[Contentless] ITT you post right now [ASAP] your current thought [Brains][Thinking][Personal][#23] (999)

550 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8541 23:41

Cute girl cuddling you so hard that she breaks one of your ribs, and yet all you want is for her to cuddle you harder.

551 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8542 00:03

That's not how cuddling works, you twit.

552 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8542 01:19

I can attest that cuddling indeed does not break ribs. You might want to consult your doctor.

553 Name: ((●)トェェェイ(●)) : 1993-09-8542 06:26

we have t☻p level nigglers fighting f☻r y☻ur s☻cial security rights

554 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8542 16:28

I had the most shitty dream yet

555 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8542 18:00

Deleting the mugshots from a police computer, and replacing them with ahegao.

556 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8542 18:14

One more fucking day. Just one.

557 Name: ((●)トェェェイ(●)) : 1993-09-8542 22:53

"I don't want to see any more dead snails! You hear me?"

And that's how we got invisible dead snails...

558 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 04:06

Harry Potter and the deserted island

559 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 04:33

I want a microKORG

560 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 05:23

Look at this duck it's pretty cool.

561 Name: ((●)トェェェイ(●)) : 1993-09-8543 07:45

Out of DMAC already?

562 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 08:56

>>551,552
Well, I didn't see you complaining about >>/941...

563 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 12:18

everything since 2012 just feels wrong and bad, like optimism and hope and things like the simple joy of being cozy in bed on a rainy day just vanished from the world

564 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 12:29

>-I am a waiter and Working! is bullshit

<-I am an astronaut and Space Brothers is bullshit

565 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 12:31

I am a schoolteacher and I can say with confidence that Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei is not very accurate on what it's like to be a school teacher. Ok, thank you for reading.

566 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 13:01

I'm a magical girl and let me tell you, Madoka is a load of baloney!

567 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 16:26

I am a loli and Kodomo no Jikan is pretty accurate.

568 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 17:00

Zeto Kaipa summons his Blue Eyes White Girl in Reverse Cowgirl position

569 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 17:54

>>565 It's been a long time, but in the beginning he's not a school teacher is he? He's hiding from his pursuers and pretends to be the teacher? Am I maybe mistaken

570 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 17:55

>>568 I throw down a facial and end my turn!

571 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 17:56

I am a game developer and New Game! is pretty accurate~

572 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8543 18:08

Finally! About damn time too!

573 Name: ((●)トェェェイ(●)) : 1993-09-8543 22:24

Flambuoyancy: The ability of a straight person to stay stable and integrated in a crowd of gays

-Scott was providing security at some LGBT event this weekend
-Wow, he must be pretty flambuoyant

574 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8544 07:18

Trusting that the end of the world or an economic crisis due to trade wars are indeed looming threats on the horizon, I decided to finally hire a top tier escort before it becomes prohibitively expensive/we all die from Chinese nukes and tanks. I mean, you ought to do it at least once in a lifetime, right? It went pretty awful anyway, the world might as well end now for all I care.

575 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8544 11:50

>>574
How was it awful? I want to know the juicy details!

576 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8544 12:09

>>574
You should've spent that money on a professional cuddling service instead.

577 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8544 20:23

"with spotify premium, you can skip any song at any time, even on mobile"

there are literally two buttons (toggle play, skip) that make a shuffle music player usable, and you're telling me one of them is nerfed in the free version?

578 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8544 23:29

I didn't have a happy childhood. There's nothing remarkable about that; plenty of people had difficult times growing up. But the difference is that nothing bad happened to me whatsoever. My parents were comfortably middle class, I never really wanted for anything, I was bullied only very mildly, I had a modest circle of friends, I did well academically, I didn't face any adversity, my family was supportive and affectionate enough without being stifling, and so on. I had no reason to be unhappy.

But I was. Every day was agony. I was constantly fantasising about suicide. I took no pleasure in anything. I read, watched TV and played computer games, but they really were just to pass time; I didn't care about anything. I had no hope either, probably because I had no real conception of the future - I couldn't even begin to imagine myself as an adult or with a job, and the immediacy of my suffering kept me in the moment. After all, what good is the possibility of happiness in the future when you need it now? It may as well be happening to a different person.

My depression waxed and waned, partly with the seasons (winter was always the worst), and partly with the amount of stress from schoolwork at that particular time, but really it only ranged from general indifferent at best to spending every free moment thinking about killing myself at worst. Nothing made me happy; not being with friends, nor being left alone, nor finishing a good book, nor the beauty of nature, nor birthdays, nor Christmas - I mean, fucking Hell, what sort of fucked up kid doesn't care about Christmas?

All this only really struck home recently, when I was looking after my niece. She's two and a half years old, old enough to recognise and meaningfully interact with her surroundings, but not yet at the age when they become selfish and obnoxious. Just seeing the sheer joy and rapture she finds in even the most mundane of things suddenly made me realise I couldn't remember a single point in my entire childhood when I was even close to being that happy.

I feel somehow angry or betrayed. I want to redo my childhood! And not in the sense that most people do - with all their adult knowledge - I want to do it again starting from nothing, but to do it properly and enjoy it this time. But first, I need to know: what went wrong? Was it me? Was it my parents? Was it all just an imbalance of chemicals in my brain? Is this actually everyone's experience of childhood, and people just don't talk about it? And for that matter, what if I have children and they have to go through the same thing? At the very least, I want an explanation. How can I come to terms with all this, when I don't know why any of it happened?

579 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 09:03

I love staying up late, but last night a withheld number called when I was asleep early... that could have been the most important phonecall of my life

580 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 10:01

>>576
Nah, that's dangerous. His ribs could get broken.

581 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 11:40

>>578
I don't think that's unusual. A normal part of growing up is pretending to be happy in front of other people so that you don't disappoint them, then wondering why everyone always seems happy and expects you to be happy.

Upper middle-class society is so inundated with depictions of people being happy that we think it's normal. But is it? Why should the default state of humanity be happiness? I've never heard a convincing argument that it is. On the other hand, there are several very good reasons why humans should, on average, be in a mindset of some kind of unhappy desperation or desire, and I'll let you fill in for what and why that might be the case (but I'll bet that you can fill it in, which is sort of the point).

Some people actually are happy, probably, but the world is a rather rotten place. I'm not saying "You'll be happy if you accept it" or "Well gee, have you tried thinking X?", I just want to suggest that nothing "went wrong" for you specifically, because the state of being happy is not "right" (assuming there is a "right"). I also want to suggest the following argument, if you haven't already considered it before.

(1) Inflicting pain on someone without their consent is a morally wrong outcome.
(2) You should not take an action which may result in a morally wrong outcome, unless [Insert some some statements here about good-of-the-many, absolutism, sovereignty, whatever, if you wish].
(3) Being alive involves quite a lot of pain.
(4) It is impossible to obtain consent from your children for creating them.
(5) Therefore, having children may result in a morally wrong outcome. Therefore, depending on the conditions of (2), you should not have children.

I'm not saying you must agree with this argument, but if you accept or refute it you might come to terms with something. I long ago came to terms with the realizations that I will never be happy or content, that I will never have the courage to kill myself, that the Alzheimer's in my genes will probably make me die a babbling idiot, that the optimal course of action (for minimizing my own pain) is to bury myself in work, and that under no circumstances should I have children.

I apologize to the rest of the thread for this disgracefully serious post, and I promise I will try my hardest not to make any more like it.

582 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 12:06

http://www.smbc-comics.com/comic/one-wish-4

this feels related to the constant undertones of existential angst pervading this thread

583 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 13:06

>>580
But that's amateurs' mistake. Professionals are sure to cuddle just right.

584 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 13:17

>>583
This is a really good point.

585 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8545 17:30

>>581
Good points, thank you. I can well believe that being in a constant state of happiness and fulfilment is not at all typical, but my case of not even being capable of happiness still seems to me to be exceptional. What mystifies me most is that these days I'm a lot happier, and can take pleasure in things in a way that I never could before, despite the fact that objectively I'm not really any better off than I was as a child. The fact that I don't understand what changed to get me out of it worries me because it means I don't know what might push me back.

Thankfully, the whole antinatalism thing is arbitrary in my case because I'm asexual, so there's no risk of me creating children anyway. I was really considering what if I foster or adopt a child with the same sort of pathological unhappiness.

586 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 00:55

>>578
Honey, if every affluent human being was perfectly happy, and depression only struck poor people, shrinks would be out of jobs.

587 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 03:52

>>582
I like that comic! Although, I can't say I'm any better.

588 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 03:54

I only post on anonymous boards when I'm stressed in life.

589 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 05:07

Humans like to boil complicated problems down to a single issue.

590 Name: ((●)トェェェイ(●)) : 1993-09-8546 07:10

So it turns out this little looping thing I got for $10 retails for $300.

591 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 11:54

Counselling can be a really positive, valuable experience in life if you have a counsellor you fit with.

592 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 12:05

Cute girl leaving a bucket full of hugs on top of the door, so when you enter the room it topples over and you get covered in hugs.

593 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 14:30

>shitposting without sage

594 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 14:31

Just to clarify, >>593 wasn't aimed at anyone above. I just wanted to shitpost without sage.

595 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 19:26

Episode 2 of Marginal #4 has one character say: 'A famous movie star once said, "Don't think, feel."'
I have little interest in finding and making a screenshot. Just thought I'd let you know about that moment.

596 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 19:50

>>595
Oh, I thought it was a western thing. It isn't that surprising to find japanese textboard memes on anime.

597 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 22:34

>>596
Bruce Lee is well known in Japan, even assuming it's meant to be a reference.

598 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8546 23:48

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599 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 03:23

I like Drew Carey Show reruns a lot.

600 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 14:23

My head is full of ぽい.

601 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 15:51

FUCKING JOESTARS GET OUT WRYYYYYYY

602 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 15:52

Cute girl leaving a bucket full of lungs on top of the door, so when you enter the room it topples over and you get covered in lungs.

603 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 17:30

JJBA part 4 starting to air happened right around the same time as I finished chemotherapy. This sounds kind of lame but looking forward to watching it was part of what gave me the mental strength to push through it. Now that I'm finished watching it I'm feeling kinda burdo bordo.

604 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 18:02

>>602 Fill the lungs with cigarette tars and dump them on her head.

605 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 18:41

Cute girl leaving a bucket full of doors with buckets on top of them on top of the door, so when you enter the room it topples over and you get covered in recursion.

606 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 19:22

>>596,597
I thought it was that Neil Diamond song.
Also I only mentioned it because it's one of our special phrases that we mutter to each other.

607 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 20:32

It's just a word.

608 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 21:56

It's just a object.

609 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8547 23:58

壊れちゃう〜

610 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 01:20

It's just a job.

611 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 04:48

They call it boarding school because you get so bored that all you can do is jack off.

612 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 09:14

the relentless forward march of time has left me in despair

613 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 09:22

being bitterly depressed and miserable but it's "your thing" so you don't want to fix it even though it's easily fixed like that SZS episode where they go to a hot spring and zetsubou-sensei gets in a detoxification bath and dissolves because he was pure toxins

614 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 10:28

>>613
I remember that episode! That's a pretty stupid reason to be depressed and miserable, though.

615 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 12:20

>>614 i dont want to dissolve

616 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 15:20

>>615 It only itches until your skin is gone.

617 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 16:46

A sporty high school girl with the voice of a fat middle-aged woman

618 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 20:19

Today I'm drifting contentedly in a stream of creative work.

So I got that going for me. Which is nice.

619 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 20:56

My programming language is getting better as I remove stuff from it. Like comments, and tomorrow, half of the eval code.

620 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8548 21:42

Today I'm dorifting contentedly in a drainage ditch at Akina touge.

Dad said he'd buy me a tank of gas if I win. Which is nice.

621 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 02:03

It's too much work to stay friends with people. I've lost touch with just about everybody I know due to laziness and geographical distance. I think I'll just give up and go back to playing video games by myself like I did in high school.

622 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 02:36

>>621
Better to drift apart than to have some sort of cataclysmic fight.

623 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 04:34

cataclysmic fights arent bad but the effort to maintain friendship is too much effort to maintain friendship

624 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 05:52

my fight moneh (,,゚Д゚)

625 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 06:11

This morning, one of my officemates talked to me for about an hour about the conflict between Israel and Palestine. It was interesting, but I kept thinking to myself “These people's souls are weighed down by gravity”.

626 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 06:14

>>621
As difficult/bothersome as it may be sometimes, human relationships are pretty important for sanity. Please don't cut them off, DQN.

627 Name: vc: quean : 1993-09-8549 06:49

I don't disagree with >>626, but if said relationships are an end in themselves, then it's meaningless and unfulfilling; in fact it is parasitic, if that is the case, and in the most extreme cases it often manifests as diagnosable narcissism. (cf. C.S. Lewis "The Inner Ring" in which he attempted to use simple language to convince college men not to give in to a certain kind of social pressure that originates from within, but to instead be someone worth valuing, who does not get his value from the judgments of others and thus gains some small defense against both hardship and temptation... naturally a person of different beliefs might draw a similar conclusion thinking about the Nietzschean Übermensch, etc.)

Of course, it is not wrong to surround yourself with people whom you will elevate and who in turn elevate you, if the end of it is some "where" you all actually want to and should be. This might be even then be the relevant moral imperative. What this all really means, though, is that you, >>621, should just stick with today's special.

628 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 13:03

I'll never forgive you.

629 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 17:54

> Does the constraint or its anchors reference items in different view hierarchies? That's illegal.'

Oh thanks Apple, I guess evading taxes is really legal huh

630 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 20:10

I have a guaranteed fully funded four year PhD position!

I don't know why the BBSRC thinks I'm a computational biologist, as I'm certainly neither a computer scientist nor a biologist, but there'll be plenty of time to worry about that later.

VC: yaiy!

631 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8549 20:18

>>628 What did I do?

632 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8550 10:12

Hang in there, kiddo.

633 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8550 17:51

>>631
If you don't know, I'm not telling you. So there.

634 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8550 22:24

>>630
grats, and also maybe that is how you grow a field aggressively, kek

635 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 09:24

I love jerking off to big titties.

636 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 10:59

I wanna go home

637 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 13:05

take off this uniform and leave the show

638 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 17:30

I should buy a dakimakura...

639 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 19:13

>hittin it
>quittin it
>chew it up and spittin it

640 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 19:58

発情期だから仕方ない

641 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8551 22:15

but i'm waiting on this cell because i have to know

642 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8552 02:22

>>638
Do it. You'll get the best sleep of your life and never want to get out of bed again.

643 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8552 03:47

And you can princess carry it to your bed.

644 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8552 21:30

And if your friends find ou-, oh. Nevermind.

645 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8552 22:45

Hmm, something tells me that wasn't the good ending.

646 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8553 02:29

"Kill me Baby" is funny

647 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8553 02:39

Male-on-male Violence as Platonic BDSM

648 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8553 14:10

>>646
Yeah. It is.

649 Name: (*゚ー゚) : 1993-09-8553 16:28

Vaginas are really gross.

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