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1: Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (165) 2: I'm gay and I'm scared. (35) 3: lost fain in humans (11) 4: Hikikomori: Can you be hiki and still gainfully employed? (18) 5: Tell me about your NEET life (14) 6: my life (21) 7: Witch stole my penis (10) 8: Friend thinks they're an sjw (9) 9: Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (111) 10: Pedophile discussion thread. (3) 11: Questions for self (2) 12: My family expects too much from me (10) 13: My story (10) 14: When I was a teenager, I molested someone... (18) 15: My story. Pls read it.. (14) 16: Hikikomoris/Hikikomori wannabes: How do you make money for a living? (213) 17: CP... (13) 18: I have really serious problem with my life.please help (3) 19: (How to get over) Guilt from losing my Virginity? (10) 20: Please teach me English (7) 21: Azazel has come to me in dreams (10) 22: Schizoid Jobs (9) 23: Endless despair (10) 24: Trying to become friends with neighbors (1) 25: ugly black monster in my porn (2) 26: gaynal sex (1) 27: my life (3) 28: A friend Died Today (9) 29: Not Social (7) 30: Sean Kinnier Sex Offender (1) 31: Men who raped women and got away with it (6) 32: Ways to Increase My Will? (6) 33: Indian Apts (4) 34: DOMINANT ASIAN WOMEN/submissive white men (13) 35: Please stop my deed which I would do that about revenge porn (7) 36: lonely (5) 37: how to fail as a neurotypical individual (6) 38: Genuine Loners - Coping with Society (149) 39: I think I have an eating disorder... how do I stop myself? (4) 40: Quant (3)

Sexually molested by older brother. Should I tell to my family? (165)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2007-05-02 20:00 ID:F8NYbquD

I’m 28 now but when I was 9 my older brother started touching me while I was sleeping, masturbated me and rub his penis in my ass.

I suddenly changed personality, from an extroverted kid to a very introverted one, always in my room, no friends, almost all my puberty depressed, I tried to never mention his name again, just call him "the other one" (I have another brother) and trying to keep always an eye on my little sister, worry about he will try the same with her.

I don’t know if it was not obvious for my parents the change in personality and my strong reluctance to be in the same place with him, now I know these and other behaviors I had then, are clearly a sign of child sexual abuse, but my parents are catholic (we live in South America) and they had an excellent relation with their families, so, they would never thought in something like this.

My dad change, for him been a good brother is very important and he never understood why I start hating my older brother. Why always when he talked something about him, I did faces, and why I transformed in a crybaby loner.

My mom for the other side interpreted this as a behavior- adolescence issue and start overprotecting me even more. Cause I didn’t have a social life and was very quit she always put me like an example of discipline, academically and at home, and we - my mom and I- formed a strong relationship that all the others- included my dad and sister- feel alienated from it.

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156 Name: SomeoneConfused : 2015-07-02 07:08 ID:La6++/uV

Well around th he time I was 4-6 my moms, friends, daughters, brother made me his girlfriend. At that time I was very young and thought of it as a game. I am 11 and almost 12 now and still remember a lot of it. I was really gullible and he'd say to close my eyes, and that he had a "lollipop" for me and told me to stick my hands out. He'd then place his # on my hand and i thought it was gross and would let it drop out of my hands. At that time we visited a lot! There wasn't really anything sexual tho. He'd give me kisses when people weren't around. And we usually hung out a lot. His age was around 10-12 at the time. One day when I was a bit older I got sick of all the kisses and his #. And told him "I don't like it I'm sick of it and that I think it's disgusting" I never said it as a breakup tho. He did stop for sure tho and nothing really happened after. Yet I somewhat feel bad cause ever since then he'd look at me sadly, act as if I'm not there, I haven't even talked to him since then even after all the times I've gotten to be near him. I never talked to him either tho. Of course I didn't know that what I had been doing was bad and thought it was some type of game or like tv where people had gf's and bf's. I've never told anyone about this at all. And I'm not planning to. It was a small thing and not worth telling my family. If I told my friends soon enough it would get all over the school and for the people who knew what a slut was they'd be calling me that for sure. I just thought I should share this with people who don't know me at all. I live in wisconsin if u wanted to know... but I guess that's really all...

157 Name: ConfusedTears : 2015-07-02 07:10 ID:La6++/uV

Well around th he time I was 4-6 my moms, friends, daughters, brother made me his girlfriend. At that time I was very young and thought of it as a game. I am 11 and almost 12 now and still remember a lot of it. I was really gullible and he'd say to close my eyes, and that he had a "lollipop" for me and told me to stick my hands out. He'd then place his # on my hand and i thought it was gross and would let it drop out of my hands. At that time we visited a lot! There wasn't really anything sexual tho. He'd give me kisses when people weren't around. And we usually hung out a lot. His age was around 10-12 at the time. One day when I was a bit older I got sick of all the kisses and his #. And told him "I don't like it I'm sick of it and that I think it's disgusting" I never said it as a breakup tho. He did stop for sure tho and nothing really happened after. Yet I somewhat feel bad cause ever since then he'd look at me sadly, act as if I'm not there, I haven't even talked to him since then even after all the times I've gotten to be near him. I never talked to him either tho. Of course I didn't know that what I had been doing was bad and thought it was some type of game or like tv where people had gf's and bf's. I've never told anyone about this at all. And I'm not planning to. It was a small thing and not worth telling my family. If I told my friends soon enough it would get all over the school and for the people who knew what a slut was they'd be calling me that for sure. I just thought I should share this with people who don't know me at all. I live in wisconsin if u wanted to know... but I guess that's really all...

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163 Name: !sPlbhUFiI2 : 2015-10-27 22:23 ID:Heaven

Hello!

I just wanted to send a quick follow-up to see if you received my e-mail below, sent on the 21st. If you could take a moment to have a look it would be greatly appreciated.

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According to the AMA, approximately 50% of individuals with a ‘serious’ mental illness have problems with substance abuse. A significantly greater percentage of individuals with substance dependency have reported a ‘co-occurring disorder’ of some severity - most commonly depression and anxiety. As many treatment professionals know, treatment must address this strong relationship of ailments in order to be effective.

Information for non-professionals, however, is severely lacking on the web. Many websites leave out critical or new research, fail to make information comprehensible and even refer to co-occurring disorders as ‘Dual Diagnosis’ – terminology from an outdated version of the DSM. This is why I’m reaching out to recommend a new resource that is a comprehensive aggregation of current research in an easy-to-follow format. I believe you will find this page to be the best available on the web for its topic:

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164 Name: christa : 2015-11-23 04:52 ID:1Db/R+tX

I'm 15. My brother is 16 and he comes in my room at night most nights. He saw a video of me going down on 3 guys at a party. He thinks I'm a Slut. First time he did it I cried while he squeezed my ass and jerked off. He's never fucked me But he will say shit like I'm so glad my sister is a Slut. I'm going to Fuck you. Your so got. All the boys say you love to get fucked. He's never tried but now when he does it I get wet and I've Evan touched my self. I don't like feeling this way. I should be disgusted that my brothers hands are feeling up my tits and ass. How can I keep him from making me Fuck him

165 Name: Anonymous : 2016-02-03 02:21 ID:Vpt8Y8ny

Avery Morrow is a disqusting homosexual neofacist pedophile who needs to die. We must find Avery Morrow and brutally murder him. Avery Morrow's long flacid penis curves around into his anus and through his mouth into 0037's butt. He violently thrusts the flacid object through his mouth and into the ass of 0037. 0037 moans with joy. Avery Morrow has 10000 orgasms with force, filling 0037's colon with 2000 gallons of semen and dried smegma.The force of the orgasms makes Avery Morrow's penis turn erect, fracturing due to it's impossible curves. The force of his exploding penis blasts him backwards 10000000000km into the past. Suddenly 1000000000000000000000 shotas fall from the sky and he can't resists and fill them with cum and is assraped 10000 times in prison. His anus prolapses forever and he is always leaking shit. He was a basqu3 niggir the whole time the end.

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I'm gay and I'm scared. (35)

1 Name: AliD123 : 2011-12-29 11:59 ID:xWDZFYiC

So...Hi. My name is Emily. I'm 16.
This new girl moved into our neighborhood, and we've been sort of seeing each other. I think I love her. I used to have a boyfriend but with him it just felt...wrong. His skin was too dry and he was too messy and just...not like a girl. But with Courtney(thats her name) it feels right, and different.
This is the part that scares me. She wants to come out. She wants to be in a 'real relationship' but I can't. My parents are so...perfect? They're strict Catholics and I have an older sister who is so caught up in solving math problems she doesn't notice that I hardly sleep at night. I know my parents would never understand. They'd send me to live in Iowa or something.
I don't want to be gay, but I don't know what to do. I was in love with a girl before, but it would never have worked out.
I really need some advice. I have no idea how to deal with this.

26 Name: Pixel8 : 2012-01-21 21:48 ID:7gkyFuMT

Chris, who posted above, is a solid resource from an excellent organization. I would be happy to put you in touch & show you how you can verify their authenticity before you trust them. Again, my email is reddittroubledteens@gmail.com.

27 Name: Chamomile : 2012-01-21 22:12 ID:aJxakJag

Emily, what's the name of the camp in question? They vary from "mostly just inconvenient" to "the thing of nightmares," if you give us a name we can do some digging and find out just how much you should be willing to sacrifice to avoid being sent there. If in doubt, err on the side of caution, which in this case means staying as far away from Utah-based homosexual "cure" camps as possible. They tend to lean towards the nightmare side of things and it will cause permanent psychological damage to you if it does. Yes, you can recover from these camps to the point where you can move on and be happy with your life, but it will leave permanent scars.

I'm trying not to scare you, because it's important to stay calm and rational and make your own choices instead of acting on blind faith in strangers from the internet due to panic, but it really is important you understand the stakes here.

A few suggestions.

First, a lot of people have provided links to organizations that might be able to protect you. If they can, this would be, by far, the most preferable option. It's low-risk and socially sanctioned, which will probably make an eventual reconciliation with your parents much easier if you decide you want one.

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28 Name: lilmissmoonshine : 2012-01-23 18:48 ID:f+KVDxvF

I wanted to say, don't be afraid of Utah as a place to start over if you need to get away once you're there/can't get away before then. It has the deserved Mormon reputation, but as a result the gay community is extremely loving, accepting, and tight-knit. I recently moved away so I can't really give you any further advice than that and can't offer you a place to stay, but I'm on your side. We're all on your side. I've been in your position before and remember; your parents love you, and they don't understand. This is a horrible, knee-jerk reaction born of ignorance. It's awful, but it's going to be okay. I swear it gets better. Message me if you need somebody to talk to, but I definitely advise going to reddit (r/lgbt or r/ainbow) as a source of help and advice.

29 Name: Anonymous : 2012-01-26 18:36 ID:Urm1vyHH

Oh crap I am worried about her.

30 Name: Pixel8 : 2012-01-30 11:07 ID:7gkyFuMT

I'm worried about her, too. She has not contacted me yet.

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34 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:24 ID:9yaDorGu

So, that is normal, is bisexuality. I was 15 years old when I fell inlove with a girl. And my thoughts was like "Wtf, I am inlove with a girl, that is wreid"
I had alot of hours of thinking about it, and understood, that this girl is too important to me. I told to her about my feelings, and we were together.
Bisexuality - is not terrible thing. You just love a person. Person, which understand you and you don't feel empty.
So, what about parents, just don't tell to them. They may not understand that. Just live with your feelings.

35 Name: Anonymous : 2016-01-17 17:22 ID:y/wC8INq

>>34
This post is a few years late.

I wonder what happened to >>1-san. Is she okay? The horror stories I hear from those camps are some pretty fucked up shit.

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lost fain in humans (11)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-23 15:01 ID:nuYSVlxP

I'm 25 years old living in taiwan at the moment, Over the years i've experienced shitloads of things. When i was 16 i went through major depression till i was 18, people at school often mocked me either for my fat (i was pretty chubby back then) or just cos i was too nice, during those two years i've attempted suicide twice but failed. A Old close/best friend of mine saved me back then and inspired me to keep living and work hard. I've met girls who tried to take advantage of me because i was being too nice, i end up getting hurt my self many times in the past. I lost one of my really important/close/best friends in the past during the same time my parents got divorced also during the time my first girlfriend cheated on me. after my parents divorce and gf cheating i fell back into a deep anxiety that whenever im sleeping i feel like im getting chocked. There was one night that the anxiety was so bad i had to go to hospital at 2AM cos i was unable to breathe. The chocking lasted for about 6 months till i started to get better. Music has always been my passion, I've managed to release my own EP on iTUNES and MV in the last 4 years but my father has always been trying to get me to stop and never really supported me in my music. During my 4 years doing music i've met many people who pretended they wanted to help me out, but end up just using me. People who knew i was doing music always wanted to know if i know any celebrity (i've met some during my music years) and wanted me to introduce to them. I also met girls who pretended to be nice to me so that i would like them and be their bitch and do whatever they wanted me to do. I've even met a girl who wanted to be famous that she got close to me and when she started to get popular, she threw me out as if i was a battery that ran out of electricity.

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2 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-02 12:26 ID:67v+i2sH

can I listen to some of your music?

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4 Name: Anonymous : 2015-02-18 00:42 ID:Heaven

>>3
http://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/british/fag

> fag noun (YOUNG BOY)
> › [C] UK old-fashioned (at some large British private schools) a younger boy who has to do jobs for an older boy
> If a younger boy fags for an older boy at a British private school, he does jobs for him.
> Idioms
> can't be fagged

5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-09 11:01 ID:PN5eoKTS

Did you move to Taiwan to start life over? How have you found it to work for you?

I know this thread is a couple months old so OP might not be checking it, but I can relate to the fundamental sentiment being posted here that all people are inherently bad.

It sounds like you've went through some shit, but it also sounds like you've accomplished some good things, too. You may not feel it at the moment, but getting your music out there really is an achievement, and your average everyday person will never do something like that. Sure, people will try to use you to get ahead, but you can't judge your accomplishments by that. Try to look at it from the perspective of the self, instead: you set out to do something, you committed to it, you saw it to completion, and you released it to the public. That's an accomplishment, no matter how many people download it.

And on top of that, you're living in Taiwan. Your post insinuates that you are from a Western country, so I don't think you need me to tell you how big of a deal it is to make a move like that, especially considering the fact that most people stay in their hometown all their lives, or at most only move a couple hours away.

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6 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-04 08:35 ID:o7bclE2r

OP here

>>2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qXppETR7GI you can hear it here :)

>>5 well two months ago i went back to Australia for a month, apparently that helped me a lot. i think it might be because i was in taiwan for too long and prob just miss my hometown (forgot to mention i grew up in Australia). I think its just the culture in Taiwan is so different that people often judge me thinking Im taiwanese and expect me to know certain things.

I had a thought about all the things i've accomplished and i feel a lot better, like you said the average person will never do something like that.

Going back to Australia made me feel a lot better was people back in Australia are a lot nicer compare to Taiwan. I think the problem i had was i couldn't let go of the past especially the people who made me go through shit, I just told my self i had to let it go and after it was pretty much all good now. plus i think working helps a lot as it gets your mind off things

7 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-05 04:23 ID:MP+rYkn7

How do you fail at suicide? It seems to me you have to be either retarded or an edgy fag who actually wanted to live to do that.

NotATroll

8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:48 ID:kGCUA4UV

Not OP here, but it's pretty common for people to fail. They'll take a bunch of pills or some drug and think it will kill them, but instead they end up passed-out and found by someone who brings them to the hospital. Not a pleasant experience in any case. I imagine it would be like the worst headache you ever had, combined with worst hangover, and multiplied by a unknown number...

You have to remember: the people doing this aren't (usually) acting rationally. It's no surprise that they fail. In a lot of cases, there is an overwhelming emotional or brain chemistry problem. Ironically, if you fix that, the suicide thoughts go away...

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Hikikomori: Can you be hiki and still gainfully employed? (18)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-10-18 19:31 ID:62pjvCUd

Browsing through various hiki-related threads here, there seems to be a split between hikis who exclusively leech off parents, and those who do have jobs or school but still call themselves hiki.

I'm curious about this because my personal life is very hiki-like and yet I have a full-time job. For a few years I was totally hikikomori without any employment, but through a stroke of luck I finally did get a job which let me fully support myself. Even after two years though, I have no life outside of work. All my friends and social contacts slipped away during the years I was locked inside my apt as an unemployed recluse, and I haven't made any new friends even after I started working. I thought after starting work again my life would return to normal but it hasn't as I'm still drowning under this inexplicable apathy and no longer care about hobbies I used to have. If not apathy then I feel irrational fear and anxiety. When not working I browse the web or watch online videos and don't go outside unless I need to. I feel like "real" life is slipping further and further away with each wasted day, and yet I can't seem to stop it. And I fear that if I lose this job (it's a bad recession after all) I will slip back into full hiki-mode and never be able to crawl back out.

I remember reading that all hikikomoris are by definition also NEETs (but not vice versa), and yet my life seems to have many attributes of hikikomori (abnormal social isolation, afraid to leave apt, etc). Does anyone have a similar story?

9 Name: Anonymous : 2010-03-01 14:37 ID:36iRiqZo

>>8
Hit reply too fast... anyway, what I meant to say was that I am not really socializing much more when I do go out. Being lonely by myself in my room, or being lonely while surrounded by people, both of them can be tough.

The first (being a real hikki) is easy on one hand, as you don't have to be constantly worrying about how you act, what others think of you. But you slowly rot away from the inside, the constant feeling of knowing that you can't keep it up forever.

The second (being lonely, but having a job or an education) can be hard because it feels like you are constantly being gnawed away at by insecurities, having to conform to society. But at least you are trying to survive, that does give yourself a certain sense of pride and hope.

I think I'm doing what many people are, which is switching between the two when it gets too hard...

10 Name: Anonymous : 2010-03-04 12:10 ID:YjB5yx5s

Fellow former hiki here.

What if you don't want to 'recover'? I have absolutely no interest in the real world. The only reason why I leave my room is because circumstances force me to.

11 Name: Anonymous : 2010-03-05 05:26 ID:9VmlaD6d

only if you work entirely online

12 Name: Anonymous : 2010-03-24 06:15 ID:KwJpEVS6

I think it's stupid when people argue that you can't be a real recluse if you've got a job. Ostracisation is a state of mind. When I was in college I certainly didn't feel any more outgoing for it - if anything, it was the only place I could get a feel for my own alienation. Being outside of your comfort zone makes you realise how small your self-constructed world really is - if you're stuck at home all day, browsing the internet, there's no such wake up call. You can be a emperor-without-clothes all day without reprimand, for better or worse.

13 Name: Anonymous : 2010-03-24 17:23 ID:4kM/O3xI

As somebody who spent 7 years as a defined hikikomori; that is, zero friends, lived alone through government assistance, and no job - I don't believe you can be considered one if you maintain employment. A hikikomori is defined (cultural aspects aside) as someone who cannot cope with society and so they withdraw. However, the moment you obtain a job you have something in your life you must oblige to, as opposed to sitting alone, inside, not communicating with anybody real, you do go out.

While you can maintain a lifestyle of solitude through not having friends or partaking in lonesome activities, you are now more of an introvert, nothing more. Unless their is still some medical issue at hand, such as agoraphobia of something, you're not really a hikikomori unless you're giving into solitude at your own free will, and avoiding everything that comes with the real world, like a job, friends, school etc etc.

14 Name: meku : 2013-05-30 05:56 ID:8HkG3f10

i have a full time job....but i can make my hours and choose to work at night so i dont have to see people. im a welder. so i dont need to interact with people at work. if i didnt need to support myself i wouldnt leave home. i dont like people. they scare me. they make me uncomferatuble and uneasy. i never know what to say and always feel like an idiot when i say something. when i get home i get strate inside and stay inside. my windows are always coverd and i never answer the door and dont even have a cell phone anymore. all i need is my pc and my anime. i dont like the outside world. its done nothing but cause me discomfort. im better off in my house locked up. and i hate the fact that i have to ever leave. i wish i had lots of money so i didnt have to leave. so besides the fact i do leave my house to get money so i can buy anime and games and food i do consider myself an american Hikikomori. i may be wrong but thats how i see myself and im hapy with it. i v always been shut in and untill i moved to a town in the sticks it was alot harder to live and be comferatble like i am now.

if anyone has a response to what i said or if i can even call myself a Hikikomori email me at kevininforks@gmail.com

15 Name: Anonymous : 2013-06-25 22:36 ID:+k7aWQre

>>11

This. IMO truly self-sufficient hikkis tend to make ends meet, without leeching off parents/society. Mostly IT or investing.

It's probably silly pride thing, but I'd rather die alone without being burden to anyone, rather in momma's basement...

>>13

Indeed. Though I'd not call it 'cope' - in my case it's simpler than that, if not subtle - social bonds, like everything in life, have their highs and lows. The end result is zero, so what's the point. The meaning of life is perpetuation of species, persuading happiness is always temporary. That's how I perceive humans to be wired.

As for the basic instinct to seek human bonds, I think it works like with wolves - either you're in the pack, or not, whichever works for you.

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16 Name: Anonymous : 2015-10-11 11:05 ID:MkL911aZ

OP here. It's been over six years since I made this post originally. I've been out of work for 4 years and on disability. I haven't spoken to my parents or any other family face-to-face since last Christmas. I have made the decision to kill myself via hanging tomorrow morning.

Goodbye, cruel world.

17 Name: Anonymous : 2015-10-13 03:14 ID:Heaven

rip in peace

18 Name: Anonymous : 2015-11-22 22:55 ID:teHj7VDp

>>16
See you spacecowboy...

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Tell me about your NEET life (14)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-04 11:13 ID:bK7JockM

let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.

surveymonkey.com/s/FHZ7FMY

5 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-13 21:24 ID:4dtZyTLV

History is my main hobby

6 Name: Anonymous : 2014-10-14 10:26 ID:Heaven

I study Burmese

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-27 06:46 ID:4GzQRW+A

You die if you work
I cannot permit myself to help someone else accomplish work

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10 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-28 13:53 ID:LOZmlM+j

>>1
i masturbate multiple times daily

11 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-15 12:51 ID:6SHnhHvl

Won't tell you anything, because of reasons.

12 Name: Anonymous : 2015-11-07 18:05 ID:VPeV5tvw

There is no welfare in my country so I live in fear.

13 Name: Anonymous : 2015-11-13 11:38 ID:3CQC5jHA

I am sick and tired of it.

14 Name: Anonymous : 2015-11-18 03:20 ID:Qij2Vrjj

I've been thinking about becoming a monk at the Buddhist temple near me. It would mean that I could continue to behave the way I do, except without the stimulus from computers.

I'm just worried that I won't be able to overcome the discomfort of living life without the luxuries I have now.

But what else can I do?

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my life (21)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-03-21 22:42 ID:P7RBvgkT

(I fucked the first thread, someone please delete that.)
I've had no real memories of happiness, as far as I can recall. My first memory was of my mother dragging me in pyjamas, barefoot, across the city to show me the place where my father was having sex with his lover. I recall my mother telling e and my little sister to call dad to her new lover of the week after they divorced. I remember my mother teaching me to distrust everyone else but herself. I remember learning too well; I learned to distrust everybody, including my mother and my little sister.
I was bullied until I was 14. I would end crying mos of the time. My mother would ask me why I was crying, then she would hit me for not telling her why, and then again for not stop crying.
My father tried to choke us out of her by sending her a little money as possible. We had to move over twenty times because we were not able to pay the rent.
I eventually stopped crying for a while.
Still, my sister would try to find everything she could about me, so she could tell my mother, and gain a little recognition on her eyes. She was starving for affection, and if that included sacrificing her brother for it, so be it.
Eventually my mother married the first man stupid enough to fall for her. They had a child, ad he grew to become a psycho. He has tried to poison me twice.
I think I was almost happy when I had my first girlfriend. We were fourteen, and to her was the only one who would listen. To me, she was the only one who I could trust, and love. When I ound out she was bulimic, it became a hell for me, since I was afraid to lose her everyday.

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13 Name: Anonymous : 2014-11-01 16:42 ID:S07FRigB

Start running. Run like hell. Run until you cannot run anymore. It'll numb the pain.

14 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-28 09:56 ID:XMOikB48

you made plenty with what you had

if you wanted to you could do it again

15 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-22 18:49 ID:bgu6DM5p

Op here.
My father died of AIDS related health issues almost two months ago, no wonder given his lifestyle. I felt nothing. As usual.
I was unable to find a job as a teacher this year.I didn't try very hard, since I dn't think I could have made a good job as a teacher in this metal state of utter apathy. I was thinking of trying suicide, but my siblings (I'm the eldest of seven) are already quite shocked with my father's death.
The rest of my family have taken every chance to use his death as an excuse to be drama queens and play the high-school alpha bitch.
I got a cat. She is happy to see me. I like petting her, but that's it. I guess she must be quite the happy cat.

16 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-23 06:41 ID:VpDHF8Ue

you're not op

17 Name: Anonymous : 2015-04-01 23:30 ID:afc5V3E2

What kind of things do you like to do?

18 Name: Anonymous : 2015-07-07 23:35 ID:7Pmq+NsH

Op again.
I could list things I used to enjoy doing. But, I don't enjoy those things any-more. My MGS4 last save is from 2013. I don't play any-more. I don't watch films any-more.
My family has taken the drama-queenery to a new level, and there are feuds including friends of theirs. It is insanely stupid.
I have been unable to visit my youngest brother because of those idiotic quarrels.
The cat seems happier than ever. All she needs is food and company.

19 Name: Anonymous : 2015-08-03 07:47 ID:CMbahfdD

Sometimes I wish I could be a cat.
Or just live a cat-like life without worries, that'd be nice.

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Witch stole my penis (10)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2014-09-20 23:49 ID:M1W+O8Hz

A witch stole my penis what do I do? I don't think they will let me burn her on a stake.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2014-12-07 15:07 ID:M1W+O8Hz

Plz help. Life is empty without penis.

3 Name: fliers2 : 2014-12-10 06:13 ID:nfxcHB3d

this is interesting

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5 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-02 07:55 ID:TEnv5ePC

This must of been quite the traumatic experience for you, I wish I could help but I know nothing about penis theft.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2015-01-12 19:50 ID:vNJvnz4Y

The only way is to steal another man's penis. It's a shitty thing to do but you have no choice.

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8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-15 21:11 ID:NTlgEB2m

>>7
You can just ask politely and she will give it to you.

9 Name: Anonymous : 2015-09-10 17:56 ID:/PPfajrA

>>8
In the butt.

10 Name: Anonymous : 2015-09-10 22:01 ID:5pdjwFiX

you must kill the self

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Friend thinks they're an sjw (9)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2015-05-08 17:57 ID:mc2jKdIP

This is going to be really lame: A while ago I made a small post criticizing sjws. (I think you know what I'm talking about) While I have no problem with LGBTQ people and rights in general and don't tolerate racists. A friend decided to take it upon themselves to take it personally and seems somewhat avoidant with discussing this issue. One of their reasons for avoiding me was that they get stepped on in public for being "who they are".

This seemed unfair as I did not personally address the person, nor did I associate them as an insufferable keyboard warrior. I've been stepped on in public as well back when I used to grow my hair out. But I think the person had been hasty and has suddenly deemed me as one of those people who wronged them and stepped on them in public.

They made some passive aggressive posts for a bit and they apparently can't seem to differentiate between a reasonable person who just happens to stands for genuine "social justice" issues (However you define that) from the sort of people who make attempts at getting offended at everything, not listening to differing viewpoints/criticism, and just mirroring the same sort of bigoted behaviour which they said they are against.

I wasn't sure if I should point this sort of bullshit out to them. I think it's something that they should know. It's been a few weeks. Or should I just dismiss them as a lost cause? I don't expect to be friends with them again. (So maybe there's nothing to lose) It's been bothering me for a while. But it's something that I need to get off my chest since I've been thinking about this a lot. Thanks for your time.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:29 ID:EUlD/dR2

Explain to them what their behavior looks like to a neutral outside observer. They'll either hate you and get angry, or they'll get it and change their ways.

Ultimately all humans have an ego problem, and unless someone else points out our errors (whatever those may be), it's difficult to change.

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7 Name: Anonymous : 2015-09-10 17:54 ID:KL0vHuMD

You "don't tolerate racists?" You "have no problem with LGBTQ people?" You're here posting passive-aggressive crap about someone else who's apparently got more revolutionary zeal than you?

Look in the mirror. You're the SJW. And please, please spare us further posts about your SJW-vs-SJW passive-aggressive cripplefight.

8 Name: Anonymous : 2015-09-19 11:31 ID:Heaven

>>7
You "drink water"? You "eat food"? You're here posting passive-aggressive crap about some other anonymous who's apparently got more revolutionary zeal than you?

Look into the argument. You're using a pretty bad one. Please spare us form them.

9 Name: Anonymous : 2015-09-20 18:54 ID:Heaven

>>7
del

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Ever feel you don't belong in this era? (111)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2009-10-08 14:18 ID:LbWHCHMe

I feel like I don't belong here. Like I was born in the wrong era. People around me are on a different wavelength. I feel like I was supposed to be somewhere else doing something else living a different life.

102 Name: Anonymous : 2013-04-15 19:49 ID:lLGYEC9s

Yeah, this era does suck in quite a few ways. The decline of human interaction, and decay of reading/writing abilities due to mobile devices and "text speak" sucks - those in the past were far better spoken without such distractions.

The sucky, repetitive quality music has taken on also makes this a crummy era. In the past, you could trace major developments in music ranging from stuff like the Beatles/Stones/Hendrix 60's to the hard/prog/glam etc. 70's, to the distinct 80's right up to grunge. Now, for the most part, mainstream music is just a grinding miasma of overproduced pop and derivative rap. History and progression in music has just halted, much like the way fashion has stagnated in comparison to developments in the 20th century.

103 Name: David Bump : 2013-11-19 00:42 ID:N39SXVKV

There's now a wiki for people who have the feeling they don't belong in this world, or at least not anywhere in it now. Seems like there's quite a few of us, but only a couple have contributed so far. Are we so different, except for this feeling, that we can't really form much of a group? Or can we join hands and make a bit of a different world of our own together?

http://sehnsucht.wikia.com/wiki/Sehnsucht_Wiki

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00E88YXCG/ref=dm_ty_trk

104 Name: Walst : 2015-02-23 19:37 ID:B1bVxT7A

Yep, same shit.

105 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-13 04:28 ID:QcyMwKgb

>>102

>The decline of human interaction

I agree with this, I feel like most of the people I interact with are emotionally stunted in some way. Probably because a growing proportion of human contact now is over the internet, which disconnects people from others, or at least makes it easier to ignore how you might affect them.

106 Name: Anonymous : 2015-03-19 19:03 ID:XWAnUsuJ

I used to think that this "glorious future" is going someday reach me. No matter how much I rise and improve it doesn't seem to come.
Once believed that I was actually born in the wrong era and being born 30 years earlier might have been a happier and more well ajusted person.
But no, something is fucked up with me personally in any time to be born in

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109 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-14 08:08 ID:Heaven

Ever feel you don't belong in this era?
No.

110 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-15 12:50 ID:u5bKOS/o

>>109
Well, that's right because you are still a teen.

111 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-18 01:10 ID:SWLrzfyL

Well I'm a programmer by trade, but I don't really like what modern computing has become. Things seemed more exciting in the 80's, with a thriving ecosystem of different computer architectures. It was especially nice here in France (and rest of Europe), because there wasn't any kind of "video game crash" event that allowed the market to consolidate into the hands of only a few players. Instead, in the mid-to-late 80's we had ZX Spectrum machines coexisting with Apple II's, Amstrad CPC's, Atari ST, Amiga, IBM PC and clones, various french stuff, and even MSX machines.

But now, just like everywhere else, it's just PC clones everywhere. There is really nothing cool or exciting on the horizon, and never anything revolutionary like the Amiga.

I've used Linux, and BSD (and still do) but even that doesn't satisfy me. The systems keep getting more complex and bloated every year. Web browsers of course are totally ridiculous now. The standards are also over-complicated. Instead of simple serial and parallel ports (which are very easy to program and write drivers for), we now how this USB monster that I'm positive nobody has ever written a bug-free implementation. Besides that, a lot of modern hardware is difficult to write drivers for in general. So even if you were to try and write your own OS (as the TempleOS guy has attempted), it would be an impossible task to make it run on anything but VMWare or other virtual machine.

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Pedophile discussion thread. (3)

1 Name: RedCream : 2015-05-23 02:40 ID:yXJ3581v

Talk about shit that tears you up and discuss it with everyone. This is not a fucking circlejerk, and no unrepentant scum stains are welcome. Speak here if you are sexually attracted to underage people and honestly want to break down the issues and shit. I'm out of that crap (believe it or not) and I want to share my struggle with other people.

This is an anonymous therapy session. But not weak ass excuses.

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3 Name: Anonymous : 2015-06-11 02:16 ID:ETuxDtjs

go to bed chris

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