>>753 that's... sad, actually.

I am old enough and jaded enough and cynical enough that the prospect of boinking desperate Hunan farm girls for pocket change doesn't really do much for me. Like most cynics, I am a a disappointed idealist. Where, oh where, is my exotic AzN waifu, whom I've wanted since I first became interested in girls? ;_;

maybe the idea of having a real relationship with someone I'm actually attracted to is one of those things that's fallen by the wayside, a choice that no longer exists for me, sort of like how for anyone under the age of about 50 in the US, quitting a job you hate isn't a right, it's a luxury, something you save money for years for, something you do only with careful planning.