For nearly my entire life I've had really shaggy hair. For about half a decade up until today it's been below my shoulders. Today on a whim I decided to cut it all off. So I did and then took an electric clipper with a 1mm guard and cut all the hair off of my head. I've had short hair but never anything shaved. I'm really not liking how it feels. My ears and head feel so cold, even worse becasue winter is coming up fast and it gets really cold where I am. The wind feels extremely harsh against my scalp, and I can't touch my head with anything without noticing the lack of hair between it and my scalp. Worst of all is that I can't touch my head with anything bigger than a point without EXTREME discomfort. I can't lay down on a pillow without feeling like each hair is a tiny needle poking into me. And rubbing against anything is even worse. I can't rub my head, I don't know how sleeping is gonna go, I'm not looking forward to it. It's seeming like I might just have to constantly wear a beanie until I adjust or get a basic head of hair back. Mainly just venting here because there's no way I could go to the people I live with and complain that I regret shaving all my hair off on a fucking whim.
Funny, I did the exact same thing a few days ago. It's cold and it looks bad, but showering is wonderful! And it's going to grow out again soon enough.
OP here, it seems the discomfort is already over. I managed to eventually fall asleep and when I woke up I didn't feel the pain from putting my head on the pillow. I don't know why it was so bad or why it got better so quickly, but it did and now I'm glad I did it.
I shaved my head to avoid brain blasting electromagnetic waves emitted from commercial buzzers barbers use. Unfortunately it e-blasts my strands like a cybercrash. Stay low on the funkwaves, heard it gets better under UV treatment.
This thread is for hikikomori and NEETs to discuss personal issues regarding the NEET lifestyle.
NEET (Not In Education Employment Or Training)
The Japanese Ministry of Health, defines hikikomori as people who refuse to leave their parents' house, do not work or go to school and isolate themselves away from society and family in a single room for a period of 6 months or more.
If you are not a NEET or hikikomori don't post in this thread.
>>42
There are many different countries with different housing prices and bribe amounts. Many disabled people are neets too. I didn't think it would be reachable either.
i've been a NEET ever since i graduated HS in 2022
it's been almost a year now and i haven't done anything with my life, nor do i really know what to do with it
i should eat more
thanks for reading my blogpost :(
>>45
Sounds to me like you're terribly depressed, young grasshopper. Are you?
>>46
yeah i guess so
i know im young but it already feels like my life is over
i have tried getting a job but the one time i ever secured an interview (a phone call because of the covid pandemic), i cancelled out of fear
i don't leave the house ever, and i rarely leave my room
sometimes i debate just leaving my house and becoming homeless, i feel like a burden and a shame to my family :(
>>47
I also felt like a burden to my family after I graduated from HS because my graduation ceremony was canceled during the scamdemic and I was too anxious to get a job.
You got a discord tag btw?
I'm a NEET because I got fired from my job. It's comfy. I've missed it. However, there's no tismbux where I live, so I'll need to get a job in a few months. It's an extended vacation.
The worst thing about being a NEET is knowing you’ll have to work again at some point in the future when you need cash.
>>51
I work a casual job at a grocery store, and I actually really appreciate it when they give me fuck all shifts after drafting up the roster.
Not only is it great time for me to give mind to the things I enjoy doing, and also work towards achieving personal goals I set out for myself, but it barely makes a difference in my income; the welfare agency in my country decimates your tugboat relative to how much you earn from employers, so there's little incentive for me to try harder and ask for more hours.
Not when the cost is ultimately the decision to neglect my own mental health, peace of mind, and personal development. I guess I could do it if I were a whore for money.
After 14 or more years of alcohol abuse I have finally realized how grave this situation is and I need to quit.
The thing about quitting alcohol though is that after a day or two sober I break out into horrible panic attacks, panic attacks so severe I feel like I'm dying.
Yesterday I took a CBD edible and although this is an illegal state and this should only contain 0.3% delta 9 it got me extremely high, or I was having a terrible panic attack either way I started drinking some booze and the fear went away ... I'm drinking right now as well.
Kids don't do drugs.
Stay the fuck away from alcohol, even if you don't think you'll become addicted.
Watch videos on youtube of alcoholic people living miserably or having severe withdrawal symptoms, that is the true face of alcohol not the jewish lie of people having fun partying or socializing.
ANyways I need to check myself into a rehab center because I think while I'm getting off alcohol I should have my health monitored and be giving anxiety medication.
Are there free places like that?
relapses a bitch.
easing your way out is hard cuz because you might fall to temptation and just pour more than what you say you would drink.
cold turkey is hard cuz youre cutting out what youve been used to so you feel horrible or like dying.
never heard of a free rebab center.
dont drink cuz everyone i know is in the cycle and will never break free...
best way to win is to not play...
and if youve played youre in for a shitty time...
Been sober for several days.
Currently on Librium.
Will report back in another while
>>4
Glad you're doing well, bud. Keep it up, you got this.
I'm back to drinking but I did go to an AA meeting today
I too enjoy Drinking. Just buy the really cheap shit and you'll never get addicted--its too nasty.
>>8
I knew a guy who was addicted to PBR and Bootleggers.
>>1
CBD edibles don't do anything for me. Are you sure it wasn't delta 8?
My nigga is spouting off about "jewish lies" while considering whether or not he needs to be on anxiety medications
I'm not about to tell you how to structure your worldview (altho you're probably better off not denigrating people based on race and/or creed), but at least be consistent in how you choose to perceive two industries which both thrive on proliferating mind-altering chemicals for profit sold to you on a basis of deceit
I've been living with my girlfriend for 2+ years now. We're both worthless NEETs who leech off government welfare. It was really fun for a while, but recently I've been feeling a weird sort of unease. We're both friendless so we've been together for basically 24/7 this entire time. I love her, yes, but I think back to my days of living with my parents and I feel a weird sort of... nostalgia, I guess?
I remember driving out at 3 AM to drink beer in some abandoned parking lot or whatever. Or just masturbating to all my favorite hentai without feeling guilty about it. Now I can't really do anything like that. I feel like a 40-something guy experiencing a midlife crisis.
What do I do to make these thoughts go away?
HAVE
SEX
>HAVE
>SEX
I. DO. Almost every day. And I'm tired of it! I just want to masturbate in peace.
masturbate at 3am
Take a short break from each other? Get a job?
>Get a job?
If you work you die.
>Now I can't really do anything like that
You might if you try.
Make your GF cosplay as your favorite waifu or something
Why don’t you get a hobby or try making some friends? I’d recommend dunk driving to random parking lots at 3AM to jerk off together aka urban sexploration. Or you could push her into getting a hobby and some friends either way works.
You should really get a hobby. Maybe smithing, it sounds comfy.
It's not dissociation per se (the DID or desensitized kind). But oftentimes, I find it hard to remain grounded, to be attuned to my senses, and to simply "live my life".
It's not social media overusage. I only use it as a means to an end; to communicate, to collate information, or for entertainment (educational YouTube videos).
It's about knowing a lot of things. Both the good and the bad, and the absolutely horrid (which I don't even want to talk about; my only thought here is, "Anything can happen when no one's looking around"). The propensity and desire to analyze concepts, events, people, systems, and science and break them down to their essential bits. Though I am not necessarily a genius.
My mind is slow, but that is fine for me; I am proud to be a philosophizing human, rather than to be someone who has the skills that a computer can simulate. But I am also not too knowledgeable. It just desire to know a little bit of something about everything. Rather than knowing everything about something.
Being meta and self-aware. And knowing how harrowing human actions can be. And seeing evidence and testimonials of various human hideous acts are oft weighing me down. Both events from the past, events today, events in the future, events that we have heard, and events lost in the darkness and never brought into light. They don't scare me. But they also tend to reinforce my cynicism. I am an idiot, once a naive idealist who wholeheartedly believed in merely doing what I thought was right. "To do to others what you want others to do unto you."
I can't unsee this. I can't forget this.
I can no longer live a normal life.
I can no longer delude myself in to having a normal life.
My conscious and grandiose sense of self-ware existence cannot accept merely dying as someone born from dust and to return to dust. But I feel alone. That one puny human cannot do everything himself.
I don't know.
I need advice.
I believe that everything is connected. The past lead to me. The past lead to everyone and everything now. And all of we in the now will lead to the future. And that my nonchalance, ignorance, may lead to a terrible future. But even so, as I am not in a position of power, I can never ever overturn the future. Heck, I don't even have the power to overturn Putin right now. So.
Haha bro just chill out my nigga
Shits tough out there you just gonna walk around look at the sky and be happy
Most of my thoughts seem cynical, mostly due to my own personal history - people, events, experiences, and life lessons - but they are only truly just what I came to expect from human nature because of my experiences, not an unreasonable predisposition to be nihilistic. Some humans are nice and wholesome, which I appreciate and acknowledge. But some humans are greedy, lustful, and absolutely horrid. Those who’d step on others just to feel good about themselves. I am not talking about petty shit like school / university / workplace drama. I’m talking about actual geopolitics, tyrants, capitalism, consumerism, echo chambers of society, and how I fear World War III might just be looming around the corner - as well as other fucktons of impending apocalypse scenarios.
First of all, my fears are not unjustified. As an example, the moment news broke out of the "Wuhan" Virus, I was already expecting of the goddamn "global" pandemic (and it doesn’t take a fucking genius to see that coming - especially with how out of touch politicians are, not to mention cultural aspects of nations and lack of trust in science, and the echo chambers of social media). Need not me remind you, people died because of absolute negligence of those people with "power'.
Then also came the Russian invasion of Ukraine - this happening already shatters the illusion of peace in this world (I know of Iraq and Afghanistan, but this happening to a European country is just too bizarre).
Chunni Fears.
>Am I crazy?
No. Most people are so tunneled vision and will dismiss what they do not want to hear or believe and will write things off as consipiracy theories or "fake news".
>Am I justified? Or am I just talking out of my ass?
It isn't hard to see the patterns or connect the dots and do some research here and there so most will be true.
However, there are other people who believe and see the same patterns and dots, but start to go cynical and pull things out of their ass and missguide people.
Kind of people who "wake up" and then feel they need to go tell the world about it on YouTube (Google) in a hour long video that could be done in ten minutes.
>2
>...I think the best thing is to pace yourself with how you handle things. ...Doomsday is not too far and yet not too close.
Thank you especially for this.
I think you are autistic and worry too much
just live life
Rather than overthink and watch in horror as would be avoidable happenings inevitably happen I just tune it all out. Life's too short for me to believe I can make a difference as a broke neet shitposting on the internet. I just... oh that's gonna happen in a couple years... Okay, guess I'll stock up on some things before they get more expensive... Not much else I can do, I can't prevent it so try to make the best of it by pretending everything is fine. If I die I die, better enjoy the time I have now if that's the case so no time spent worrying, that's not living.
> Am I crazy?
No. We live in a world gone mad. Where cooperate execs can pay their way into becoming astronauts, cities have more empty luxury skyscrapers than houses, and social media has brainwashed an entire generation. There are no jobs and endless wars.
How do you deal with chunni fears? Embrace them! Accept that you don’t have your hand on the wheel, there’s very little you can do to change the world and it’s out of your control. If your not responsible you can free yourself from any guilt or pressure to do or feel anything. If I can’t stop a war from happening what’s the point worrying everyday about it? There’s an old saying, “you can’t fight fate.”
In Afghanistan, a lot of people love to keep gardens and would keep them despite the chaos of war going on around them. They’d go out amid the shootings and bombings to collect water for their roses. Why? Well, what else is there to do? I have no power over what goes on out there, but I do have some control and responsibility over my flowers. So what if I die? At least I died doing something worthwhile, no matter how small it is. Point being, just let the world take it’s course, embrace the madness, and don’t give a fuck about it, focus on the small things that you enjoy and don’t let the world keep you down.
I agree embrace the chaos anon. Fuck it we’re all gonna die anyway we might as well die with style instead of being worthless fucks.
>Chuuni Fears
I wish I could go back to being a stupid middle schooler still full of piss and vinegar and hope for the future who actually seemed to be able to enjoy everything without a sense of dread or a sense of "you're wasting your life!" or a sense of "you'll never be good enough!" looming overhead like the sword of Damocles.
The apocalypse already happened a long time ago. We're living after the collapse.
Discord "community" servers are bad anyways.
You should only ever join a server if it's educational related.
Thank you for submitting your report to 4-ch for inspection. Our team will have it dealt with when we get around to it.
Have a nice day and fuck off!
If you have a problem with the server, then you should report it to Discord yourself
discord some cia shit you all got no clue
well maybe some yall but most dont realize how weird that rabbit hole goes.
just remember gov loves shell shit.
more than one step removed.
its just smart.
When I was 14, I molested my sister. She was was almost four the first time and the second time was just after she turned four. The first time, I actually pulled her pants down and touched her bottom, but the second time was just me taking my time helping her in the restroom. Neither time did I ask her to touch me or even show her my penis.
I was recently recovering from a long amount of physical and emotional abuse from my father, and had previously been molested twice in my youth. I was also suffering from some fairly serious mental problems. I say this not to excuse my actions, but to provide more of an explanation of what was going on then.
As time went on and I have returned to a more normal mental state, I look back upon what I have done in horror and guilt. I don't really know what effects this may have had on my sister (she is still fairly young) but I don't really look back on my molestations negatively. I still feel guilty, though.
However, a larger emotion that I am now feeling is fear. What if she remembers? What if she does not? I certainly remember being that age, but I developed rather quickly. Her linguistic skills have always been behind. What if she remembers and eventually tells someone and my life is ruined? What if.... etc?
When I was 3 or 40 I was at a day care and sneaked in the bathroom with a friend(boy) and we touched tips
It's okay though Jesus Christ and God and Alex Johns and my Mother believe and me and tell me i'm very special. I go to my church every weekend and smoke weed in the parking lot and put cigarette buts out on children :) :p
Please pray for me!!!
lole the last part got to me. i know you dont do that however ill keep you in my prayers you dumb, dumb man
>>45
Stay on twitter.
THE CYCLE ABUSE IS SAD
my brother touched my pee pee and butt in bed when i was around 12 and him 15
Neither of us (to my knowledge) was molested but he had went through a time at that same age where he and a freind jerked eachother off
he also showed me how to fap and nutted in front of me
and in the bathroom he told me to touch his benis and rub it and i did
years later he actually told my mom because he was guilty, I was kinda confused and a bit disturbed at the time but I think it kinda fucked me up emotionally because through puberty i would fap to gay fantasies and it led to me sending nudes to people online as well a bit later
now we're both years older and neither of us are gay or anything, I dont hold it against him we're both dumb kids
Side note, in 2nd grade i saw a girl preschool age on the slide, and when no one was looking i tried to kiss her but stopped, she started crying to i ran away, and her indian babysitter yelled at me to come back but I didnt
If I’m still a loner by 40 I will kill myself. There’s no point in turning into an old man and having nobody to care for you.
>>49
How old are you now? If it's still more than a decade off, why not try to grab ahold of the situation while you still have time?
I can't take it anymore. I'm so alone, I have no friends, girls don't even look at me. Everybody is having fun, they are full of love, all except me.
I'm a complete failure, 10 years of isolation, I barely finished high school, dropped out of university, and found a stoopid job anyone could do.
There's no way out, I have no idea how people become friends with each other, how they find love. Oh wait, once in 26 years I actually found that.. once in 26.. that means I have to wait another 26 to stumble on a person who likes me, and I'll be old already..
I tried to tell them.. I told them I was alone.. but no one understands.. they think it's some stoopid temporary loneliness.. they are used to have all they want, to find new friends and lovers the same way you download new games from the internet... how could they understand what it means to have no friends, no company, no woman around for the most part of ur life, and not knowing how to find them.
Everybody has a family, friends, a girl, everybody is loved... but me, and I don't know how to get out of this... once you lose all social connections, it's done. It isn't necessary to be a hikki, it just happens, you lose all childhood friends, and zzap you're alone for life.
What I have done to deserve this.
:/
You guys talk about wanting to die so much, and probably think about it all the time. But lets be logical here. If you really wanted to die, you could have easily killed yourself by now. But you haven't. Something is stopping you, something is making you want to live. Figure out what that is, and you'll understand yourself better.
i 795 want to die and 250 want to live and 994207583 want to live good
sage
Death is not guaranteed to end your suffering. If you're unlucky you could end up in a much worse place without the ability to end that experience out of your own volition, so you might as well optimize your i/o system to produce enjoyable feelings during this life. How you do that only you can answer, anyone else can only nudge you towards finding that answer within yourself.
Besides, the grass is always greener on the other side. Even if you obtain all those things you think you're missing, will it make you feel better in the end? For some perhaps, for others it might make their lives even more miserable and for the rest there might be no difference and they still feel that emptiness within.
I recommend studying the repeating patterns in your life and altering them until you find a pattern that fits you. Good luck, may you find your peace and purpose.
Row Row fight the power
Honestly, I self harmed and was like 6.5/10 suicidal (I wasn't actively planning on killing myself but I'd take really stupid risks and just say "if I die, I die w/e") for like 15ish years. Somehow shit just came together. If you just keep moving forward, half assing shit and drifting through life it gets better. Only thing is is that you gotta grab on TIGHT when you see your opportunity. RNGesus can't hate you forever, you'll trip and fall into a good life eventually.
In a world as messed up as ours I’d be surprised if you weren’t suicidal? I was suicidal and would spend hours researching ways to die that would be easy and peaceful. There isn’t really a painless way to lull yourself and when I realised that I stopped being so obsessed with offing myself and focused on just trying to live in the world because I got no fucking choice.
>>73
stfu, asswipe. death is never the answer. if you are feeling lonely and depressed then your choices are wrong. get the fuck out of your comfort zone, and live amongst nature. climb a hill, explore plants, insects, geology, minerals, sit underneath a tree and let your thoughts out of your mind. the world is a beautiful place but not the human society. i'm just waiting for my new bike, once i get it, i'm out of this fucking city.
i just wanna make my parents proud
trying to make 100k a year out of 20$ products.. means i have to find 5k people to buy my shit... where can i get that kind of people and how? with only squiggly art and only 1k to spend on marketting what the f do i do help
Market it dummy.
buy $GME
pork semen
Also, keep costs down. Cost control is vital in any business.
I am financially ruined
I hope you put all your points into LCK.
sex sells, hire some hot girls to market your products, make a lot of videos and post them on social media, or just ask a gen z kid to help and you might succeed or end up in jail