This is for all the women out there on this board. Hopefully some normal women.
I am probably the most normal any anime/internet junkie is ever going to get. Good physique, motivated in life, ambitious, socially well-spoken and connected. On average (during the school semester) I get approached by one or two women a week. A different girl is over my house every day of the week, and I choose which ones I want to have sex with.
They know this, they know me. They know it's not a relationship. They even know each other. I'm unfortunately not graceful enough to have threesomes except on special occasions. I also have to move the mountains while writing a fourteen page report on windex in order to have one.
Now... I'll reveal another part of me I haven't really told anyone. I know girls, talk to them pretty deeply and I really love it. I like more than the sex, I just like being with someone. Honestly speaking, regardless of all the women I know, I've never dated, never had a girlfriend, a relationship, and I'm still too scared to approach any girl individually. I just let myself get approached.
As it stands, I'm actually setting myself up for that.
I'm not getting any younger. Any one of the girls I'm currently with would love to be my exclusive girlfriend. The thing is, I really don't like any of the girls I'm with. I mean, they're fun, and exciting. But they really don't know the first thing about me. I'm looking for someone who spends more time ONline than someone to go skiing with.
So my question is, what is the most romantic way to say "I want to stop having sex with you, I'm still heterosexual, but I've got to move on with my life and you do too... So I never want to hear or see you again" And how do I say that to six different girls...
Now take note, I also want a backup plan if I ever want to go back... Like... I want to move on as long as moving on is better than the life I've got now. So the entire Blunt "Go the fuck away" is completely out of the question. If being with one girl I can really connect with is bogus I'd like to be able to go back.
I know I'm being selfish with this, but really, I just want this transition in my life to be as smooth as possible.
Alright, let me explain this one. First off, I don't have a problem finding girls who would want a relationship with 'me'. That part was pretty clear.
I'll begin with why I might have a low self confidence. When I was in elementary and junior highschool. I was the fat kid... I was like 60lbs over my weight, I slouched, I pretty much just dressed in whatever my Mom thought was fashionable. I was a fucking loser.
When I hit highschool though, the magic of puberty struck me like nothing I even noticed. I started growing taller, my face, became clearer than it was before puberty. I started fencing and track. And I had dropped myself sixty to seventy lbs. Highschool was hard for me. I didn't know how to deal with people treating me.
And it was still difficult for me to understand and relate to people, I had an IQ of 130, which is pretty average to 4-ch I think. But I went to Brooklyn Technical Highschool. Even if they were intelligent, it wasn't a school of class. I actually ran away from good looking people because they were the people who used to make fun of me in elementary. It took me years to get over the fact that I wasn't bad looking. I still feel that way sometimes.
After Highschool, I began taking things a little more offensively. I finally figured out that "hey, I can have EVERYTHING i ever wanted! i can have friends, i can go do things, i don't have to be afraid of being made fun of. i can make fun of people if i wanted to". A lot of things happen when people see you differently. People didn't see me as some freak who didn't talk to anyone.
And in college, I had every single opportunity to change how people saw me. Completely new class, with new people. I had a choice to make. Were people going to see me as this nobody? Or were they going to see something worth being with?
So I planned. I'll admit it. I planned being cool. I studied being popular. I even have dry erase board plots on what to say and what to do, and how I would treat people. I studied sociology.
On the first day in College. Everyone knew me. That's no exaggeration. It was hard for me. Like jumping out of a plane, doing things I never would have DREAMED of doing. I put on this show of a person who was too cool that he didn't CARE about how he was seen. And in the end. That was what I became.
On the first day of College, I had a top hat on. I greeted anyone who even looked at me. I was dancing on a Cafeteria table with two girls I had just met.
And on the inside? Panic. Total and utter panic. But I pushed. And I continued going on like I was USED to this. Like having girls all over me was NO BIG DEAL. And that's how people remember me by.
I made hundreds of friends. I brought my sketchbook to that school, and it got passed around to everyone on the CAMPUS, and by the time I got it back it was LITTERED in numbers and screennames and little comments on my drawings.
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Do girls look at me and think "OH MY GOD HE'S SO HOT LETS GO TALK TO HIM!" no. They don't think that. You know why girls approach me?
Because they CAN. It's easier for a girl to approach someone who is RENOWNED for being known. It's easier for girls to approach me because their friend. or their friend of a friend knows me. It's easier for girls to approach me because I've told EVERYONE to talk to me. Even if I don't remember them. It's easier for girls to approach me, because every other person who has has had good reviews about me. Because THATs the person I PORTRAY.
Because every week I have something for everyone to do. And anyone can come along.
Because I'm the center of attention.
You call that luck? I didn't just wake up and girls were all over me. I made that happen. And do girls just come up to me and say "OH MY GOD LETS HAVE SEX NOW" no... Sometimes they say "OH MY GOD I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU NOW" but you know something? If you say "Lets go here so we can have sex" they'll get flustered and WONT HAVE SEX WITH YOU. They'll just laugh it off like a joke.
Sex is about timing. It's not even about relationships or shit like that. It's about whether the girl feels like you can be trusted and finds you attractive enough and if they're comfortable enough and the time is right. A girl could WANT to have sex with you. But won't, because she's not comfortable with it. I have to say a HUNDRED things with only five to six words. THATS NOT LUCK.
I consider myself lucky to have the girls that I DO have.
And why is it hard for me to find a girl I want to be with?
Because I want a girl who doesn't care about that. But is still valuable herself. I want a girl who finds ME attractive. Not because everyone knows me. Not because other girls find me attractive. Not because I have a future. Not because I get straight A's -Except I got a B+ this semester but that was my fault-. Not because I work out, or have nice hair or anything.
I want a girl who would Love me, even if I were still fat. I want a girl who would Love me, if I were fat and unpopular and STILL had difficulty talking to people.
That's what's so hard.
That's what's difficult. And don't find that hard to believe, because that's what I desire... It's what I'm willing to leave my current WOMEN for. This life that you guys call "Lucky" or simply "Untrue"
If you guys really think it's untrue, hit me up on AIM, give me two months and I could TEACH any of you to get girls. Any of you willing to make changes in your life.