let me indulge in your problems, im here to listen and i want to help you guys out, unfortunately not directly, but with a project.
Any Asian women out there who like to dominate white men?
What would you do to me my Goddess?
Beat u long time
Hello worm, I am Mistress Meiling.
As your Asian Mistress I order you to forget your perversions, get off the internet, excel at your classes/job, exercise three times a week, join a community organization, take a lonely and possibly less than attractive woman as your lawful wife, love her deeply, use birth control, adopt two disadvantaged children from Africa, and die happy after a long and fulfilled life.
Do not disappoint me.
24 yrs. old
I exercise on a regular basis and eat healthy foods. I have no problems meeting girls. They often comment favourably on my appearance.
Does that make me good looking? Dunno.
Have you ever met an Asian girl that was sexually dominant? Usually White guys like asian girls because they are supposedly submissive..
Yes, I have. Many times.
Key word in your sentence is 'supposedly'.
That's why a dominant Asian woman would be so exciting, because it's unexpected!
Like kinky schoolgirls, niggers in elegant dresses, pretty boys, what-have-you~~~
"That's why a dominant Asian woman would be so exciting, because it's unexpected!"
Yes, I agree. The unexpected certainly plays into the sort of 'sexual theatre' which I enjoy.
"niggers in elegant dresses"....LOL. Indeed.
Hello. I'm a caucasion athletic male...mi am seeking to be dominate by an older Asian female...i love to clean. Chores. Ed cures. I love giving oral sex...min here to please you.......
Hey. I have a problem lately of not wanting to do anything. I've been diagnosed as bipolar, not sure if it'll help with what I'm about to say.
Anyway, I don't know if it's related or not but, lately I've seen myself as being extremely lazy and not wanting to do anything. I can't do things I love doing for more than 10 minutes before I quit and do something else that involves staring into space.
What are some ways I can increase my will of wanting to do things? Cause it's kind of annoying that I can't do things I want to do or love to do without getting a bored or "meh" feeling after 5-15 minutes.
You sound just like me. Actually, I'm going to a therapist in a few days to be diagnosed to see if I'm bipolar.
How are things?
I wish you the best of luck! Actually things aren't too bad right now, I'm still in the same situation as described above but I can't complain. I've literally spent this whole time sitting in my room staring at my TV, hah.
Since I rarely come here there's a delay in me replying. Sorry. It'll probably be days until you see this -- seriously why do we come here?! It's like some graveyard of the internet.
Anyway, if you want a quicker form of communication, I made a BitMessage address: BM-NBJmBTVCZn65R5btJR7iZyJVqsEnqV43 -- The software is simple enough to use. I got round to making a doctor's appointment to be diagnosed.
What do you do when you feel depressed? Do you have any meds?
Shit I just realized the ID has changed :/
A 17 year old girl. I have some naked pics of her. It's because she sent them to me.
We used to have a good time, but now she has a boyfriend. She doesn't tend to reply me. I dont like it.
so, now I'm thinking about revenge porn....what do you think?
what's wrong with you? go beat off and eat some pizza and stop thinking about that stuff.
I don't come on here often enough to know how to tell if people are trolling or not. Is this person even real?
Look, send the pics to me and I will tell you what to do about this, ok?
Don't do it
Revenge for what? Losing interest in you? Not really revenge worthy is it?
Also wanted to add that I did something like this and it wasn't all that satisfying.
Don't do it. You'll get into a heap load of trouble. I've done it before and it wasn't worth all the trouble that I had to go through afterwords. Plus you'll feel like a worse person than you do now because of it.
Today is my 23rd brithday.
I am still a hikikomori loser.
I still hate myself.
I still haven't achieved anything.
I can't even gather the will power to look around the web for a place to order an exit-bag.
I still haven't had sex.
Happy birthday to me.
I have felt this way before, as well.
I hope for you to find employment and companionship.
Please do not give up yet.
Happy birthday friend.
I will celebrate your life today.
I am also going through the same thing.
Let's just keep living together for now.
One day a guiding light will show us a way out. We have to believe that.
Just finnish college and find a good paying job. It helps
I wish I knew some some of you that are posting replies, I wish I could be friends with all of you that are going through the same thing as me I wish I could keep in contact with all of.you, but I don't know.if.i.could just be strong and fight, just.remember the movie 300 and gladiator This is Sparta, life is Sparta don't give up any of you and find people like you because there is power in numbers
No, you are a hikkikomori for some reason. Find whats bothering you about society.
- If its you, try to discover if you are lazy, in which case your skills may need a polishing, for that to happen you must run towards danger and find that group, call it the gym or martial arts or whatever activity you find amusing to hone your discipline.
- Otherwise if you havent lost your touch, and you can comprehend what other people mean, but people cant motivate you, maybe you are in the wrong place, (listen to wrong - depeche mode) talk to wimen about that, wimen tend to lead you in the right direction to find that wiman that can relate to your inhability, most people in society act like programmed by social and media, and patterns can be found.
- But if none of the above works for your problem means that you want several things that isnt mean to archieve by people society. In that case you must conspirate, alone in your home till you have all the information, tools and contacts you may need to proceed.
Good luck with life.
And dont forget to laugh and be selfless.
Going through the same thing
And road is long and fun
I’m 28 now but when I was 9 my older brother started touching me while I was sleeping, masturbated me and rub his penis in my ass.
I suddenly changed personality, from an extroverted kid to a very introverted one, always in my room, no friends, almost all my puberty depressed, I tried to never mention his name again, just call him "the other one" (I have another brother) and trying to keep always an eye on my little sister, worry about he will try the same with her.
I don’t know if it was not obvious for my parents the change in personality and my strong reluctance to be in the same place with him, now I know these and other behaviors I had then, are clearly a sign of child sexual abuse, but my parents are catholic (we live in South America) and they had an excellent relation with their families, so, they would never thought in something like this.
My dad change, for him been a good brother is very important and he never understood why I start hating my older brother. Why always when he talked something about him, I did faces, and why I transformed in a crybaby loner.
My mom for the other side interpreted this as a behavior- adolescence issue and start overprotecting me even more. Cause I didn’t have a social life and was very quit she always put me like an example of discipline, academically and at home, and we - my mom and I- formed a strong relationship that all the others- included my dad and sister- feel alienated from it.
My brother sexually abused me when I was 12 years old. I am still only a teen and I can definitely relate to what your going through. I'm still struggling with the emotional toll it has taken on me. I'm planning on telling my therapist I have recently been going to (for other reasons) about what has happened to me. Even though this was a long time ago, I completely agree that you should tell someone about what has happened to you. Even though this has happened to you, you deserve to be happy and fulfill your dreams. Forget about all those people in the word who say mean things, torment others just to make themselves feel better, and hurt others because they have a problem with themselves. I hope you can (or already have) gotten through this and are working your hardest to over come the emotion parts of this.
Wishing you the best in life along with happiness and peace,
How will getting him into trouble help you? It won't, you can't modify the past. All you're going to do is hurt someone, someone who has issues controlling themselves. It's likely that he's already hurt himself, why throw more onto him over something so small? If it wasn't for society you wouldn't even be emotionally "damaged" by the so called "sexual abuse" that took place in the past.
I, too, was molested by my older brother. It started when I was 11 years old. He'd of been, 14 years old. It started out as just simple "touching" and "feeling" around my body. Poking around. I just thought to myself that all boys will do it at some point, because their curiousity would get the better of them. Boy, I should've prepared myself for what happened next. Being only 11, I assumed it was a one time thing. I didn't think much of it, then it got much worse. He'd start forcing me into corners, and humping me... O_O
He would try to put his hands down my pants, and in my shirt. He'd say dumbass shit like, "I like the flowers on your shirt," just so he could feel me up. He literally did it ANY chance he got. Meaning, when my parents were turned away. It happened for four years. Up until about two weeks ago, actually. I JUST told my parents what he's been doing. I only told them a fraction of the truth. I told them that he's been touching me, and feeling me. I didn't tell them that he's been putting his mouth on my personal areas, or humping and grinding on me against the wall. I know I need to, soon. They sent him to therapy, which I thought was the stupidest idea ever. What? Show him that it's wrong and case closed? No. His ass should be locked up. Then, they go about their day like nothing happened, and like he's a perfect little angel. At least they don't leave me alone here with him anymore. Thank God. But still, it's hard. I've been wanting to kill myself for quite some time. Hopefully, I'll seek the right help for that. Time to go tell my parents the truth. Good luck to you. I hope you make it out there. :)
I accidentally touched my younger sister's boob once; I hope she's not emotionally scarred.
I'll apologize in advance for the long post, but I am bearing my soul, and sharing this for the first time.
When I was a young, curious, confused teenager (prolly 15 or so, maybe a bit older) I made the mistake of letting my curiosity get the better of me. Twice I felt my younger (by 2 years) sister's vagina in her sleep. I sort of touched around, by the opening and a little bit in the first time, but not the second (like to your first knuckle from completely outside, but she was still a virgin, and I don't think i was doing it right anyway, so i wonder if it was even penetration). I never tried to give her pleasure, to kiss, or to lick, never touched her clit, and I never jerked off or even played with my penis or touched her with it. The second time, she woke up and said "gross". I feigned starting awake from her response and asked what woke her, to which she just went right back to sleep.
Perhaps a year or two prior, we had both been curious about the other sex's body, so we would innocently show each other and do the same with our 2 best friends. Puberty makes kids do silly things. I did notice that she shied away from it first. Actually, we were pretty open with each other about our private parts as children, and didn't really see anything wrong with running around the house naked.
I am 24 now, and I have ever since been filled with guilt and regret over the whole situation. What made it worse was that both times were when we were sharing a bed on vacation. I feel like I have totally failed her and violated her trust - as a big brother, family member, and a friend - and have sullied the sibling bond.
They're pretty cool.
shit guys, sorry, i thought I was replying to the thread about indians.
Mine is also a little long...
My little sister and I were also touched by our older brother. He is about 2 years older, and she is about 2 years younger.
I don't remember how old I was. 8, 11, I'm not sure. But I was young.
It usually happened in the form of a "game." A few times, when my parents were away, he had this game where the first person to make any sound had to take a piece of clothes off. In the end all 3 of us would be naked. I don't know if it happened the first time or not but eventually he touched us and had us touch him.
Being so young and stupid, the game seemed weird but I didn't know how wrong it was.
He also tried to get us to watch porn. I think that's the very first thing that happened. We found old porn in the attic and he turned it on. He would watch stuff on the computer in the living room when it was just us.
One day at a get-together with some of my parents friends, they had kids around our age. A boy my age, a girl my sister's age and another girl who was probably 5. Just to be silly we played 5 minutes of heaven. Everyone pretty much just sat in the dark in a closet for 5 minutes, no one even attempted to touch me any of the times. Kissing only happened when we played Truth or Dare, and that's the most that happened. I was distracted one of the times my brother was in there, but the other kids decided to play a joke and open the closet door early. Everyone says the girl he was with had her pants down. My sister swears to it to this day. The girl he was in there with was the 5 year old girl. I wonder to this day, and feel horrified about it.
You're a piece of shit for telling him he should commit suicide and that he's a fag. What does it make his brother for molested him, I think what.needs to happen is you need to commit suicide for saying that. I had the same thing happen to me, this guys story is close to mine, but people accept my.brother.like he's somebody that's worthy of respect, and look at me like I'm a piece of shit for trying to seek help for the rage and anger I have inside toward him, it crippled me for years, the hypocrisy that people have made me hateful there were times I planner to commit murder, but god saves me right when I need him, every time I need him , and I'm not gay, I encourage the guy who posted this to be strong and be aggressive toward people who challenge you any Christians who tell you you're going to hell I would slap the fuck out of them, especially.if they are Christians who know you're.brother and he's going in o heaven.or treat him like he has a.legitimate chance of going, be strong and don't give up, never give up, at least you can stand before god and tell.him your service for him was that you didn't commit suicide.
Today I'm very sad. I was going to sleep when my mother told me this. My friend, who taught me many things. She was a very intelligent and cultured woman, studied at Tokyo University, spoke many languages, travelled around the world, researched regional music and artistical expressions in Brazil. I'm very, very sad about this. It's like, you know, she was OK last week, and today I am informed that she was ina a car accident and was in a coma for two days before dying today. I really want to cry.
Sanae Shibata, You will be missed.
I feel like I don't belong here. Like I was born in the wrong era. People around me are on a different wavelength. I feel like I was supposed to be somewhere else doing something else living a different life.
I also feel like im in the wrong time period. Even though i am a Muslim and i do not believe in reincarnation but i feel as if i was born in a different time, and i still belong there, as if i've left something behind. Nothing feels right for me at the moment, relationships, places etc, they are just not easy for me to deal with because i don't feel connected. And for some odd reason i'd rather be living as people did back in the ancient medievel times rather than now in this modern world. I seem to dislike and disagree with everything that goes on these days.
I wish I was born into the Victorian middle/upper class. I respect their attitudes and morals more, even if they were a bit over-the-top at times.
i wish i was born in the year 2153.by the we would be in space,realize the human potential,school would actually be fun(im a teen)and girls would dress more futuristic-fashion and more revealing.digimon would exist and life would be perfecto!
I feel just like Saira
i think i am born in the wrong place, i live in WoW and should have stayed there. it sucks everytime i need to disconnect,
Wow browsing through some of the replies on here are entertaining! I am from the future 2012 since this is an old topic lol I really liked the one reply someone said about standing in the rain staring up at the sky if i saw someone doing that I'd be like what the fuck. Thanks for the laugh.
>>1>>1i feel lost..... can anyone understand me???
i dont feel like i should be here, when i talk to friends about how i feel they think i mean death... suicide but i dont i just dont feel like this is my time, i have no connection whatsoever to this life i dont even have a connection of any kind with my blood family as i feel i dont belong. in this day and age it is widely aknowlaged that u can be born in to the wrong body..... if that is the case then surley u can be born into the wrong time zone?.
Yeah, this era does suck in quite a few ways. The decline of human interaction, and decay of reading/writing abilities due to mobile devices and "text speak" sucks - those in the past were far better spoken without such distractions.
The sucky, repetitive quality music has taken on also makes this a crummy era. In the past, you could trace major developments in music ranging from stuff like the Beatles/Stones/Hendrix 60's to the hard/prog/glam etc. 70's, to the distinct 80's right up to grunge. Now, for the most part, mainstream music is just a grinding miasma of overproduced pop and derivative rap. History and progression in music has just halted, much like the way fashion has stagnated in comparison to developments in the 20th century.
There's now a wiki for people who have the feeling they don't belong in this world, or at least not anywhere in it now. Seems like there's quite a few of us, but only a couple have contributed so far. Are we so different, except for this feeling, that we can't really form much of a group? Or can we join hands and make a bit of a different world of our own together?
Feel so lonely and isolated from everyone. No friends in "real life", only one person on the internet who I can talk to much.
I just want to have nice chat with people who like me.
Anonymous BBSs provide the illusion that they have a lot more users than they actually do. Try using some of the friendly ones, like http://hellochannel.or.gs/!
Neet.to and The Post Office/afternoon café are similar sites
i'm feeling the same, but i think this is because i choosed it to be this way (i'm trying to break all personal connections, because i'm unworthy to them, because they're unworthy for me, because they know about me too much, because i'm bored of them, because i'm terrible, stupid reasons like that)
All the good things i find are usually 2-3 years old, so i'm not even sure if there is any point to give authors feedback or even talking to them. Sites what update too fast and have too little info per post are pain to read. So, even though i have a very large plast of knowledge in my hands, i feel separated from actual people, i never see them and rarely even ask them directly, usually i see something they left. Posts, drawings, things of that sort. Light of already gone stars, lol.
Actually that's a lie, some people are helpful if you're looking for something specific. But i don't have anyone to share anything personal, and this is slowly rolling up, and i will snap someday then i'll be ignored for too long. I just can't trust people it seems. I shoudn't anyway. If i'll find someone who will trust me, i'll shoot them in the back myself.
World is so big, and i'm so small comparing to it.
I was going to ask this question to the last poster in the Baby Human topic, but decided I should probably make atopic out of it.
Well, how do you survive? Live with your parents, work off the internet, live with other relatives, supported by girlfriend/friends, still go to school, still go to work, inheritage, participate in money farming?
Post your source of income here, along with your age, if you feel like it.
As for me: Age 21. I live with my parents, but most of my income comes from my community college (still trying to get through it). The rest comes from different things I've done online, like checks from those free Ipod sites and ads on sites I've ran.
"Hikikomori" carries certain connotations that fit people here. We certainly meet the Japanese Ministry of Health's definition of what a hikikomori is. We are using it as a loan word, just as the Japanese took "NEET" from the UK. It's not just some half-baked attempt to feel Wapanese and important, though there's that too.
I don't know if I'm a hiki, despite the fact that I don't leave my room, except when it's absolutely necessary (like for buying food or going to the bathroom). It's not like I don't want to do anything, but it just feels so pointless to muster all this energy and get out of my room, when there's no one who cares what you're doing (not even yourself). I could just lie in my bed and stare on the ceiling all day, my head feels so empty and I doubt that I feel like any other person around me. Everything I do or try is so useless, as if it'd matter if I graduate properly, because there's not even the slightest chance that I'll be able to get a decent occupation or go to university. I don't think that I could face all these alien people, who think that shut-ins should just stop being lazy and get a job. If it were that easy, there wouldn't be no shut-ins anymore. I don't stay in my room, because it's so damn funny or because I'm too lazy to go outside. There's a difference between being an lazy idiot, who thinks it's cool to live on the expenses of his parents and a real hikikomori, who has no other choice than to stay inside, because he feels there's no other place where he can feel safe.
My country has an amazing welfare system. If you're willing to live with a very low income, you don't have to work. All you have to do is fill up a form every month and submit it. The government pays for an apartment and gives you enough to pay your bills and food. Usually they try to encourage you into education or apprenticeship, you can just flat out deny them, but if you go you get more money.
Live alone, get money from parents. Theyre hate me, hehe
hikkimotri since 1999 only had 3 odd jobs no college leave with mom. my life is getting owrst by the day and n
my last rope.
If I asked you to improve your English, it'd be like someone asking me to buckle down and finish high school math. We're the same, you and me. I just have more pretensions.