I'm usualy just a lurker around the board, but today i have a story... recently i been posting about long distance relationship because I really like this girl that lives in japan. but i live in australia so its really hard if i want to confess to her.. well this is how it all started...
Around 2005 April, i was picked on by some people at school because of my hobby, which is movie making. I'm really like a movie otaku, i love watching movies thats why my dream is to become a film director. most of the girls i knew, i told them about my hobby and they would all ne like "isn't that like really immature??" and later on wont ever talk to me.. it was around November when i was on a japanese pen pal website where i met the japanese girl, her name was Aya. we started emailing each other talking about school and life style ect. then i asked her if she used skype and she said she uses it so we added each other. we started talking in skype, (to those who doesn't know its like msn but you use microphone to talk). for the first time, i told her i'm into film making... she unlike the other girls was actualy intrested in it.. she asked me when can i show her my movie.
we talked almost everyday, mostly for 2 hours and we can always talk about anything like movies, anime, school, music ect.. then one night... we talked for 6 hours! i only had 2 hour sleep because i had to wake up for tennis lessons >"< we got more close after that. for christmas i bought her a bracelet and air mailed it to her, she liked it alot. one day i got her email but was really surprised... usualy at the end of the email she would just write "from Aya" but this time she wrote "Love from Aya". i had this feeling when i saw it. after that, i didn't hear from her for 2 weeks and then one night i got her email asking when can i talk to her... but after that... I've waited for a month and stil counting on... I emailed her before saying i have something to tell her because i planned to confess to her next time we talk.. but now i dont think i can do it because i reckon its highly likely i may get rejected since we are so far away ＿|￣|○" the feeling with this girl is different from all the other girls i liked. should i confess or not??
>>41
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>> 41
Oooh noooooo I didn't meant you, I meant benson I was refering to a japanese tv show called densha otoko that we both watched before
Sorry for the miscommunication, and if you took it that offensively
My apologizes.
(to be honest though Steyr AUG is good that gun is underrated in even in CS XD and I know alot of SAS used that gun a lot)
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* *I'm personally really pissed that he just forgot about the japanese girl like that. Money is only a way to realize our dreams. One thing thats important is a feeling. If you just want to fuck, then you can wank or something. But rejecting something that might have been a real feeling is a bad decision (in my opinion). She never acted like a bitch. I had a few girls in my life and I can tell you one thing. It's really damn hard to find one that will understand you completly. If you'll find the one that you can talk with for the whole night, it might be the love of your life. Someday you'll be old. Your wife will be old too. She won't be as cute as in the past, but you'll still enjoy your life together because you'll be like two parts of the same apple. I would never fuck a girl that would fell for my Rifle. This kind of girls is so called FANTA (Fuck And Never Touch Again). So if you're still reading this thread, just reconsider all this matter. If you'll still think about being with the jap girl as of "I'll be wasting loads of cash to visit her", then just forget about her cuz you're not worth her. Thats what I had to say.
If it comes to "Love" in the sig. it really means nothing. I have a pen pal friend from Japan and she always finishes her mails with Love Yuko. If your friend just started this habbit it may mean that she just starts to feel something. Why the hell all the guys tries to rush it and confess ASAP? Just enjoy the feeling you have, keep it going and maybe one day you won't even have to say it. Just wait for a good moment and when it comes you won't need advice from 4-ch and you'll just tell her what you feel.
PS. It's your life, just do what you want.
well i'm not the kind of guy who just wants to F*** girls, from the previouse post some people been saying "whats the point of having long distance!" i understand what you mean when you said its damn hard to find one that wiil understand you becasue from the girls i have met, she really is different. actuali i never thought it was a waste of money to visit her! i had a thought of doing it one day cos firstly, i can see her, secondly, i want to visit differeny places and thirdly, i really want to go to japan again cos i been there once and i really want to see the cherry blossoms ^^
Personaly i really appreciate everyone on this thread, willing to read my story and help out. some people properly think I'm just an Otaku and hopeless at everything ＿|￣|○ although i dont know anyone here but truly... thank you! I appreciate everyone trying to help me.
well so far I still havn't heard from her yet, but i beleive within 3 weeks i would hear from her soon! I'm gonna wait for another 2-3 months till she replies. Maybe i will write her a letter! I think >>49 is right, i should just wait for a good moment then tell her how i feel, maybe i been rushing things again >"< Well I'll report when something happens and let you guys know!
Everything too me now seems like i just woke up from a dream and back to my lonley anonymouse life.... 1 month waiting felt like 5 months ~~" is it true that if you truely like someone, time seems to be slower without them but is faster when your with them?
yup. It's just the same like when you're having a good fun or you're bored. And it's the same like waiting for the X-mas presents. Have you tried to contact her?
well i did email her once and been waiting ever since!~ somehow i keep thinking the reply will be here soon, maybe i just need to keep waiting.
hey everyone i need SERIOUS help! apparently i found out this girl likes me but i dont like her. shes a family friend and we only got to know each other this year for a bout 2 months. me and her friend pretended that her friend asked me to be her bf and she took it soo serious and i heard she couldn't sleep at all, me and the friend told her today and she got pretty upset i think. well the problem is (this is what i plan) she knows who i like which is the jap girl "aya" and knows the i been waiting for about 2 months now. I'm going to pretend that i talked to the jap girl and confessed and that she liked me also so that shes my gf. if i do that she will give up but i feel so bad doing that >"< any suggestsion anyone???
so first you want a girlfriend but she doesn't want you, then some other girl is into you but you don't want a piece of that?
>>54
um... don't like, lol
You will get fucked and then NO girl will want you
>>54
for starters, stop writing like that
>I'm usualy just a lurker around the board
you're in every damn thread i read, benson_2009.
nominating "benson_200n" as the new anonymous name, where n is some number.
>>59 My suggestion? Don't lie to this girl, tell her the truth so she can move on with her life. Nobody said you have to force yourself to like her. Show some decency by telling her gently that you're not interested in her, or her friend for that matter, and that you're interested in someone else right now. Also, pretending to get asked out by her friend is just low, shame on you both.
Trust me, you'll only make things worse by lying to her.
hmm thats true, its bad to play with peoples feelings... i should know better >"< your right i should just tell her the truth.... lying only makes this worse, thanks for that! ^^
has she replied you yet?
sorry to doulble post but...>>56 you sound like a flamer in most of the theads. lol not very supportive
ya... ID:Heaven from the Flim & TV Densha Otoko thread lol XD
ID:Heaven is what you get when you sage the thread; it's not the same person every time.
I find it really hard to talk to girls now, since i cant really use the internet much nower days and stil waiting for the reply... i begin to think how am i gonna find relationship, somehow my intrest on girls is lost ~"~ i somehow think it has to do with my past since i been tricked a few times...
i think you should just stop worring about it.
seams like its taking a lot out of you.
dont worry eventualy everyone finds their someone,
you just have to accept that this girl might not be that person.
After waiting for 3 months, i dont think i can wait any longer. I'm thinking of moving on with my life, theres realy no point waiting here all day. i dont blame her or anything its just that i cant wait anymore. day by day my feeling just start to loose and eventualy all that feelings are lost now. what do you think i should do now?＿|￣|○
move on, find someone new.
move on, you should have done that ages ago instead of waiting.
hmm i'll try moving on, waiting here really doesn't help at all. thanks for that!
Hi Benson I just read what you said and I found it interesting. However, I don't think you should give up on this Japanese girl if you like her so much. Have you tried sending her another message? Maybe the one you sent her forever ago never got to her? By the way how did you just lose contact with her? Does she not get on skype anymore?
Wishing you the best of luck eiga otoko!
benson...dont listen to >>72. Move on, don't wait, just move on.
>>73
I'm not saying he should just wait I'm just curious more about the situation.
>>74
if you curious about the situation, read the thread, it should be enough.
I mean Come on, I believe 72 is right! If you really like her...did you did anything to get her attention besides waiting for her? Maybe her com crash or something bad happen? No one knows...Until the day you know the reason why she just left not contacting you, you shouldn't be thinking that she out there to play you. If she is, i dont think anyone would be that stupid to spend hours talking to you or something like that.I understand that long distance relationship is definately hard to maintain so ...just for backup..if you really feel that you cant handle such a relation..i suggest you be practical and not get yourself a long-distance relationship
you are asking if benson didnt do enough to get her attention, but what about her not doing enough to keep contact? i mean, if she truly cared about him, even remotely, you would think that she would find someone to write him even a simple email. you are saying he didnt do enough, im saying she didnt do enough and isnt worth it, so he should just move on.
which is why i say if he cant think positive on a long-distance relationship just give up and find something more realistic. But if lets just say that the girl did really get caught up with something or maybe couldnt find a way to get to him? there are lots of possibilities that he has to lay out depending on whether if he's willing or not.
its true she has a life and she probably got caught up, but honestly, a email doesnt shouldnt take more than an hour to write just saying "im going to be busy for awhile" and there is always a way to get to a person. always, especially in today's society.
nothing to see here, move along.....
sage for a nihilist complaining.
oops, wrong thread, har har.
hey everyone! sorry i havn't been on for a while..... well i did send a letter to her 4 weeks ago since she didn't reply on email. its true... i've only waited and didn't take any action, cos i thought if i kept on sending emails she would properly get annoyed. i really thought alot of possibilties like she was too busy with work or something must have happened because it really doesn't seem like her to just suddenly dissappear like that, there must be a reason and she isn't a type of person who would not contact you all of a sudden. i mean why would she talk to me for 6 hours if she was just using me or playing around?? well wat do u guys suggest me to do?? i moved on a bit and she kinda disappeared in my mind for a while. my friends keep saying "give up, she wont ever reply" but somehow i just think that she will reply, or that we will somehow contact each other. its almsot 4 months now... what should i do??
-Eiga Otoko
hello there benson.i have almost the same experience with you.having an online relationship and living long distance.but what seperate us is that i was really glad that i got to meet her in person when i got back home(i'm studying oversea and she's at my home country).we do spend a lot of time e-mailing and talking to each other and even it cost me a lot that time it just don't matter(we can't use skype).it's true that i also did confess to her on the phone,it's really take courage.as for you benson,it's unlucky that you didn't have chance to confess to her.i was thinking that maybe she has waited for you to confess long enough or maybe she just met someone in real life and they started dating.i know that the truth is painful,but there must be reason for her to left you just like that.there is no certainty in online relationship,the thing you need the most is trust.looking at your condition now,it's been really long since you last contacted her.there is possibly chance that she might contact you back,but if it is 4 months already,i think it's to long enough.all that i could say,move on benson-san,there is more waiting for good guy like you.yes,it's a miracle that she will contact you back.but waiting long enough for nothing is not really worth it!!
>>84 hmm i see, well i moved on a bit. I was going to confess to her but didn't expect this to happen, can you guys think of any possiblities that she didn't reply??
-電影男
>>85 umm why cant u just move on and accept the fact that shes not going to reply. it doesnt matter why but if u so want to know then why dont u email her or something asking why. i still dont understand how u can have hope after 4 months. its pretty obvius what happened
That's the problem with you Chinese people; always so shy. Send another e-mail asking if she recieved the previous one, since you haven't gotten a reply yet. No girl should be annoyed by that (unless the girl in question is being a total bitch).
yeah.to think why she didn't reply is not really a good idea..there's to many possibilities for the reason..and the best way to ask her again.move on a bit..don't put hope to much for things that unlikely to happen..i know it's painful..but this is life..
well i did send another email but i doubt i wil get a reply. i moved on a bit and currently i'm going out with this girl this week lol, any suggestions of places i should take her?
-電影男
oh yea I'll try that, i'll report back what happens! date is on this saturday at noon ^^
benson, i would avoid anything fancy and just go for a causal date. since its at noon, a fancy date will not be appropriate. plus fancy dates will make her nervous, and thats bad. rule #1 about first dates: keep her comfortable. when she gets uncomfortable it will end bad for you. and to keep her comfortable you need to be comfortable/relax.
dress comfortable and respectable, slacks, nice shirt, nice shoes, shower, put deodorant on. make sure the car is clean if you are driving.
i would recommend getting some pizza at a nice, causal place. then afterwards take her out to play some mini-golf (depending on weather) or something else like that. this way you can relax, enjoy the weather and each other company, but most importantly both of you will have fun. talk to her, tease her a little and in pure jest like making fun of her swinging style or bet her that she will miss the putt. make sure you smile too when you tease her to show you are playing, make sure you dont come off as a giant asshole. after the game get some ice cream to cool off and take her home.
its important that you be yourself, dont act like she is a potential girlfriend and place her on a pedestal because she is a woman. treat her like a mate, a extremely cute mate, but a mate none the less.
i wish you luck with your date.
thanks alot! i didn't have anything fancy in mind and i think what you say is the best. I'll report back tomorow and tell you guys what happens! ^^
-電影男
well apparently, the girl couldn't come cos of family stuff happening. i mite ask her out again next time and hope that she can go! recently we been smsing and she keeps saying i'm cute and that i'm really nice and easy to talk to, does that mean anything?
-電影男
i guess it means something. try again for another date, and if it falls through again because of her then forgot about her even if she says you are cute and nice; actions speak louder than words.
ok i'll see what happens later! thanks for that!
-電影男
BIG NEWS!!! I FINALY GOT A REPLY FROM THE JAPANESE GIRL!!! 4 months!! i cant beleive it! 4 months and now i finaly got a reply!!! this is wat she wrote:
Hey Benson,
How are you doing? I'm doing fine.
I'm so sorry about I didnt email you for a long time..I have been so busy.
I'll check your web site soon. :)
anyway I have to go now.
see ya,
Aya xx
hmm well not much replied but i knew she was really busy, i hope i dont need to wait for another 4 months now... wat do u guys think??
-電影男
shit. well at least we know she is still breathing. how did that date go with the girl?
Just send her some nice e-mail...
100GET and for fucks sake please stop putting the 男 crap after your name already
>>100
Seconded
Ive been waiting, too
r2_jane@yahoo.co.jp
I definitely understand how hard it is when you've begun devoloping feelings for a friend like J. But the thing is, it sounds to me you two are on the same wavelengths. I think I'm with the rest of the guys and tell you to take hold of her!
Sorry, I mistyped this message (104) and meant for another thread. My apologies!
By the way Benson, 4 months is a REALLY long time... I'm not quite sure what's going on here. I just hope it works out in the end.
>>106
Maybe she found this board
well i'm a tad confused at the moment cos the feeling i had with the japanese girl was lost for a while, i'm just afraid i'm gonna wait for another 4 months or something... i'll be surprised if she found this board, prob got freaked lol.
>>98 lol i said the girl didn't show up cos of family business or something.. didn't go well with her cos she doesn't talk much so i didn't bother. I sent a normal email to the jap girl yesterday so hopefully it wont take long for her to reply. btw how do you sage a post??
write "sage" in the link box. it adds your post to the thread without bumping the thread back to the top of the page.
ok cool!
I have no idea what's going on, but benson_2009, you're such a loser. Have phone sex with her already.
And when you meet her, go to a hotel and relieve your frustrations already. Read my other posts if u want advice.
sorry but i aint the kind of guy that just want sex, your in the wrong thread man
>>111
DISREGARD THAT, I SUCK COCKS
Yo, Eiga Otoko, any updates/emails from the Japanese girl? I am in Tokyo right now you should have me go tell her to email you. Ahahaha.
Goodluck!
hahah she doesn't live in tokyo, she lives in hyogo i think. have fun in japan!
You never did take my advice and get that Steyr AUG, did you?
>>116
You never did take my advice and chop off your penis, did you?
You never gave me that kind of advice.
Hey man, you can kiss my ass.
Benson is like a goddamned brother to me, man.
hahaha i'll save up the money for it and you need a gun lincense to buy guns here. lol whats with the flaming?! well there wasn't much news about the jap girl so thats why i didn't come on much. at the moment i am thinking of emailing her to ask if she has any time to talk to me so i could maybe confess. even if its just a minute i really want to talk to her, i havn't got anything since the last email and been living my boring life like this waiting for something that i probably forgotten.
>>118 everyone here are like brothers to me, this has got to be one big event in my life to be honest, even though i dont know anyone here but you guys are the best! i love this message board.
benson, as a your brah, i gotta say, you have patience. give the confession a shot, but i wouldnt expect a happy ending out of it (citing the lack of communication). but go ahead, she lives in japan, so i doubt it she would hunt you down with a stery aug for confessing.
Brother Benson, you are a very shy person, no?
hahaha yea i am a shy type person, i guess i'll give it another shot! wish me luck~!! thanks again!
hiya, well im a n00b on this forum, but i was reading this topic, and its pretty interesting. but man, 4 months for a reply? something must be going on, unless like her comp blew up or never went online after that cuz thats a long time. Hope that u can have contact with this girl and able to get your confession out sometime soon. g/l man, i'll keep reading on about this =)
btw, what this penpal site u went to? im interested in talking to people arouund the world =)
hey everyone
i emailed the jap girl saying that i have something big i must tell her. i was thinking of showing the message board to her but i thought about it, would that scare the crap out of her?? to be honest i really dont know, i dont want to be obsesed with her and when i get shot down i'll prob go to mental mode going crazy and stuff. so right now, maybe she got scared of me but i didn't say anything to make it look like i like her or something. well i guess i can only WAIT again, seems like its always like that. lol everyone keeps saying i got alot of patience to wait 4 months xD
>>123 http://www.yorihuzi.net/1--8-1.html thats the website i met the jap girl.
what kind of a friend are you by still referring to her as 'the jap girl'? Do you even know 'jap' is offensive? Give her a name here, dammit. I'll leave the rest of your problem to the other guys here.
>>125
About as offensive as calling a british person a brit. Stop fagging up the thread with your stupid shit if you're not even going to help him. LOL IRONY
benson sounds like he's confusing a bit from Densha otoko into his own life... with the showing his JP girl this site and all...
>>125 hahahaha sorry i didn't know that, well her name is Aya.
yeah i know its similar in densha otoko when hermes finds out about the message board, but the reason why i want to show her the message board is to show how crazy i was waiting for 4 months. basicly my feelings about aya is all in here so if she read this she will know how i feel. i dont want to sounds weird or a looser but god i'm really confused atm, i thought that she might be scared of me but doesn't seem to be like that cos before i was waiting for 4 months, she asked "when can i talk to you?" on her email. it just doesn't make sense, maybe she really was so busy, i really dont know. i'm even more scared to confess now, maybe that would scare the creeps out of her.
to be honest, i havn't been this crazy about a girl, usualy i move on really easily but... for some reason, i can just keep waiting like this. she really is different from other girls i met and known. i really wish i can just hear her voice one more time... even if its for a minute. i know i really shouldn't be this crazy about a girl especially one that you cant even see and are miles away from you. maybe i really suck at these stuff, prob why i am still single. well i guess i just have to keep waiting... nothing else i can do really lol. i just hope i dont have to wait too long.
but you've only talked to her through internet right? Have you even meet once? If not, can you really say you really like her?
do you REALLY want her to read all those "stick it in her pooper"-like posts? I don't know if it'd be a good idea. I'm not sure how realistic Herme's reaction was in densha. goodness knows, she may not react so positively in the end.
Itai!!!! ;D
anyways, i wouldnt show her this board, well at least not all the replies here. btw, are u ever able to see this girl? lets say u like each other, how r u going to ever see her? she lives like on the other side of the world, and long distance relationships are pretty hard to maintain.
but, if it will make u feel better, u should tell her, because its going to suck later if u dont and then have regret or like wonder about what would of happened if u ever did tell her. might as well get her reaction from her and dont have regret in the future. trust me, its the worst thing to have when u get older.
I think benson_2009 is trying too much to be like Densha Otoko. Why? He came from that thread, and clearly showed that he watched it. He tries to live a fairy tale by waiting 4 months from a girl in Japan when he lives in Australia. His heart seemingly fluttered when he got the word Love written in his email, and he doesn't understand the Japanese girls last message. 4 months without communication says 2 things: 1) You're not part of her life anymore, and 2) She has a boyfriend. By the way she responded, you can tell that she had something busy to do. Even for a Japanese girl, she should be able to get online if she was able to before. She gave you no clue on what she was doing, nor did she give you a clue on why she had to leave. You're obviously trying to get a GF because you chase two different girls, then when a girl likes you, you end up not liking her not because she was your family friend, but either 1) personality or 2) looks.
What I suggest is just act yourself. Stop trying to be and live something you aren't. I myself watched Densha Otoko, and it is in my opinion that you should do what he learned to do when he confessed: You live your life and move on.
Ja Ne.
>>126 Various of my japanese friends found it offensive to be called japs. In my country its common knowledge that Jap is an insult, and used that way. Anyway, what bothered me is that he didn't have the manners to stop referring to her as sort of a third party.
If you want to flame, fine, but do it properly.
I agree. Benson, just move on with your life, stop thinking about the girl, and soon you'll realise that you only loved her based on your fantasy ideal image, not because of the person she actually is - a person you never got to meet or know in real life.
Benson, I've been following this thread from the sidelines till now, but feel compelled to comment due to recent developments. In my opinion, it is a large mistake to show Aya this thread because it will send the wrong message.
When you are uncertain of something, there are two things you can do: 1) do nothing but hope for the best. 2) act and find out. Until now you've basically been at (1) and now you're trying to move to (2), but there are risks. This risk consists of the chance that she tells you in clear terms that she does not feel the way about you that you wanted her to. Other possibilities are that she clearly does like you a lot, or an unclear statement either way.
It is laudable that you want to act, and understandable that you waited a long time for this. After all you seem to sincerely like this girl and a rejection would definitely hurt you. However, the nature of her feelings towards you are already set. There is not much you can do to change these. All that matters is that you are clear about Aya's feelings for you.
So you want to elicit a response from her to get some clarity. At least you want to be sure that she doesn't break communications for 4 months yet again. Now you assume that when Aya reads this thread, she will understand how you think. I think she will understand that you are a dreamer. There's nothing wrong with that, but it doesn't seem very appealing to a girl, I think (it's different than being in touch with your emotions, which they do dig). It also tells her that you are too lazy or scared to tell her in person (a letter in fact) that you enjoy her attention.
For that reason, and also that she might get suspicious that you set some of your posts up more as confessions than as contributions to the thread, I strongly recommend you not to show her this thread. Instead, I would in your case write to Aya that you enjoy her replies, and talking to her. It doesn't even have to be a letter with that theme, you could also write it as a side-note in some other correspondence as long as its clear you value her. This should not be harmful as long as it isn't done too cheesy. You could post a draft and we'll evaluate it for you.
cheers,
Demian
after reading the posts, i understand what you mean. its true that i am a big dreamer since i often day dream alot. honestly i really think she might have got a bf after reading what >>132 said. i understand why people say i am trying to live like densha otoko and part of it is true, i really am a big dreamer cos during that 4 months of waiting, i would just day dream about meeting aya and confessing. i 100% agree with >>135, if i show her the thead it really thinks i set all this up for a confession.
i really would like to move on and i dont think it should be too hard but there will be things that remind me of Aya. i did write her a letter saying how i really enjoyed talking to her and that it felt like a dream since i havn't talk to her for so long. maybe i should just make Aya a really good memory, but the biggest problem is its hard for me to socialize with girls that i know here. most think i'm a weirdo since i dream too much, some wont even bother talking or even say hi. to be honest i'm sort of like a otaku, instead of talking to people now i just watch tv, movies and anime. not that i'm trying to be like densha but thats what i really do nower days, i was so sick of being ignored by people that i didn't talk to anyone for a long time and being posting on this thread. its hard to beleive but thats what life is for me.
thats why i said this thread has been a big part of my life since i dont really socialize with people now. i dont think i would confess to Aya anymore but remain good friends, which i think is the best since i can move on and stay in touch with her. well realyl depends if i ever get a reply anymore but thanks guys for those great advice! really appreciate the help.
Benson, unfortunately I can relate very well how much of a problem it is to be a dreamer. I too, I am trapped in a fog of silly lazy dreams which hold me from making real accomplishments in my life. By reading manga, watching anime, listening to music - the like, I waste most of my day. The worst part is that I realize my problem everyday, am guilty of perpetrating it every new day.
Its really hard to break out of the cocoon of the dreamer. Its walls are thick and fluffy, cozy and warm. To break out of it, I need real a goal stronger than a dream. But what star can perpetrate these walls? And once I escape, its so tempting to return. I wish I could have the inner guidance to steer towards an honourable goal.
There are certain girls which I like, but I know they won't choose to be around me since I hardly accomplish anything of meaning. There is only one way to alter this situation, which is to do real work and not to let myself get dragged down in the quicksand of lamenes. But is it sufficient? I don't know. In a world where any goal can be disputed for its worth, what goal can be pursued without faltering? I must find a solution soon, for can no longer be a child, have to take up responsibility for my own life.
I can conceive of girls liking me for what I am. The girls I like are not among them and I feel I have nothing to say to them, nothing that won't make me look like a loser to them. So I don't. I sense there is no point to approach the girls I like because I am not the guy I want to be. That person should be with them, not me.
Anyway Benson, we've got to live in reality, whatever that is, as much as we can. However great our dreams are, it involves only one person, us. And loneliness just isn't fun.
ps. I owe you an apology, because in post nr 1 you did actually introduce Aya.
>>138 i think i know what you mean, i'm about the same. everytime i like a girl, it seems i had to hide about my innder dreamer side from them and when i do that i feel unconfortable since i'm not use to it. but one of the problem is i use to be able to talk to these girls and can chat alot, but now i just cant seem to have a nice normal chat with them anymore, just completly speechless. its always the same like "hi hows ur day?, not bad u? pretty good" something like that.
well the good thing is i moved aya from my life now, actually i did that a long time ago but there are just things that remind me of her. well all i can think of is probably wait to meet another girl in the future or something otherwise i'll be stuck in this thread xD i dont really trust most girls i know here cos most of them were just using me, that was mostly in the past. seriously are you suppose to be nice to a girl or just act cool?? i mean i'm nice to all the girls i talk to but it seems it makes me look soft but then if you act cool it just makes you look like an idiot. prehaps i should stop focusing on relationships and focus on something else, maybe that would do better, what do you guys think?
i think that's a good idea benson
BIG NEWS AGAIN!!!! ANOTHER REPLY!!!! AND THIS TIME I AM TALKING TO AYA!!!!
Hey Benson!!
I'm sorry about I didnt email you for a long time..
hm.. I'd like to talk to you on 18th..Okay?? I'm exciting about listen your news!!haha
well I'll have history exams tomorrow..I hope I can do well on it..
see ya!
Aya
dw guys i aint gonna tell her about the message board, i just got so many things to tell her!! its been like 7 months since we talked. well hope it goes well! cant wait! i'm seriously over excited and i know i shouldn't