Me from other coast,
You might have destructive likes,
but you're still also free
steady postin on the web
dude i love you
no homo
Truly I miss you
I never confessed it
See you again soon?
You are always there
When I need you and your touch
Oh my sweet left hand
Taurean woman,
Our love is like the hillside--
Dynamic, yet still.
Too quickly we split
An ocean separates us
I miss you fiercely
alone, lost in time
pretty much NEET for 12 years
let me see the love
Soon a year will be
Since my feelings first sparked
And refuse to wane
Typing on the keyboard
Searching for some ewhores
Don’t want to be lonely
Artsy girl I knew,
I still wish it'd worked, even if
you have issues, man.
Most of my thoughts seem cynical, mostly due to my own personal history - people, events, experiences, and life lessons - but they are only truly just what I came to expect from human nature because of my experiences, not an unreasonable predisposition to be nihilistic. Some humans are nice and wholesome, which I appreciate and acknowledge. But some humans are greedy, lustful, and absolutely horrid. Those who’d step on others just to feel good about themselves. I am not talking about petty shit like school / university / workplace drama. I’m talking about actual geopolitics, tyrants, capitalism, consumerism, echo chambers of society, and how I fear World War III might just be looming around the corner - as well as other fucktons of impending apocalypse scenarios.
First of all, my fears are not unjustified. As an example, the moment news broke out of the "Wuhan" Virus, I was already expecting of the goddamn "global" pandemic (and it doesn’t take a fucking genius to see that coming - especially with how out of touch politicians are, not to mention cultural aspects of nations and lack of trust in science, and the echo chambers of social media). Need not me remind you, people died because of absolute negligence of those people with "power'.
Then also came the Russian invasion of Ukraine - this happening already shatters the illusion of peace in this world (I know of Iraq and Afghanistan, but this happening to a European country is just too bizarre).
Chunni Fears.
>Am I crazy?
No. Most people are so tunneled vision and will dismiss what they do not want to hear or believe and will write things off as consipiracy theories or "fake news".
>Am I justified? Or am I just talking out of my ass?
It isn't hard to see the patterns or connect the dots and do some research here and there so most will be true.
However, there are other people who believe and see the same patterns and dots, but start to go cynical and pull things out of their ass and missguide people.
Kind of people who "wake up" and then feel they need to go tell the world about it on YouTube (Google) in a hour long video that could be done in ten minutes.
>2
>...I think the best thing is to pace yourself with how you handle things. ...Doomsday is not too far and yet not too close.
Thank you especially for this.
I think you are autistic and worry too much
just live life
Rather than overthink and watch in horror as would be avoidable happenings inevitably happen I just tune it all out. Life's too short for me to believe I can make a difference as a broke neet shitposting on the internet. I just... oh that's gonna happen in a couple years... Okay, guess I'll stock up on some things before they get more expensive... Not much else I can do, I can't prevent it so try to make the best of it by pretending everything is fine. If I die I die, better enjoy the time I have now if that's the case so no time spent worrying, that's not living.
> Am I crazy?
No. We live in a world gone mad. Where cooperate execs can pay their way into becoming astronauts, cities have more empty luxury skyscrapers than houses, and social media has brainwashed an entire generation. There are no jobs and endless wars.
How do you deal with chunni fears? Embrace them! Accept that you don’t have your hand on the wheel, there’s very little you can do to change the world and it’s out of your control. If your not responsible you can free yourself from any guilt or pressure to do or feel anything. If I can’t stop a war from happening what’s the point worrying everyday about it? There’s an old saying, “you can’t fight fate.”
In Afghanistan, a lot of people love to keep gardens and would keep them despite the chaos of war going on around them. They’d go out amid the shootings and bombings to collect water for their roses. Why? Well, what else is there to do? I have no power over what goes on out there, but I do have some control and responsibility over my flowers. So what if I die? At least I died doing something worthwhile, no matter how small it is. Point being, just let the world take it’s course, embrace the madness, and don’t give a fuck about it, focus on the small things that you enjoy and don’t let the world keep you down.
I agree embrace the chaos anon. Fuck it we’re all gonna die anyway we might as well die with style instead of being worthless fucks.
>Chuuni Fears
I wish I could go back to being a stupid middle schooler still full of piss and vinegar and hope for the future who actually seemed to be able to enjoy everything without a sense of dread or a sense of "you're wasting your life!" or a sense of "you'll never be good enough!" looming overhead like the sword of Damocles.
After 14 or more years of alcohol abuse I have finally realized how grave this situation is and I need to quit.
The thing about quitting alcohol though is that after a day or two sober I break out into horrible panic attacks, panic attacks so severe I feel like I'm dying.
Yesterday I took a CBD edible and although this is an illegal state and this should only contain 0.3% delta 9 it got me extremely high, or I was having a terrible panic attack either way I started drinking some booze and the fear went away ... I'm drinking right now as well.
Kids don't do drugs.
Stay the fuck away from alcohol, even if you don't think you'll become addicted.
Watch videos on youtube of alcoholic people living miserably or having severe withdrawal symptoms, that is the true face of alcohol not the jewish lie of people having fun partying or socializing.
ANyways I need to check myself into a rehab center because I think while I'm getting off alcohol I should have my health monitored and be giving anxiety medication.
Are there free places like that?
relapses a bitch.
easing your way out is hard cuz because you might fall to temptation and just pour more than what you say you would drink.
cold turkey is hard cuz youre cutting out what youve been used to so you feel horrible or like dying.
never heard of a free rebab center.
dont drink cuz everyone i know is in the cycle and will never break free...
best way to win is to not play...
and if youve played youre in for a shitty time...
Been sober for several days.
Currently on Librium.
Will report back in another while
>>4
Glad you're doing well, bud. Keep it up, you got this.
I'm back to drinking but I did go to an AA meeting today
>>4-5
You'll get it right sometime, keep trying!
still a better thread than 90% of the shit on this board
I can't take it anymore. I'm so alone, I have no friends, girls don't even look at me. Everybody is having fun, they are full of love, all except me.
I'm a complete failure, 10 years of isolation, I barely finished high school, dropped out of university, and found a stoopid job anyone could do.
There's no way out, I have no idea how people become friends with each other, how they find love. Oh wait, once in 26 years I actually found that.. once in 26.. that means I have to wait another 26 to stumble on a person who likes me, and I'll be old already..
I tried to tell them.. I told them I was alone.. but no one understands.. they think it's some stoopid temporary loneliness.. they are used to have all they want, to find new friends and lovers the same way you download new games from the internet... how could they understand what it means to have no friends, no company, no woman around for the most part of ur life, and not knowing how to find them.
Everybody has a family, friends, a girl, everybody is loved... but me, and I don't know how to get out of this... once you lose all social connections, it's done. It isn't necessary to be a hikki, it just happens, you lose all childhood friends, and zzap you're alone for life.
What I have done to deserve this.
>>62
I've been NEET for over 11 years. KV, no friends, no hope in this world.
even when there is no hope
still there shall be hope
even when there is no solution
still there shall be solution
get out of relative thinking and reach for the absolute
:/
You guys talk about wanting to die so much, and probably think about it all the time. But lets be logical here. If you really wanted to die, you could have easily killed yourself by now. But you haven't. Something is stopping you, something is making you want to live. Figure out what that is, and you'll understand yourself better.
i 795 want to die and 250 want to live and 994207583 want to live good
sage
Death is not guaranteed to end your suffering. If you're unlucky you could end up in a much worse place without the ability to end that experience out of your own volition, so you might as well optimize your i/o system to produce enjoyable feelings during this life. How you do that only you can answer, anyone else can only nudge you towards finding that answer within yourself.
Besides, the grass is always greener on the other side. Even if you obtain all those things you think you're missing, will it make you feel better in the end? For some perhaps, for others it might make their lives even more miserable and for the rest there might be no difference and they still feel that emptiness within.
I recommend studying the repeating patterns in your life and altering them until you find a pattern that fits you. Good luck, may you find your peace and purpose.
Row Row fight the power
Honestly, I self harmed and was like 6.5/10 suicidal (I wasn't actively planning on killing myself but I'd take really stupid risks and just say "if I die, I die w/e") for like 15ish years. Somehow shit just came together. If you just keep moving forward, half assing shit and drifting through life it gets better. Only thing is is that you gotta grab on TIGHT when you see your opportunity. RNGesus can't hate you forever, you'll trip and fall into a good life eventually.
During the summer, I met a boy about my age. We were at a party playing Super Smash Brothers Brawl, and he picked Snake. I love Metal Gear so I struck up a conversation with him about it. We quickly became good friends afterwards, staying up all night to talk about videogames and getting together to play as often as we could.
I soon learned this boy had a crush on me. After a few months I began to feel the same for him as well, and we quickly fell into a relationship of quoting Metal Gear in every conversation, going to the mall to pick out Wii games, and blasting Snake Eater as we drove around downtown. It was quite beautiful for a while.
However, soon, college began for me, and he had to start work. Insomnia and stress took their toll on me. I stopped being quite as happy and sunshiney as I had been during the summer. I cried often. I had no time for videogames, and neither did he. We lost our common ground for conversation and it slowly began to go downhill from there.
Sometime during this, oral sex became a regular thing for us, as I really enjoyed doing it. Unfortunately, something about this caused a great emotional upwelling, and after the 5th or 6th time we met for this, he burst into tears, telling me that he didn't feel as strongly about me anymore, and that he was very very sorry, and that he really wanted to make things work because he truly cared about me.
OP here, well...he broke up with me, pulled the ol' "I still like you, but we're just going to be friends for a while, then if things work we'll get back together" trick. Then it was amazing, we went right back to quoting Metal Gear like crazy, we had fun conversations and lots of hugs. But it just hurt to be around him, to not see that spark in his eyes.
Eventually it became fairly obvious I was no longer wanted. He changed his Who I'd Like to Meet on MySpace to, "an amazing girl" (previously "I've already found who I've been looking for"), and blabbered on and on to a friend about how much he wants "a hot girl with a car".
Needless to say, I'm pretty heartbroken.
I put every Metal Gear game I own in a box with the rest of his possessions and put it in the closet.
Maybe I need to look for an Ocelot instead of a Snake this time.
Did he ever talk about other games? Geez, why keep talking about Metal Gear? There are so many good games out there. (Yakuza, Uncharted, GTA 4, and some HOT rpgs)
Don't look for OCELOT. Look for OTACON :D He'll remain faithful to you. :D
I somehow sense that Metal Gear was not the point of this thread,...
But on the other hand you're right, there're plenty of other gam... hum guys ^_^
Dude, we talked about other stuff, it's just that Metal Gear is his most favorite franchise (mine is Mother), and it was something we could both relate to since we'd both played all the games obsessively.
And bwahaha, I've never been that into Otacon, but I gotcha, you're totally right. Ocelot wouldn't be too nice.
...
Now if I could just find a the Pain, I'd be all over that sucker!!
Snake Logan is better
>>4
MySpace is heinously anus.
vc: u nig
I cried
in 2008 it was notable for a girl to liek video games
I have a dream that the term “underage” on here will be marked a insult, and replies to posts with the insult should be removed. Why? 4-ch is a nice place and not for hate. As a important reminder: I am actually gonna be a adult in 3 years (15 currently). So don’t call me “underage” anymore because that hurts my feelings.
People get called slurs and you're here crying about being called underage.
Women and children should screw off and stay home.
HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA
Oh My God!
Please log off your computer and go outside and build some thick skin or play some game like Counter-Strike to build some thick skin.
Well at least this post made me laugh. The people who pretend that they are "le old fag" on games like Counter-Strike really are more annoying.
>>1
how did crybaby zoomers find this site
also ur UNDERAGE!!! haha get bent underage
When I was an underageb& many many loops ago, I never would proclaim such a thing. This is an anonymous board after all, you could pretend to be a 64 year old woman from Kansas and no one would be the wiser.
under-age
undersage
Underage!
captcha: pudge - which I think fits since you're probably a fatty! （＾Д＾）
Pretty sure girls can get away with never working quite often, life sure isn't fair.
I need to whine on social networks instead of dead forums, there are usually city local groups around. Never visited those though.
>girls can get away with never working
The (at least mildly) good-looking ones, sure. Have you considered starting an onlyfans?
ossan's belly flashes and headpatting services, for 49.99, call today!
when is the next 4-ch meetup
when was the previous 4-ch meetup?
>>6
There was this thread https://archives.4-ch.net/general/kareha.pl/1140024270/ but it doesn't seem to have resulted in any meetups.
Closest thing was a 4-ch poster or two attending an otakon panel on *chans (mostly 4chan) in 2006.
We need to organize a 4-ch orgy, then none of us will be virgins.
it better be
all these sunday stories are just pain in the arse. it didnt help me today nor does it get me away from anything troublesome.
trapped me between this...lame "good and evil"
might as well die and unexist.
well
im not too smart.
everyone smart always trample me. the lord did. the father too. and everything else.
i hope they feel whst i feel
but nope
well. if it doesnt work, we try things dont we.
holy shit dude
take your meds
anything is better than 4chan
nigger jew
nigger jew
nigger jew
nigger jew
Not by much.
Infinitely better, but also slow as balls.
i wish 4chan just died already it's too mainstream thanks to fucking /pol/ /b/ and /v/. should've gatekept summerfags and electionfags but no how else would they earn $$$$
i use the internet to escape from my boring life
going on messageboards like this is interesting like exploring new countries
The worst is when they think they're special and so above everyone else for doing the same shit everyone else does
>Oh you're not into politics? What are you, a dumb normalfag?
>>25
I keep squinting at that post and the only thing I can get out of it is that he meant "guardian." Still kind of weird phrasing in-context, however, so I'm open to other suggestions...
v: suxitch
I wish I could go back to the days when "economy" was just a big word adults liked to use on tv.
test post
when you say "my daddy" do you mean like an actual parent or is it like a kinky daddy who you enjoy letting dominate you and do any degrading thing he asks without question because you want him to tell you he's proud of you as you choke on his cock?