>>256-258
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this, I really appreciate it. Much of it is similar to my own philosophy and conclusions. And even if these ideas are not really new to me, it's good to be reminded of it and put into somebody else's words.
I find it extremely difficult to accurately identify the cause of mental health issues. Life being what it is, you can come up with any number of excuses for any given problem. For example, I've noticed a pattern where random minor problems ー such as my wife ignores me when I make a joke, or somebody cuts in line ー will sometimes send me flying into an irrational, depressive rage. (Internalized rage, because I avoid conflict.)
When reflecting on why this happens, I have come up with a million theories: I'm stressed from my long daily commute, I'm stressed from living in a foreign country, I'm stressed because I'm not working at achieving my dreams, I'm bad at dealing with people because I was an only child, I hate conflict because my parents had a messy divorce, or maybe my brain chemicals are just out of whack. It's impossible to identify a root cause, but maybe in the end it doesn't really matter what the cause is. All you can do is treat the symptoms, with practical baby steps like CBT, as you suggest.
And it has worked. Even though I sometimes feel like I'm nowhere near who I want to be, other times I marvel how much I've achieved and grown. (Although that could be egocentric bias: I tend to view my current set of beliefs and values as superior to those of my past.)
I hope that you are able to get over your fear of rejection and get a job, if that's what you really want. If you take your own advice, I know you can achieve it. Just watch out for the ironic process problem: sometimes the more pressure you put on yourself to do something, the less likely you are to succeed.
"man's daughter circle violation festival"
15 years from now some prankster will register 4-ch.net and put up a fake blog about neural networks
>>262
That implies that this site will someday die. It's lasted this long, it'll last forever.
wow shit
i just received a BACKHANDED COMPLIMENT (x1).
i stored the BACKHANDED COMPLIMENT in my SHORT TERM MEMORY.
> I've forgotten almost everything I learned in school that is not relevant to my daily life.
That's because school is not meant to teach you anything at all, it's there to make you employable in the future.
Everything is oriented towards employability, from the grades and the student ranking, to the strict schedule of the classes and the layout of the classrooms themselves that closely mimic a factory or an office. After all, discipline exercises itself in the control of temporality and the distribution of bodies across a closed space.
I think you're generally experiencing alienation, but I guess a revelatory first step is realizing that everyone is basically in the same rut you feel you're in, general sense of purposelessness, atrophied abilities (probably a maximization of much more meager talents that are used at work), even reduced attention span.
Regarding that last one, Mark Fisher seemed to think that "hyperactive communication flows" had a devastating effect on attention and pretty much identifies something akin to ADHD in basically every single one of his students, who couldn't even do as much as finish reading a book, and needed constant distraction. I refused the idea at first, how could I be so vulnerable to media and capitalism as to have a reduced attention span, but it's true, I tried reading again, and it's a lot of effort to even concentrate. There's constant stimuli at an office and even in the short periods of calm I need some sort of passive background noise to even work. You get atuned to that rhythm eventually and everything else becomes impossible.
Christmas, 1944. Northern France.
My time has finally come
owo
>>261
Otokonoko badly translated by machine to man's daughter is my favourite genre of JAV.
I feel like I'm going to have a girlfriend son.
bros before hos d00d
Aoi Shouta x KENN
Imagine being cute.
>>267
There's also the inverse, ゆめみりあむすこれ machine translated by Twitter as "Dreaming of my son"
(Yumemi Riamu does have trans colors, but he really needs a breast reduction if he's FtM)
seeing a picture for the first time of a long time net friend and they're REALLY FUCKING CUTE WTF
every month those "insecurity questions" cut a little deeper
i didn't want a feel, i wanted to pay my bills
A cute girl pressed the door opening button at the train for me. I smiled and thanked her, but quickly remembered how damn ugly my smile is. I feel very bad that she had to see me smile, despite being nice to me. I'm sorry, kind stranger, who were so swift to help me.
Ivan killing his son, but with Bugs holding Daffy.
the weird feeling when, even though my japanese is fairly decent, i still don't quite have that cultural lens down and people still sometimes don't understand what i'm talking about eg when i reference odin to someone who talked about having a dream about a raven, or call something "patrician"
パトリシアン
Bald hairdresser with badly shaved head.
Kamisama help.
at least there's half-price valentine chocolate つД｀)･ﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ･:.｡..｡.:･ﾟ
How do they even know what dragon dick looks like?
some sorta loud nearly subsonic slamming in the distance during the daytime driving me bonkers
Will you ever learn?
day 2 off 20 years of antihistamines: oh, i've got hives and even my eyeballs itch, this is fine
dekinai-chan.jpg
you can't learn c++
(´・ω・｀) all my net friends that used to stay up all night playing video games with me got jobs
>>280 The week after Valentines they sell the men's valentines socks cheap so I buy all my socks for the year! Everyone who sees the constellation of love hearts around my ankles will know what kind of guy I am
frandoll scalretto
>>286
I never made many friends, so they forgot about me by now. My parents and brother forgot, so the only things I got for my 30th birthday were automated messages from forums (´・ω:;.:...
You don't have to.
itching in unspeakable body parts. insides of eyelids. tongue. ear cartilage. elbows.
only fleeting visions of waifus keeping me sane
>>292 fear not, itchy one, papa nurgle's embrace will end your pain soon
can we build a wall on the canadian border instead, it is fucking spring, i am tired of living in the FUCKING GODDAMN TUNDRA WHY IS IT STILL -10 EAT ALL OF THE DICKS goD FUCK
I suck.
My legs hurt like hell, is this old age?
yeah ok fine, making it super hard to add custom animations makes it harder to make sex mods. you know what else it makes it harder to do? add a dual wielding running animation that doesn't look like it's from fucking naruto.
Considering FO76, I'm really not sure whether Bethesda intentionally gimped anything about their engine's moddability, or are just the unparallelled masters of fucking things up by accident.
Though BioWare is giving them a run for their money currently.
>>293 b-but i wanted to be a vomitously ugly tentacle herm :3c
I’m tired of seeing the talking Progressive box.
what's the goddamn point again
>tfw no one to start a proper communist revolution with.
Disregarding some indifferent people, it feels like the world is pure right-wing haters, be it liberals/"progress"ives or conservatives/"alt-right". All paid for by Soros & Co.
>tfw no Soros funding.
What was the point of recklessly raising average global temperatures by several degrees if it's not going to make the Midwest less of a frozen hellscape year-round?
>>306
global warming is actually a russian plot. for proof, just ask yourself "who benefits?"
-billions of acres of formerly inaccessible siberian permafrost are suddenly prime agricultural/mining land
-the baltic is now as warm as the mediterranean, kronstadt is now a warm water port, the acquisition of which being a main foreign policy goal of the russian state for the past 450 years
bonus: which country is a leading export of petroleum, coal, and natural gas, all of which release greenhouse gasses and global warming? you guessed it.
Damn that was really poorly formatted and had some missing words. I'm a native english speaker, I swear.
>>307
Fake news. Russia stands to lose more from it than gain.
Russia already has prime agricultural lands (the chernozem) and it already struggles to export its produce simply because of logistics.
Defrosting the permafrost would make the mud unstable, destroying the remains of strategic infrastructure that was left behind by the Soviet civilisation.
Defrosting the permafrost would potentially release more greenhouse gasses trapped within defrosted area, both making the warming worse and depriving the strategic reserves that lets the comprador government thrive.
Warming things up enough to defrost the permafrost would also reduce the ice coverage drastically, thus opening up the entire northern length of the country for imperialist invasion or uncontrolled polar bear migration.
Russia already has warm-water ports on Baltic and Black seas and the Sea of Japan. However, global warming is said to fuck up the Gulfstream and everything it warms, thus threatening the Baltic and potentially causing uncontrolled Finns migration.
Also, Russia is not a top coal exporter.
album called "they can't all be zingers"
they're all zingers
??
primus sucks
yeah tbh
anyone else gay, but straight for cute 2d girls
>>313
not me, but coincidentally I just read a twitter thread by a lesbian otaku complaining that she feels ostracized by the majority of other lesbian otaku for not being a yaoi fan like them
funny the inverse isn't more common, TBH
>>314 I...I'm not sure what the inverse would be. A gay otaku who feels ostracized for not being a yuri fan?
>>309
Those are all good points, but...
> uncontrolled polar bear migration
Is this seriously a concern?
really annoyed because the radio did an interview with an advocate who clearly feels that a tritone is a natural voice pitch variation and won't make the organization they are representing sound absolutely insane on the radio
(which apparently they've already accomplished in federal court...)
>>317
They already squatted a town on Novaya Zemlya a couple of weeks ago.
> already be town on Novaya Zemlya
> oh and now there are some polar bears, glhf
john candy trying to climb dan aykroyd's arm.gif
boogie: btw i'm gay
the gays: yikes, no thanks bub
I can't buy a bih no wedding rang
lmao boogie has to delete a contentious tweet like twice a month, and it's always for the dumbest, most provably inept shit he could come up, i almost want to follow him to see the shitstorms first hand
baka-jama-inu
baka ja nai no
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i wanna learn ancient greek
I am worthless unless I am working.
anyone else feel like they want to do things but there are just so many things and it's overwhelming so you do nothing instead
hungry
cold
tummy hurt
legs hurt
hands hurt
time to go to work
i still love fighting games, but i made like no headway with them since the 90s and now i cba to even try anymore
i always wanted to draw hentai but never wanted the hentai artist lifestyle
>hentai artist lifestyle
what
>>326
It's a treat to read Homer or Plato in the original, but it can be difficult if you don't already know an ancient language, like Latin for example.
>>334
if the one hentai artist i fund on patreon is any indication, this involves a lot of explaining to people why you can't fulfill requests to draw underage characters
Finally the /img/ sidebar link being red makes sense.
Why do I keep binge eating all my snacks when I'm drunk
>337
S-sidebar?.. There are... other boards?
>>329
At least the last 5-10 years. I'm a bit envious of people who've found their dedication. And those whose scope is too limited to see anything beyond what they are doing. On the other hand, I feel mine is too limited to see my own grand interest.
how do you pronounce "myanmar"
ミャンマー
マイアンマー
>>341
What's the original language? Was it in English or Japanese first?
If it was English first, then it's up to the author of the translation.
If it was Japanese first, then it's right there.
>>342 The original language is Burmese. I'm pretty sure it was in Burmese first. I just used katakana as a ghetto IPA because their pronunciation is less ambiguous than Latin letters and we're all weebs here anyway.
pokemon sword
pokemon shield
pokemon gun
pokemon earth to air missile
pokemon tactical nuke
I've only ever seen it in my flag books, but I've always pronounced it my-ANNE-mur, never really thought about it before...
There's a spot the size of a malteser on my right cheek and I hate it and want it to go away.
the weird thing is "Burma" and "Myanmar" are actually the same word in the original Burmese (due to fully homegrown sound changes, not the usual trend of Europeans adopting some ancient term like Qing or Riben and totally fucking up the pronounciation)
well, if you'd also consider "Nawlins" and "New Orleans" the same word(s) anyway
>>350
"Japan" isn't from "riben", though, it was more like a telephone game via Portuguese.
People everywhere mess up the pronunciation of foreign words and end up with weird names. Not to mention that China isn't a mispronunciation of Qing, the Portuguese learned to call it China from when they were in India. Moreover Riben has no relation to Japan, the name Japan was learned from the Malay by, again, the Portuguese.
>>344
Waiting for Pokémon ICBM/SLBM. Maybe they'll finally have Frostbite level of graphical fidelity. Still likely the same story though...
éd on the spot...
umyamyamyamyanmar
lol google translates "Tausendjähreges Reich" as "Millennial Kingdom"
now i'm imagining hitler eating an avocado toast