Single , 26 . I GAVE UP. Jeezes my life has become a hell..if i could go back and tell my teenage self one thing it would be: kill yourself so i wouldn't be here. kill yourself JAMIE! When you were 18 DONT fall in love with her cuz she will push you away when you will give YOUR first FAILED kiss. After it, you WILL FAIL COLLEGE and run out of "friends" leaving you more broken. Kill yourself because the diagnosis told you that you have AVPD, that's like wanting something but in truth you will never get it. Kill yourself jamie because that is my only hope.