>>199
now i'm thinking of this but with just about everything in the civ tech tree
What a twat.
I FORGOR
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>>204
the admin built a wall between /img/ and CP spammers from hispachan, unfortunately it kept everyone else out too
I just want to buy a GPU.
uha
>>208
[citation needed]
Dildos have been around much longer than that.
I saw three racial slurs from people angry about today's nontroversy.
Truly, y'all are moral paragons on that high horse....
>>211
Don't vaguepost me man, how am I supposed to know whether to get mad at you?
>>208 If there were all these undersexed and frustrated women in the past, then that means there were either an equal number of undersexed and frustrated men about, or the past was some kind of never ending homo orgy. Either way suddenly makes history make a lot more sense.
>>213
Are you trying to make a real point, or is this your way of saying, "I never finish first"?
captcha: demen
When Will was a RABY I was scared of RABIES
>>212
I should have probably included the detail that it's people get'n mad at video games, true. Does that sound worth your time? It was certainly not worth mine, and I am not a particularly worthy person.
i'm oppressed because 44 out of 45 presidents of the united states have been the same ethnicity, gender and sexual orientation as me but 0 out of 8 characters in a popular video game are
i bet the JOOZ are to blame
A little bit surprised how King James never seems to show up in "all these historical figures meet each other" type fiction, but not super surprised either.
>>219
Well, they all mostly focus on warriors or people whose accomplishments can be easily translated to the sphere of conflict (by making them magical or something.) King James's notability stems from mostly keeping the peace in his dominion and presiding over an unmatched period of English cultural development, which was no small feat when the rest of Europe was literally tearing itself apart over some pieces of paper a monk nailed to a door, but doesn't exactly write itself into a standard hero's journey type plot.
>>220
Fair enough, but also... homie literally wrote the book on Daemonologie, there is no way a good author couldn't twist that into something really cool.
I do think he's less popular in the public eye, and it could have a little to do with being a NERRRRRRD
My brain is melting.
[Shark thoughts]
seeing "alternative content" because flash support is winding down
but every time i read it i subvocalize it as an eminem lyric
The more I see the word y'all the more I hate it.
sharks can't have tits we already discussed thits
My world is ending.
>>226
Good god, thanks for reminding that in my fetish fapping jumble I haven't touched intersex anthro sharks with tits yet!
I long for death.
>>232
Try culling half the living beings in the universe and maybe she'll notice you.
finally almost have my debit card number memorized by rote and now it's expiring next month and they'll send me a new one
on this episode of "i can see why you'd think that, but actually...", an ESL friend refers to Vogue as a "girlie magazine"
Stop looking at me!
this one weird trick for making your website responsive af!
(video of a very plain website being almost tolerable on a 68k macintosh)
based and redcreamed
I did what I could with what was available to me.
I feel like the older I get, the stupider I get. I don't know if this is true, or if I'm just more aware of my own stupidity. Probably a bit of both.
I've forgotten almost everything I learned in school that is not relevant to my daily life. I've lost my faculty for eloquent discourse out of sheer disuse. I find it difficult to concentrate enough to read anything with more depth than a sci-fi novel. My eager desire to constantly learn and create has been replaced by a complacency to consume mindless drivel.
I blame the internet.
I'm attracted to nerdy men too but because I've literally been that guy and I know how bad it can weigh you down and make you feel like shit. Dunno how you'd call that fetish but I wanna help them with their sexual frustration.
>>242
You may be shocked--shocked!--to hear this, but "learned in school that is not relevant to my daily life" and "consume mindless drivel" are just two sides of the same coin. The common element is that you know this shit doesn't matter, but feel a compulsion for it anyway. Your brain is probably tired rather than dulled down.
The Internet is one of the best tools for falling into that, but is also one of the best tools for climbing out of that. It's not necessarily the abyss' fault that it was dug.
If you perceive a problem here, perhaps you need to make more concrete decisions about what actually matters to you, and maybe that will clear things up enough to make progress. If it's not enough, well, at least you're not alone; self-help/productivity products is a multi-billion dollar industry with a notorious track record of not really working. I have my recommendations, though....
So Kim Il-sung was a Soviet officer and if Soviet military had chosen somebody else, he'd fulfill his dream of enrolling to academy. His son, Yuri Irsenovich Kim, would probably be working at some Soviet research institute or something, and in late 80s he'd be one of those hip new "democrats" protesting against the CPSU.
Death of the internet: generated text becomes so cheap and convincingly human that it's ubiquitous. People abandon the idea of communicating with each other online because everyone there is a machine learning algorithm. Every once in a while a DQN-style message board will pop up, but eventually the machine learns how to write tablecat captions.
vc unvon
>>243, 247
assuming you're both nerdy men you should just strangle each other with your thighs
>>249 I used to be a Comic Book Guy level fat nerd but then I started lifting and now I'm a bearmode nerd. Go on about the thigh strangling thing though, I'll tickle your taint with my beard tbh.
god I'm not horny anymore and now this post is really embarrassing, good thing I'm anonymous
As long as I hate my past self more than my current self, everything is going well.
vc: quefeing
>>253 (part 1/2)
1) Self-improvement is realized through baby steps as you reprogram your System 1 thinking to get closer to your ideal. If anyone tells you to take a larger step than that, they're probably underestimating the difficulty. The major exception being: if they were/are an expert at the thing you want to be good at and also a good teacher, they're probably trying to tell you the easy way to do something. Personally, I've been trying to improve my speed so I'm not so awful at fast video games. A few months of playing a shitload of Osu! has genuinely improved my eyesight and reflexes, and taught me a bit about how skill improvement even works.
2) Almost all good advice I've run across in self-help is a bastardized version, restatement, or practical application of what the Stoics preached nearly 2000 years ago, who in turn did not formulate their ideas in ways that are easy to grok in plain English, no matter how pithy the statements get. The virtuous life is the only easy path, yet it is incredibly difficult. It's the calling of a saint, after all, to be a good person (albeit one who makes mistakes); yet few people seem to achieve even that. Accordingly, it is hard to give a comprehensive picture of what I have found to be "good advice", and I do not yet live "the good life" myself. My own lame excuse is that my life is just that messed up and full of trauma, that I will need a few more years of mental reprogramming to really get going.
But to sum up about three years of this research:
■Have concrete goals, take steps to get there. Do look back, don't stop having goals. Even setting and achieving goals is a skill that you might suck at at first; it will get better.
■Be committed to objective truth when possible, and focus on the objective truths that are helpful instead of the ones that aren't.
■Try to write out any significant thoughts you have, and have a system for revisiting them later.
■Try to catch bad thoughts in the act, and don't beat yourself up for having them; instead, come up with what you want to think instead of that going forward, and by repetition you will eventually get to the second step faster, then skip the first step (this is the bullet-point version of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, but again, that's just a repackaged Stoic tenet, the sort of thing they talked about over and over again)
■One of the most common bad thoughts is "fear of missing out". Guess what? It's a big universe, and there's only one you, so you're missing out on nearly everything anyway. It's more helpful to decide that you care about only a small number of things and work on those, even if you actually care a little bit about everything; human compassion is just as limitless as human greed, bounded only by time, space, basic economics... so, it is helpful to minimize this desire ("suffering", as translations of Buddhist doctrine often put it). Current events is the big such bugbear for a lot of people today: brands are not your gods, celebrities and politicians are not your community, corporations are not your friends; but it is okay to like these things in moderation and with reservation, and society is made of people. Try to humanize the way these things work; e.g. try not to use online shopping or self-checkout lanes to avoid talking to people, but because it is smoother for both you and the vendor to use actions instead of words.
■Try to value your margin of freedom, no matter how small; as long as you have a little bit of reasoning, you have at least the freedom to reason.
■No single pithy statement will fix your life, but you can make a few hundred of them come natural to you.
I wish I could put it way better than this, and there is more I feel like I'm missing (!), but I know that my wordiness tends to be accidentally obscurantist, so "brevity being [...] wit", I cut it off here. Still, if you are the master of a few principles, you might just end up with the power to withstand astonishing tides and furor. What to do with this power? "You must choose, but choose wisely."
(part 2/2)
3) Piotr Wozniak (ttps://supermemo.guru/) has valuable things to say about memory. Don't be intimidated by how his writings are both voluminous and info-dense, I just find a lot of it "good to know" and I have a(n unwanted) reputation of being "smart" in real life (N.B. that includes the company of several legitimate geniuses that have gone on to do brilliant things; but I have done nothing with my life). The major point is, you will forget things eventually, so just embrace it and focus on being an expert on your interests, and you can become an expert by using computers to remind you of things you don't want to forget.
Now, Spaced Repetition Software is not for everyone, but I've found it to be nearly miraculous for me to be able to remember a massive number of things. I've been trying to combine Anki with the methodology of the book Getting Things Done lately; it automatically brings up my "maybe somedays", and sometimes putting things off feels great just because you did it intentionally instead of failing to fulfill an obligation. The self-assurance that everything you "have to do" is in one place is pretty great.
4) Trying to fit all that diet/exercise/meditation/hygiene/good sleep/study/etc. in is worth it, but god damn, it takes a serious chunk of time out of every day. So if you want more of that kind of thing, that is time that needs to be expressly set aside.
5) Avoidant personality is probably one of the biggest undiagnosed mental issues out there that nobody's heard of. In part, it's "terminal" procrastination. That's so normal that nobody considers it a "disorder" unless it's causing a serious lack of function. I have had to reflect lately on how all this self-improvement study is a way to avoid job-hunting. Getting a job would be an easy mode escape from my narcissistic parents. But it means facing rejection, and my abusive upbringing seems to have helped me take rejection much more hard than most people seem to (which is saying something; most people do not seem to take it very well at all). Even now I fear rejection for posting all this drivel, but because you asked nicely, >>253, that makes a huge difference. Thank you.
(part bonus)
Ah, that was the thing that was bothering me. I did touch on it, but constant distraction and thoughtless stimulation is a huge stressor on the brain. That's been with humanity for a long time. Multitasking is a myth. But stuff like TV, games, and social media the way many people seem to use them is more like "tuning out" than "tuning in". I do not criticize these things per se; I would opine that there are lots of people who use/enjoy these things and use them in ways that make them net goods to humanity, and even people who use them in ways I would disapprove of often have a reality they do need a break from.
Bouncing from idea to idea and drawing interesting connections isn't just a sort of creativity; it's how our nervous systems make ideas that stick on the physical level! But where there is frequently no connection, bombardment of the senses, too much time in the exact same activity, this causes one to learn a kind of dullness as other things (even meaningful ones) are neglected connections that fall apart (yea, even unto the neurochemical bonds).
So I would say it is important to focus, but I would add it is important to have diverse experiences that surround that focus so that it's all in proper context. How I was able to build the kind of mental focus that allows me to read a book in one sitting while going through a childhood dominated by Mom's frequent tantrums and Dad's emotional insensitivity? All the other books I'd done the same to. Didn't mean I could focus in class or even get through the books I was assigned; in fact, at the time, I was quite baffled when I couldn't manage it. In retrospect, it was more that some books "speak to me" enough that I could manage it, and I didn't have the time, the rested mind, or the discipline to get through the ones I needed to put effort into.
>>256-258
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this, I really appreciate it. Much of it is similar to my own philosophy and conclusions. And even if these ideas are not really new to me, it's good to be reminded of it and put into somebody else's words.
I find it extremely difficult to accurately identify the cause of mental health issues. Life being what it is, you can come up with any number of excuses for any given problem. For example, I've noticed a pattern where random minor problems ー such as my wife ignores me when I make a joke, or somebody cuts in line ー will sometimes send me flying into an irrational, depressive rage. (Internalized rage, because I avoid conflict.)
When reflecting on why this happens, I have come up with a million theories: I'm stressed from my long daily commute, I'm stressed from living in a foreign country, I'm stressed because I'm not working at achieving my dreams, I'm bad at dealing with people because I was an only child, I hate conflict because my parents had a messy divorce, or maybe my brain chemicals are just out of whack. It's impossible to identify a root cause, but maybe in the end it doesn't really matter what the cause is. All you can do is treat the symptoms, with practical baby steps like CBT, as you suggest.
And it has worked. Even though I sometimes feel like I'm nowhere near who I want to be, other times I marvel how much I've achieved and grown. (Although that could be egocentric bias: I tend to view my current set of beliefs and values as superior to those of my past.)
I hope that you are able to get over your fear of rejection and get a job, if that's what you really want. If you take your own advice, I know you can achieve it. Just watch out for the ironic process problem: sometimes the more pressure you put on yourself to do something, the less likely you are to succeed.
"man's daughter circle violation festival"
15 years from now some prankster will register 4-ch.net and put up a fake blog about neural networks
>>262
That implies that this site will someday die. It's lasted this long, it'll last forever.
wow shit
i just received a BACKHANDED COMPLIMENT (x1).
i stored the BACKHANDED COMPLIMENT in my SHORT TERM MEMORY.
> I've forgotten almost everything I learned in school that is not relevant to my daily life.
That's because school is not meant to teach you anything at all, it's there to make you employable in the future.
Everything is oriented towards employability, from the grades and the student ranking, to the strict schedule of the classes and the layout of the classrooms themselves that closely mimic a factory or an office. After all, discipline exercises itself in the control of temporality and the distribution of bodies across a closed space.
I think you're generally experiencing alienation, but I guess a revelatory first step is realizing that everyone is basically in the same rut you feel you're in, general sense of purposelessness, atrophied abilities (probably a maximization of much more meager talents that are used at work), even reduced attention span.
Regarding that last one, Mark Fisher seemed to think that "hyperactive communication flows" had a devastating effect on attention and pretty much identifies something akin to ADHD in basically every single one of his students, who couldn't even do as much as finish reading a book, and needed constant distraction. I refused the idea at first, how could I be so vulnerable to media and capitalism as to have a reduced attention span, but it's true, I tried reading again, and it's a lot of effort to even concentrate. There's constant stimuli at an office and even in the short periods of calm I need some sort of passive background noise to even work. You get atuned to that rhythm eventually and everything else becomes impossible.
Christmas, 1944. Northern France.
My time has finally come
owo
>>261
Otokonoko badly translated by machine to man's daughter is my favourite genre of JAV.
I feel like I'm going to have a girlfriend son.
bros before hos d00d
Aoi Shouta x KENN
Imagine being cute.
>>267
There's also the inverse, ゆめみりあむすこれ machine translated by Twitter as "Dreaming of my son"
(Yumemi Riamu does have trans colors, but he really needs a breast reduction if he's FtM)
seeing a picture for the first time of a long time net friend and they're REALLY FUCKING CUTE WTF
every month those "insecurity questions" cut a little deeper
i didn't want a feel, i wanted to pay my bills
A cute girl pressed the door opening button at the train for me. I smiled and thanked her, but quickly remembered how damn ugly my smile is. I feel very bad that she had to see me smile, despite being nice to me. I'm sorry, kind stranger, who were so swift to help me.
Ivan killing his son, but with Bugs holding Daffy.
the weird feeling when, even though my japanese is fairly decent, i still don't quite have that cultural lens down and people still sometimes don't understand what i'm talking about eg when i reference odin to someone who talked about having a dream about a raven, or call something "patrician"
パトリシアン
Bald hairdresser with badly shaved head.
Kamisama help.
at least there's half-price valentine chocolate つД｀)･ﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ･:.｡..｡.:･ﾟ
How do they even know what dragon dick looks like?
some sorta loud nearly subsonic slamming in the distance during the daytime driving me bonkers
Will you ever learn?
day 2 off 20 years of antihistamines: oh, i've got hives and even my eyeballs itch, this is fine
dekinai-chan.jpg
you can't learn c++
(´・ω・｀) all my net friends that used to stay up all night playing video games with me got jobs
>>280 The week after Valentines they sell the men's valentines socks cheap so I buy all my socks for the year! Everyone who sees the constellation of love hearts around my ankles will know what kind of guy I am
frandoll scalretto
>>286
I never made many friends, so they forgot about me by now. My parents and brother forgot, so the only things I got for my 30th birthday were automated messages from forums (´・ω:;.:...
You don't have to.
itching in unspeakable body parts. insides of eyelids. tongue. ear cartilage. elbows.
only fleeting visions of waifus keeping me sane
>>292 fear not, itchy one, papa nurgle's embrace will end your pain soon
can we build a wall on the canadian border instead, it is fucking spring, i am tired of living in the FUCKING GODDAMN TUNDRA WHY IS IT STILL -10 EAT ALL OF THE DICKS goD FUCK
I suck.
My legs hurt like hell, is this old age?
yeah ok fine, making it super hard to add custom animations makes it harder to make sex mods. you know what else it makes it harder to do? add a dual wielding running animation that doesn't look like it's from fucking naruto.
Considering FO76, I'm really not sure whether Bethesda intentionally gimped anything about their engine's moddability, or are just the unparallelled masters of fucking things up by accident.
Though BioWare is giving them a run for their money currently.