she sent them to me.
We used to have a good time, but now she has a boyfriend. She doesn't tend to reply me. I dont like it.
so, now I'm thinking about revenge porn....what do you think?

2 Name: don't do that : 2013-11-26 00:56 ID:Qjey8tDz

what's wrong with you? go beat off and eat some pizza and stop thinking about that stuff.

I don't come on here often enough to know how to tell if people are trolling or not. Is this person even real?

3 Name: Bob : 2013-11-30 05:24 ID:nKxfniFP

Look, send the pics to me and I will tell you what to do about this, ok?

4 Name: Anonymous : 2013-12-19 08:26 ID:Lm3Yllc2

Don't do it

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-04 18:09 ID:q4Qx3a7Y

Revenge for what? Losing interest in you? Not really revenge worthy is it?

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-04 18:10 ID:q4Qx3a7Y

Also wanted to add that I did something like this and it wasn't all that satisfying.

7 Name: Anonymous : 2014-01-21 08:58 ID:Y2NMuSfN

Don't do it. You'll get into a heap load of trouble. I've done it before and it wasn't worth all the trouble that I had to go through afterwords. Plus you'll feel like a worse person than you do now because of it.

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