After 14 or more years of alcohol abuse I have finally realized how grave this situation is and I need to quit.
The thing about quitting alcohol though is that after a day or two sober I break out into horrible panic attacks, panic attacks so severe I feel like I'm dying.
Yesterday I took a CBD edible and although this is an illegal state and this should only contain 0.3% delta 9 it got me extremely high, or I was having a terrible panic attack either way I started drinking some booze and the fear went away ... I'm drinking right now as well.
Kids don't do drugs.
Stay the fuck away from alcohol, even if you don't think you'll become addicted.
Watch videos on youtube of alcoholic people living miserably or having severe withdrawal symptoms, that is the true face of alcohol not the jewish lie of people having fun partying or socializing.
ANyways I need to check myself into a rehab center because I think while I'm getting off alcohol I should have my health monitored and be giving anxiety medication.
Are there free places like that?
it better be
i just wanna throw uppppp everyone is top tier disgusting
do u actually know heaven? maybe you will just be completely disgustingg
also who made the first kill
oh wait.
its not like your data is always reliable too
all these sunday stories are just pain in the arse. it didnt help me today nor does it get me away from anything troublesome.
trapped me between this...lame "good and evil"
might as well die and unexist.
well
im not too smart.
everyone smart always trample me. the lord did. the father too. and everything else.
i hope they feel whst i feel
but nope
well. if it doesnt work, we try things dont we.
holy shit dude
take your meds
anything is better than 4chan
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Not by much.
Infinitely better, but also slow as balls.
The worst is when they think they're special and so above everyone else for doing the same shit everyone else does
>Oh you're not into politics? What are you, a dumb normalfag?
>>25
I keep squinting at that post and the only thing I can get out of it is that he meant "guardian." Still kind of weird phrasing in-context, however, so I'm open to other suggestions...
v: suxitch
I wish I could go back to the days when "economy" was just a big word adults liked to use on tv.
test post
when you say "my daddy" do you mean like an actual parent or is it like a kinky daddy who you enjoy letting dominate you and do any degrading thing he asks without question because you want him to tell you he's proud of you as you choke on his cock?
I'm just an anarchist and....forgot the question...I'm just going to keep the thread up just in case...
anarchism is heinously anus
>>5
Yeah, How do you expect your NAP/Peace to last without some kind of army? People are stupid, and even a small group can cause a lot of disruption if riled up enough. Also, if you're ancom, do you really expect a command economy to be able to predict the needs of billions of people, after seeing how resources in the USSR turned out? Give the workers democratic control over the means of production if you wish, I'm rooting for ya, but without a market and just enough government to keep things in check but not suffocate that socialist market you're pretty donezo.
I'm waiting for automation to turn everyone into a NEET.
I'm waiting for automation to exterminate the NEETs.
Well when work is abolished the NEET label is going to stop making sense.
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in the brain
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So, there’s this girl I go to school with, let’s call her Rachel. We exchanged numbers and emails for a school project, and still occasionally message each other. But recently, she hasn’t been responding to my emails or texts!
Do you think Rachel is okay? Should I call her?
dicks out for Harambe
Be serious, please!
Threaten to kill her family until she responds.
Threaten to kill another gorilla until she responds.
Incidentally mine has the same name, and she had blocked me, since all she was doing was leading me on, until I was sick of it and texted her about it. These days we're on okay terms and still I try to charm her in hopes of winning her heart. She still hasn't unblocked me; she must think she has me wrapped around her finger. It's true.
>>6
Stop being such a fucking loser and get some balls, man.
>>6
Rape her you faggot
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She doesn't like you bro. Move on. She sounds like a bitch anyway, you'd only be unhappy if you had to deal with her bullshit as a boyfriend.
Pretty sure girls can get away with never working quite often, life sure isn't fair.
I need to whine on social networks instead of dead forums, there are usually city local groups around. Never visited those though.
>girls can get away with never working
The (at least mildly) good-looking ones, sure. Have you considered starting an onlyfans?
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I can't take it anymore. I'm so alone, I have no friends, girls don't even look at me. Everybody is having fun, they are full of love, all except me.
I'm a complete failure, 10 years of isolation, I barely finished high school, dropped out of university, and found a stoopid job anyone could do.
There's no way out, I have no idea how people become friends with each other, how they find love. Oh wait, once in 26 years I actually found that.. once in 26.. that means I have to wait another 26 to stumble on a person who likes me, and I'll be old already..
I tried to tell them.. I told them I was alone.. but no one understands.. they think it's some stoopid temporary loneliness.. they are used to have all they want, to find new friends and lovers the same way you download new games from the internet... how could they understand what it means to have no friends, no company, no woman around for the most part of ur life, and not knowing how to find them.
Everybody has a family, friends, a girl, everybody is loved... but me, and I don't know how to get out of this... once you lose all social connections, it's done. It isn't necessary to be a hikki, it just happens, you lose all childhood friends, and zzap you're alone for life.
What I have done to deserve this.
lmao this thread was made in 2007
I wonder how old the OP is now, are you still alive?
I'm 27 myself and have been alone my whole life and a hikikomori since 12.
What you gotta do OP is get over that feeling and learn to find happiness in solitary life.
You'll realize that it's better to be "alone" that constantly around others.
You don't need others for happiness, just find things in life that bring you happiness and joy.
I really just browsed here out of curiosity. I actually might have read this very thread when I was in high school, and forgot about it because it's uncomfortable to hear about people feeling they should just give up on life. These days I can understand how OP is feeling, getting older and feeling like you're just wasting away your life is tough, and feeling like you could be having a more fulfilling social life. I don't get so choked up over a lack of a social life, too much, I have plenty of friends online. It doesn't bother me too much I don't have any friends irl, except one I hadn't hung out in person with in over a year. Crippling social anxiety is a bitch, though. Being so terrified in public that it's exhausting everytime is no fun.
I'm a transwoman and have been struggling hard through my adult life. Only the past 3 years I've been full time. I was laid off work for that and it's hard for me to get myself back on my feet, because I've always dealt with anxiety, worried people just see me as a timid piece of garbage, and now worried they see me as a freak. Deep down I know I'm not a bad looking person and I'm good at socializing casually, at least once I'm comfortable with someone. Even though I know this, it's hard for me to keep myself convinced. I'm only going to cause myself more regret in the future, nothing should be stopping me from progress.
It's really never too late to realize these toxic mindsets are nothing but toxic, and they do nothing but bog you down from at least being proud of the hobbies and so on you do enjoy, even if your life isn't exactly ideal. You don't need to have a great job, be a social butterfly, or fit the ideal beauty standards! Most people I become friends with online don't fit into any of those, but they are still great people I enjoy the company of, with their own unique personalities/experiences. You should want to improve yourself and your life, but don't get bogged down by what you don't have yet, or for not meeting your goals sooner! It's hard to stay positive in this world, and you never really be able to always stay positive. All any of us can do is try, and no one is truly alone on this.
The idea that there are new human in the same exact position as OP was more than 10 years ago is frightening. The people themselves aren't scary, but the fact that this situation has been constantly recurring for people all over the world without any headway is what is frightening.
And yeah, I think the advise regarding meet-ups with people for like-minded hobbies is probably the best advise. That way, you know that everyone in your vicinity is there for the same reason you are. For example, if you get into WarHammer 40K, once you get your army together you can find a table and wait for someone else who is also looking for a match.
OP is literally me but 10 years in the past
10 years have passed but nothing has changed for people like us there's not place for us in this world
>>62
I've been NEET for over 11 years. KV, no friends, no hope in this world.
even when there is no hope
still there shall be hope
even when there is no solution
still there shall be solution
get out of relative thinking and reach for the absolute
:/
You guys talk about wanting to die so much, and probably think about it all the time. But lets be logical here. If you really wanted to die, you could have easily killed yourself by now. But you haven't. Something is stopping you, something is making you want to live. Figure out what that is, and you'll understand yourself better.
i 795 want to die and 250 want to live and 994207583 want to live good
Having a job sounds horrifying to me. Spending 80% of your time for the rest of your life doing something incredibly boring with barely any benefit for myself sounds like a fate worse than death. Getting paid will only serve in prolonging the boredom.
4 hour work times when? Working 4 days a week when?
Getting a job in general gets increasingly harder due to increased automation and sometimes absurd demands. People just aren't as needed as they were used to. Death from starvation soon.
Spending shitton of time studying programming in general and then never funding a job is so humiliating. Don't do programming.
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>>2
it always comes down to luck... unfortunately.
Convince the government to give you welfare instead of working. You can spend all your time doing whatever you want. It's how life is meant to be spent.
This thread is for hikikomori and NEETs to discuss personal issues regarding the NEET lifestyle.
NEET (Not In Education Employment Or Training)
The Japanese Ministry of Health, defines hikikomori as people who refuse to leave their parents' house, do not work or go to school and isolate themselves away from society and family in a single room for a period of 6 months or more.
If you are not a NEET or hikikomori don't post in this thread.
>That doesn't sound so bad to me
It wasn't the first half a decade or so. The last couple years I've just been utterly rotting away chasing for something to enjoy. How long have you been a neet?
How do you guys secure finances to continue your hiki/neet lifestyles? I write music and do gamedev as hobbies but I lack the confidence to shill myself out for money. I have no income and am too socially anxious to ever get another face-to-face customer service job. I'm turning 30 this year, my mom is getting older and is in a high risk group for COVID, which has been spreading like wildfire through her workplace. I think it's only a matter of time before she gets sick, and if she dies I think I'm fucked.
>>29
Neetbux and mom's basement.
>>29 checking in a few months later, are you guys okay?
>>32
I hope I get hit by a truck. Though I don't go outside and I live nowhere near a truck, so I guess maybe I hope a truck flies down from the sky and crushes me in my room.
>>33
Well then, I wish the opposite for you.
>>34
My mentality has improved considerably. I no longer wish to get hit by a truck and have learned to count my blessings.
I get welfare checks of $300 per month and get to spend it all on video games while being a NEET in my parents house. I have high speed internet, heat, air conditioning, a giant room, a 50 inch TV. My mom cooks me all my meals. My dad does all the chores. Why would I want to change this?
I feel like my mom stopped bathing me at a very old age, when I should have been able to bathe myself, but she said that I don't know how to yet.
Dunno when we stopped bathing together, but I shared a bed with her when I was 12.
When did she stop bathing you? Being able to take baths with their child is a very dear thing to many parents, I understand if they struggled to let go of that.
Sorry, I meant shared bed at 10. I typo'd.
>>4
You don't have to lie, friend ;^)
I've fucked my mother before, like in that hentai you watch IRL.
Yep, tight pussy.
>Please, let's try to keep this board as civil and mature as possible.
Around 4-5 years old. Maybe sooner.
>>3
I shared the same bed with my mom until I was 14.
The only reason I got to sleep in a different bed is my dad moved out.
I think it was the around 6 years old or something?
>>8
Reality may be stranger than fiction sometimes.
30
My mom had always walked around the house naked after taking a shower until she started noticing me looking at her body. I wish she didn't notice.